{"id":1379,"date":"2026-10-09T08:20:28","date_gmt":"2026-10-09T08:20:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/hgfd.jpg"},"modified":"2026-10-09T08:20:40","modified_gmt":"2026-10-09T08:20:40","slug":"hgfd-4","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/ikiz-bebekli-annenin-bez-parasini-odedim-ertesi-sabah-biraktigi-zarf-hayatimi-degistirdi\/hgfd-4\/","title":{"rendered":"\u0130kiz Bebekli Annenin Bez Paras\u0131n\u0131 \u00d6dedim: Ertesi Sabah B\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 Zarf Hayat\u0131m\u0131 De\u011fi\u015ftirdi"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-1379","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"

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\u0130kiz Bebeklerine Bez Alacak Paras\u0131 Olmayan Kad\u0131na Yard\u0131m Ettim, Ertesi G\u00fcn B\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 Zarf Hayat\u0131m\u0131 De\u011fi\u015ftirdi<\/p>\n

B\u00d6L\u00dcM 2<\/p>\n

“Yirmi \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131ld\u0131r ailemden saklanan ve b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirecek bir ger\u00e7ekle ilgiliydi. Ve mektubun son sat\u0131r\u0131nda yazan o yedi kelimeyi okudu\u011fumda, neden \u00f6zellikle benim kasam\u0131 se\u00e7ti\u011fini nihayet anlad\u0131m…”<\/p>\n

“\u0130dil, ben senin \u00f6ld\u00fc sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n ablan\u0131m.”<\/p>\n

Bu yedi kelimeyi tekrar tekrar okudum. Ellerim \u00f6ylesine titriyordu ki mektubu tutmakta zorlan\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n

Benim bir ablam vard\u0131. Ad\u0131 Aylin’di. Ancak annemin anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re ben hen\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi bir trafik kazas\u0131nda hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Evimizde ondan kalan tek \u015fey, \u00e7ocukluk foto\u011fraflar\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131. Annem o foto\u011fraflara her bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda a\u011flard\u0131. Babam ise Aylin’in ad\u0131n\u0131n an\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 bile istemezdi.<\/p>\n

Ama \u015fimdi elimdeki foto\u011frafta, y\u0131llar \u00f6nce \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m ablam\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f h\u00e2li vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131nda da d\u00fcn markette g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ikiz bebekler…<\/p>\n

M\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcm Hikmet Bey endi\u015feyle y\u00fcz\u00fcme bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

“\u0130dil, iyi misin? \u0130stersen ambulans \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ray\u0131m.”<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

“Hay\u0131r… Ama bug\u00fcn izin almam gerekiyor.”<\/p>\n

Hikmet Bey hi\u00e7bir \u015fey sormadan kabul etti.<\/p>\n

Eve gitmek yerine yak\u0131ndaki parka oturdum ve mektubun geri kalan\u0131n\u0131 okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

“Sevgili karde\u015fim,<\/p>\n

Beni hat\u0131rlaman\u0131 beklemiyorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc senden kopar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131mda hen\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131n. Ama ben seni hi\u00e7bir zaman unutmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Y\u0131llarca seni arad\u0131m. Sana ula\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Baban\u0131n bizi birbirimizden ay\u0131rmak i\u00e7in neler yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendi\u011finde bana inanmakta zorlanacaks\u0131n.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcn markete tesad\u00fcfen gelmedim. Alt\u0131 ayd\u0131r seni uzaktan izliyordum. Sana ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlatmaya cesaret edemiyordum.<\/p>\n

Ama d\u00fcn bana yard\u0131m etti\u011finde, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m o merhametli k\u0131z\u0131n h\u00e2l\u00e2 i\u00e7inde ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

L\u00fctfen bug\u00fcn saat \u00fc\u00e7te eski tren gar\u0131n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki \u00e7ay bah\u00e7esine gel.<\/p>\n

Sana anlatmam gereken \u00e7ok \u015fey var.<\/p>\n

Ablan, Aylin.”<\/p>\n

Mektubu bitirdi\u011fimde saat hen\u00fcz on birdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130lk i\u015f annemi arad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

“Anne, sana bir \u015fey soraca\u011f\u0131m. Aylin ger\u00e7ekten \u00f6ld\u00fc m\u00fc?”<\/p>\n

Telefonun di\u011fer ucunda uzun bir sessizlik oldu.<\/p>\n

Ard\u0131ndan annemin titreyen sesini duydum.<\/p>\n

“Bu soruyu sana kim sordurdu?”<\/p>\n

“Anne, bana do\u011fruyu s\u00f6yle!”<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":554,"height":554,"file":"2026\/10\/hgfd.jpg","filesize":8525,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"hgfd-300x300.jpg","width":300,"height":300,"filesize":4342,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/hgfd-300x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"hgfd-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":1813,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/hgfd-150x150.jpg"},"full":{"file":"hgfd.jpg","width":554,"height":554,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/hgfd.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":1378,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/hgfd.jpg","filename":"hgfd.jpg","filesize":8525,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1379","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1379"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":1378,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1378"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}