{"id":1139,"date":"2026-10-01T22:00:47","date_gmt":"2026-10-01T22:00:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/imgon111.jpg"},"modified":"2026-10-01T22:01:11","modified_gmt":"2026-10-01T22:01:11","slug":"imgon111","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/60-yillik-esimi-topraga-verdikten-sonra-avukati-kapima-gelip-bana-bir-mektup-uzatti-ve-siz-aslinda-hic-evlenmemissiniz-dedi\/imgon111\/","title":{"rendered":"60 YILLIK E\u015e\u0130M\u0130 TOPRA\u011eA VERD\u0130KTEN SONRA AVUKATI KAPIMA GEL\u0130P BANA B\u0130R MEKTUP UZATTI VE \u201cS\u0130Z ASLINDA H\u0130\u00c7 EVLENMEM\u0130\u015eS\u0130N\u0130Z!\u201d DED\u0130"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-1139","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"

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“Selim’in \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra bo\u015fanma dosyam\u0131 yeniden ara\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m. Bana verilen belgelerin bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n sahte oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendim. Art\u0131k dul kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m fakat seninle yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z nik\u00e2h\u0131n da hi\u00e7bir ge\u00e7erlili\u011fi yoktu.”
\nMektubu g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme bast\u0131rd\u0131m.
\nPeki, neden yeniden evlenmemi\u015ftik?
\nNermin bir sonraki sat\u0131rda bu soruyu da cevapl\u0131yordu.
\n“Sana ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlatmak i\u00e7in defalarca haz\u0131rland\u0131m. Ama her seferinde korktum. \u00d6nce askerden yeni d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn. Ard\u0131ndan ilk \u00e7ocu\u011fumuza hamile kald\u0131m. Sonra ikinci \u00e7ocu\u011fumuz d\u00fcnyaya geldi. Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e ger\u00e7e\u011fi s\u00f6ylemek daha da zorla\u015ft\u0131.”
\nBir insan b\u00f6yle b\u00fcy\u00fck bir s\u0131rr\u0131 nas\u0131l ta\u015f\u0131yabilirdi?
\n\u00d6fkemin yerini derin bir \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc almaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
\nAncak mektubun son sayfas\u0131nda yazanlar beni bir kez daha \u015fa\u015fk\u0131na \u00e7evirdi.
\n“Be\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6nce ciddi \u015fekilde hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131mda art\u0131k ger\u00e7e\u011fi saklayamayaca\u011f\u0131ma karar verdim. Bir avukat tuttum. Hem sana hakk\u0131n\u0131 vermek hem de \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde ya\u015fayabilece\u011fin sorunlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zmek istedim.”
\nAvukata bakt\u0131m.
\n“Demek be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r her \u015feyi biliyordunuz!”
\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.
\n“Evet. Nermin Han\u0131m, sahip oldu\u011fu mal varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na ve size b\u0131rakabilmek i\u00e7in b\u00fct\u00fcn yasal i\u015flemleri haz\u0131rlatt\u0131. Ancak sizin i\u00e7in ba\u015fka bir \u015fey daha yapt\u0131.”
\n\u00c7antas\u0131ndan ikinci bir zarf \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.
\n\u00dczerinde benim ad\u0131m yaz\u0131yordu.
\nZarf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda i\u00e7inden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir anahtar ve bir adres \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.
\nAlt\u0131nda yaln\u0131zca \u015fu c\u00fcmle vard\u0131:
\n“Sevgilim, son hediyemi g\u00f6rmek istiyorsan buraya git.”
\nErtesi sabah b\u00fcy\u00fck o\u011flum beni arabayla adrese g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\n\u015eehrin eski mahallelerinden birindeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir binan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde durduk.
\nAnahtarla kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerime inanamad\u0131m.
\nBuras\u0131 y\u0131llar \u00f6nce Nermin’le evlenmek istedi\u011fimizde param\u0131z yetmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in kiralayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fckk\u00e2nd\u0131.
\nGen\u00e7li\u011fimizde hayalimiz burada bir kitap\u00e7\u0131 a\u00e7makt\u0131.
\n\u0130\u00e7eri girdi\u011fimde duvarlarda aile foto\u011fraflar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n as\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Raflarda y\u00fczlerce kitap vard\u0131.
\nMasada ise Nermin’in bana b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 son mektup duruyordu.
\n“Sevgilim, hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun? Bir g\u00fcn ya\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda bu d\u00fckk\u00e2nda oturup torunlar\u0131m\u0131za kitap okuyaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftin. Hayat\u0131m\u0131z boyunca pek \u00e7ok hayalimizi ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirdik ama bunu hep erteledik.”
\nG\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n \u00fczerine d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyordu.
\n“Bu d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131 ge\u00e7en y\u0131l sat\u0131n ald\u0131m. Senin ad\u0131na d\u00fczenlettim. Art\u0131k \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ve torunlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n burada birlikte vakit ge\u00e7irmesini istiyorum.”
\nO\u011flum omzuma sar\u0131ld\u0131.
\nAma Nermin’in son c\u00fcmlesi beni b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn y\u0131kt\u0131.
\n“Senden tek bir \u015fey istiyorum. Altm\u0131\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fc bir yalan olarak hat\u0131rlama. O g\u00fcn sana verdi\u011fim s\u00f6zlerin hepsini tuttum. Belki devletin kay\u0131tlar\u0131nda e\u015fin de\u011fildim ama kalbimde her zaman senin kar\u0131nd\u0131m.”
\nMektubu bitirdi\u011fimde uzun s\u00fcre konu\u015famad\u0131m.
\nO g\u00fcn o\u011flumla eve d\u00f6nerken y\u0131llard\u0131r saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.
\nEvet, Nermin bana yalan s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Bunu \u00f6\u011frenmek can\u0131m\u0131 yak\u0131yordu. Ke\u015fke ger\u00e7e\u011fi daha \u00f6nce anlatabilseydi. Belki birlikte \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm bulabilir, korkmadan ya\u015fayabilirdik.
\nAma ge\u00e7mi\u015fi de\u011fi\u015ftiremeyece\u011fimi biliyordum.
\nBir hafta sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ve torunlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kitap\u00e7\u0131ya davet ettim.
\nOnlara Nermin’in hik\u00e2yesini anlatt\u0131m. Hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi saklamad\u0131m.
\nArd\u0131ndan y\u0131llard\u0131r parma\u011f\u0131mda ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m alyans\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m ve d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n duvar\u0131ndaki d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn foto\u011fraf\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131na k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kutunun i\u00e7inde yerle\u015ftirdim.
\nAlt\u0131na \u015fu c\u00fcmleyi yazd\u0131m:
\n“Bu y\u00fcz\u00fck, altm\u0131\u015f y\u0131l boyunca birbirini sevmekten vazge\u00e7meyen iki insan\u0131n hat\u0131ras\u0131d\u0131r.”
\nBug\u00fcn o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kitap\u00e7\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 a\u00e7\u0131k. Her cumartesi torunlar\u0131ma kitap okuyorum. Kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z parayla maddi durumu yetersiz \u00e7ocuklara kitap al\u0131yoruz.
\nNermin’in mezar\u0131n\u0131 ziyaret etti\u011fimde ona h\u00e2l\u00e2 k\u0131rg\u0131n oldu\u011fumu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevgi, yap\u0131lan hatalar\u0131 hi\u00e7 ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f gibi kabul etmek de\u011fildir.
\nAma ard\u0131ndan te\u015fekk\u00fcr ediyorum.
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bana b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 son hediye, yaln\u0131zca bir d\u00fckk\u00e2n de\u011fildi. Hayat\u0131m\u0131n geri kalan\u0131n\u0131 anlaml\u0131 k\u0131lacak bir ama\u00e7t\u0131.
\n\u015eimdi seksen alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nday\u0131m. Resm\u00ee kay\u0131tlara g\u00f6re hi\u00e7 evlenmemi\u015f olabilirim.
\nAma altm\u0131\u015f y\u0131l boyunca sevdim, sevildim, baba oldum ve bir aile kurdum.
\nNermin’in bana \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi son \u015fey ise \u015fuydu: Bir insan\u0131n b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 en b\u00fcy\u00fck miras, sahip oldu\u011fu mal de\u011fil, o gittikten sonra bile ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n hayat\u0131nda ya\u015famaya devam eden iyili\u011fidir.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":1024,"height":1024,"file":"2026\/10\/imgon111.jpg","filesize":112679,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"imgon111-300x300.jpg","width":300,"height":300,"filesize":21616,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/imgon111-300x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"imgon111-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":7058,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/imgon111-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"imgon111-768x768.jpg","width":768,"height":768,"filesize":100226,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/imgon111-768x768.jpg"},"full":{"file":"imgon111.jpg","width":1024,"height":1024,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/imgon111.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":1137,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/imgon111.jpg","filename":"imgon111.jpg","filesize":112679,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1139","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1139"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":1137,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1137"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}