{"id":1556,"date":"2026-10-12T22:50:47","date_gmt":"2026-10-12T22:50:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf.jpg"},"modified":"2026-10-12T22:50:54","modified_gmt":"2026-10-12T22:50:54","slug":"ghggf","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kiz-kardesim-firtinada-kaybolduktan-sonra-9-cocuguna-ben-baktim-12-yil-sonra-yegenimin-itirafiyla-kanim-dondu\/ghggf\/","title":{"rendered":"ghggf"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-1556","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"287\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf-287x300.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf-287x300.jpg 287w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf.jpg 744w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 287px) 100vw, 287px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>Okuduk\u00e7a g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme bir \u00f6k\u00fcz oturmu\u015f gibi hissettim. \u201cPeki \u015fimdi nerede oldu\u011funu nas\u0131l biliyorsun?\u201d diye sordum. \u0130\u00e7imdeki derin ac\u0131, yava\u015f yava\u015f tarifsiz bir \u00f6fkeye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu. Bize bunca y\u0131l bu cehennemi ya\u015fatmaya hakk\u0131 var m\u0131yd\u0131?<\/p>\n<p>Emre cebinden telefonunu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. \u201cGe\u00e7en ay sahte bir sosyal medya hesab\u0131ndan bana bir mesaj geldi. Sadece tek bir foto\u011fraf. Annemindi&#8230; Ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc ayn\u0131yd\u0131. Sonra mesaj atmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. O tefeciler y\u0131llar \u00f6nce b\u00fcy\u00fck bir operasyonda tutuklan\u0131p cezaevine girmi\u015fler. Art\u0131k tehlike kalmam\u0131\u015f. Ama bunca y\u0131l sonra sizin, bizim kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131kmaya y\u00fcz\u00fc olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in sadece bana ula\u015ft\u0131. Teyze, o Bal\u0131kesir&#8217;de k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir zeytin kasabas\u0131nda ya\u015f\u0131yor. Her g\u00fcn gizli gizli bizim foto\u011fraflar\u0131m\u0131za bakarak a\u011fl\u0131yormu\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>O an hissettiklerimi kelimelere d\u00f6kmem imkans\u0131zd\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir ihanete u\u011fram\u0131\u015fl\u0131k hissi, kaybolan y\u0131llar\u0131ma duydu\u011fum ac\u0131ma ve her \u015feye ra\u011fmen k\u0131z karde\u015fimi, can\u0131m\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yeniden g\u00f6recek olman\u0131n verdi\u011fi o \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nca umut&#8230; G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 elimin tersiyle sildim. Salonda televizyon izleyen di\u011fer \u00e7ocuklara \u00e7akt\u0131rmadan Emre&#8217;nin kolundan tuttum.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cKalk,\u201d dedim kararl\u0131 bir sesle. \u201cGidiyoruz.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNereye?\u201d diye sordu \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla, g\u00f6zleri kocaman a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnene,\u201d dedim. \u201cBunca y\u0131l sizin i\u00e7in sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrge ettim. Onun bana verece\u011fi \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir hesap, size verece\u011fi y\u0131llar\u0131n sevgisi var.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>O gece di\u011fer b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7ocuklara i\u015f i\u00e7in k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcreli\u011fine il d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmam gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yleyip Emre ile yola koyulduk. Sabaha kar\u015f\u0131 Bal\u0131kesir&#8217;in zeytin a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131yla \u00e7evrili o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u00f6y\u00fcne vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, hava yeni yeni ayd\u0131nlan\u0131yordu. Emre&#8217;nin tarif etti\u011fi adresteki beyaz badanal\u0131, mavi pencereli, bah\u00e7esi sardunyalarla dolu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck evin \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi\u011fimizde kalbim yerinden f\u0131rlayacak gibiydi.<\/p>\n<p>Arabadan indik. Demir bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 iterek i\u00e7eri girerken kap\u0131 g\u0131c\u0131rdad\u0131. O s\u0131rada verandada, elinde eski bir demlikle \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri sulayan bir kad\u0131n bize do\u011fru d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131na yo\u011fun aklar d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, y\u00fcz\u00fc y\u0131llar\u0131n getirdi\u011fi a\u011f\u0131r bir yorgunlukla \u00e7izgilenmi\u015fti ama o g\u00f6zler&#8230; O mahzun g\u00f6zler benim biricik karde\u015fime aitti.<\/p>\n<p>Zeynep bizi g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde elindeki demlik b\u00fcy\u00fck bir g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcyle yere d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, su ta\u015flara yay\u0131ld\u0131. Oldu\u011fu yere \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp elleriyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kapatt\u0131. \u201cAbla&#8230;\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 titreyen omuzlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan. Emre ko\u015farak verandaya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ve on iki y\u0131ll\u0131k hasretle annesinin boynuna sar\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130kisinin h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131 o serin Ege sabah\u0131na kar\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, y\u0131llar\u0131n biriktirdi\u011fi t\u00fcm ac\u0131lar, t\u00fcm s\u0131rlar d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Yava\u015f\u00e7a yanlar\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131m. Ona hem \u00e7ok k\u0131zg\u0131nd\u0131m hem de deliler gibi \u00f6zlemi\u015ftim. Zeynep ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p kollar\u0131n\u0131 bana do\u011fru uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u201cAffet beni abla,\u201d diye h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rd\u0131, \u201cSizi uzaktan izlemek her g\u00fcn, her saniye \u00f6lmek gibiydi&#8230;\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Daha fazla dayanamad\u0131m ve dizlerimin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp ona s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131m. On iki y\u0131ll\u0131k o koca bo\u015fluk kapanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Evet, hayat\u0131m\u0131z bir daha asla eskisi gibi olmayacakt\u0131, bu devasa sars\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 atlatmak, di\u011fer \u00e7ocuklara ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlatmak \u00e7ok zaman alacakt\u0131. Ama en az\u0131ndan art\u0131k tamd\u0131k. Dokuz \u00e7ocu\u011fun annesi, benim biricik karde\u015fim art\u0131k evine d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":744,"height":778,"file":"2026\/10\/ghggf.jpg","filesize":72971,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"ghggf-287x300.jpg","width":287,"height":300,"filesize":25557,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf-287x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"ghggf-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":8739,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf-150x150.jpg"},"full":{"file":"ghggf.jpg","width":744,"height":778,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":1554,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf.jpg","filename":"ghggf.jpg","filesize":72971,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1556","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1556"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":1554,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1554"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}