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Fakat mesele orada bitmedi.<\/p>\n

Adam ceketini yeniden iki koltu\u011fun aras\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Cam kenar\u0131ndaki yolcu ceketi nazik\u00e7e kald\u0131r\u0131p sahibine uzatt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBu sizin san\u0131r\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cOrada duruyordu!\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eimdi kendi taraf\u0131n\u0131zda durabilir.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam ceketi \u00e7ekip ald\u0131. Ard\u0131ndan \u00f6ne e\u011filerek bana seslendi:<\/p>\n

\u201cBeni k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in mi yapt\u0131n bunu?\u201d<\/p>\n

Bu soru kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Ger\u00e7ekten onu utand\u0131rmak i\u00e7in mi yer de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015ftim? Hay\u0131r. Ben yaln\u0131zca huzur istiyordum. Ama kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki insan\u0131n da kendisi kadar yer kaplamas\u0131, ona hakaret gibi geliyordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cBen sizinle u\u011fra\u015fmak istemiyorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cSadece yolculu\u011fumu rahat ge\u00e7irmek istiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eik\u00e2yet edece\u011fim seni!\u201d<\/p>\n

Tam o s\u0131rada kabin g\u00f6revlisi yan\u0131m\u0131za geldi. Ad\u0131 yakas\u0131ndaki kartta Ba\u015fak yaz\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cBir sorun mu var?\u201d diye sordu.<\/p>\n

Adam hemen do\u011fruldu.<\/p>\n

\u201cVar! Bu kad\u0131n kafas\u0131na g\u00f6re yer de\u011fi\u015ftirip beni rahats\u0131z ediyor.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fak \u00f6nce bana, sonra cam kenar\u0131ndaki yolcuya bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cYer de\u011fi\u015fikli\u011fini benim onay\u0131mla yapt\u0131lar, beyefendi.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam\u0131n sesi y\u00fckseldi.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00d6yleyse siz de su\u00e7lusunuz!\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fak sakinli\u011fini korudu.<\/p>\n

\u201cL\u00fctfen sesinizi al\u00e7alt\u0131n. Di\u011fer yolcular\u0131 rahats\u0131z ediyorsunuz.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam elindeki plastik kahve barda\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sert\u00e7e kol dayana\u011f\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131. Bardak devrildi; kalan kahve kendi pantolonuna ve ayakkab\u0131s\u0131na d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Bir an herkes dondu. Adam aya\u011fa f\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken emniyet kemerine tak\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cG\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fcz m\u00fc? \u0130\u015fte bunlar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBarda\u011f\u0131 siz devirdiniz,\u201d dedi cam kenar\u0131ndaki yolcu.<\/p>\n

Adam bu kez elini bana do\u011fru uzatt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cSen kar\u0131\u015fmasayd\u0131n bunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7biri olmayacakt\u0131!\u201d<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte o an kalbim h\u0131zland\u0131. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki \u00f6fke, rahmetli e\u015fimin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra tek ba\u015f\u0131ma kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn zor anlar\u0131 hat\u0131rlatt\u0131. Yine de g\u00f6zlerimi ka\u00e7\u0131rmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fak aram\u0131za ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n

\u201cBeyefendi, yerinize oturun. Bu davran\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131z kayda ge\u00e7irilecek.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam \u00f6fkeyle g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n

\u201cBenim kim oldu\u011fumu biliyor musunuz?\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fak cevap vermeden \u00f6nce k\u0131sa bir sessizlik oldu.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eu anda bildi\u011fim tek \u015fey, u\u00e7u\u015f g\u00fcvenli\u011fini ve yolcu huzurunu sa\u011flamakla g\u00f6revli oldu\u011fum.\u201d<\/p>\n

Arka s\u0131ralardan biri alk\u0131\u015flay\u0131nca Ba\u015fak elini kald\u0131r\u0131p herkesten sakin olmas\u0131n\u0131 istedi. Ard\u0131ndan adam\u0131n \u00fczerine temiz pe\u00e7eteler b\u0131rakt\u0131 ve kabin amirini \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Gelen amir \u00f6nce bizi ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 dinledi. Ben sabah u\u00e7a\u011fa binerken ba\u015flayanlar\u0131 birer birer anlatt\u0131m. Dizini koltu\u011fuma uzatmas\u0131n\u0131, masam\u0131 a\u00e7mama izin vermemesini, defalarca rica etmeme ra\u011fmen alay etmesini…<\/p>\n

\u201cNiye daha \u00f6nce haber vermediniz?\u201d diye sordu amir.<\/p>\n

Bu sorunun cevab\u0131 bo\u011faz\u0131mda d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kimseye zahmet vermek istemedim,\u201d dedim. \u201cBiraz dayan\u0131rsam bitecek sand\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cam kenar\u0131ndaki yolcu s\u00f6ze girdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cHan\u0131mefendinin s\u00f6ylediklerinin hepsini duydum. Defalarca kibarca uyard\u0131. Adam dinlemedi.\u201d<\/p>\n

Arkam\u0131zdaki gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n da \u00f6ne e\u011fildi.<\/p>\n

\u201cBen de \u015fahidim. Hatta han\u0131mefendinin s\u00fcrekli cama do\u011fru s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u0130lk kez biri a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a benim yan\u0131mda duruyordu. G\u00f6zlerim doldu.<\/p>\n

Bir an, y\u0131llar \u00f6nce otob\u00fcste ayakta giderken ya\u015fl\u0131 bir kad\u0131na yer verdi\u011fim g\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlad\u0131m. O kad\u0131n elimi tutup, \u201cBir g\u00fcn sen yoruldu\u011funda da biri seni g\u00f6rs\u00fcn,\u201d demi\u015fti. O zaman bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn \u00fczerinde durmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u015eimdi ayn\u0131 dile\u011fin, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m iki insan sayesinde ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti\u011fini hissediyordum. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n birbirini g\u00f6rmesi, bazen en b\u00fcy\u00fck yard\u0131md\u0131.<\/p>\n

Kutay bana sessizce bir mendil uzatt\u0131. \u201cHakk\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 istemek ay\u0131p de\u011fil,\u201d dedi. O k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck c\u00fcmle i\u00e7imde bir kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. Y\u0131llard\u0131r k\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131nlar diye ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne koydu\u011fum ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 ilk defa utanmadan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Oysa sadece bir koltuktan s\u00f6z ediyorduk. Fakat insan bazen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlat\u0131rken y\u0131llarca i\u00e7ine att\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131klar\u0131 da hissediyordu.<\/p>\n

Amir, adam\u0131 daha sakin davranmas\u0131 konusunda kesin bir dille uyard\u0131. Olay\u0131n raporlanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve ini\u015fte gerekli de\u011ferlendirmenin yap\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n

Adam art\u0131k ba\u011f\u0131rm\u0131yordu. Ama g\u00f6zlerini benden ay\u0131rm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

Bir s\u00fcre sonra u\u00e7akta \u0131\u015f\u0131klar k\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131. Ben telefonumdan k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi foto\u011fraf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m. Minicik torunum hastane battaniyesine sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, yumruklar\u0131n\u0131 yanaklar\u0131na dayam\u0131\u015f uyuyordu.<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131 \u0130dil’di.<\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131m, foto\u011fraf\u0131n alt\u0131na \u201cAnne, sana benziyor, de\u011fil mi?\u201d yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

O y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnce b\u00fct\u00fcn gerginli\u011fim da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131. Ona kavu\u015fmak i\u00e7in \u00e7ekti\u011fim bu yolculu\u011fun bir yabanc\u0131n\u0131n kabal\u0131\u011f\u0131yla hat\u0131rlanmas\u0131n\u0131 istemiyordum.<\/p>\n

Derken yan\u0131mdan k\u0131s\u0131k bir ses geldi.<\/p>\n

\u201cTorununuz mu?\u201d<\/p>\n

Cam kenar\u0131ndaki yolcuya bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u201cEvet. \u0130lk torunum. Bug\u00fcn ilk kez kuca\u011f\u0131ma alaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n

\u201cBenim annem de ilk torununu g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in tek ba\u015f\u0131na u\u00e7mu\u015ftu. O zaman onun ne kadar heyecanland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eimdi anl\u0131yor musunuz?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cEvet,\u201d dedi. \u201cGe\u00e7en y\u0131l baba oldum.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131n\u0131n Kutay oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendim. Antalya’da ya\u015f\u0131yor, bir hastanede fizyoterapist olarak \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Kal\u00e7am\u0131 tutarak oturdu\u011fumu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce uzun s\u00fcre s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131k kalman\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131 art\u0131rabilece\u011fini s\u00f6yledi. Aya\u011fa kalkman\u0131n g\u00fcvenli oldu\u011fu zamanlarda biraz hareket etmemi \u00f6nerdi.<\/p>\n

Konu\u015fmam\u0131z s\u0131ras\u0131nda ortadaki adam sessizce \u00f6n\u00fcne bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

\u0130ni\u015fe yakla\u015f\u0131k k\u0131rk dakika kala beklenmedik bir \u015fey oldu. Adam kulakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u201cBir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyece\u011fim.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7im gerildi.<\/p>\n

\u201cDinliyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBen bug\u00fcn i\u015fimle ilgili k\u00f6t\u00fc bir haber ald\u0131m. Sinirlerim bozuktu.\u201d<\/p>\n

Cevap vermedim.<\/p>\n

\u201cBelki biraz abartm\u0131\u015f olabilirim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Kutay kitab\u0131n\u0131 kapatt\u0131 ama araya girmedi.<\/p>\n

Adam bir s\u00fcre bekledikten sonra ekledi:<\/p>\n

\u201cTamam, kaba davrand\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcr dilerim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sesindeki mahcubiyetin ne kadar\u0131n\u0131n ger\u00e7ek oldu\u011funu bilmiyordum. Fakat s\u00f6yledi\u011fi \u015feyi duymak yine de \u00f6nemliydi.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00d6zr\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc kabul ediyorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cAma bir \u015feyi anlaman\u0131z\u0131 istiyorum. Ben k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in hakk\u0131m da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n

Adam g\u00f6zlerini indirdi. \u0130lk kez s\u00f6yleyecek alayc\u0131 bir s\u00f6z bulamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130ni\u015f anonsu yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda pencereden Antalya’n\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Kalbim bu kez heyecandan \u00e7arpmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

U\u00e7ak indikten sonra herkes \u00e7antalar\u0131n\u0131 almaya y\u00f6neldi. Kabin amiri adamdan k\u0131sa s\u00fcre yerinde kalmas\u0131n\u0131 rica etti. Olayla ilgili raporun tamamlanmas\u0131 i\u00e7in kendisiyle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015feceklerini s\u00f6yledi. Adam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131; art\u0131k itiraz etmedi.<\/p>\n

Ben \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015fa do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcrken Ba\u015fak yan\u0131ma yakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cHan\u0131mefendi, yolculu\u011funuzun b\u00f6yle ge\u00e7mesine \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBen de \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm,\u201d dedim. \u201cAma bug\u00fcn bir \u015fey \u00f6\u011frendim.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNedir?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130nsan\u0131n sesini y\u00fckseltmeden de kendini savunabilece\u011fini.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fak g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n

\u201cBazen en etkili cevap budur.\u201d<\/p>\n

Terminale \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 uzaktan g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Kuca\u011f\u0131nda pembe battaniyeye sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bebe\u011fi tutuyordu. Bana el sallay\u0131nca ad\u0131mlar\u0131m h\u0131zland\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnne!\u201d diye seslendi.<\/p>\n

Sar\u0131l\u0131rken kendimi tutamad\u0131m, a\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u201cK\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015fey mi oldu?\u201d diye tela\u015fland\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cYok k\u0131z\u0131m,\u201d dedim. \u201cUzun bir yolculuktu sadece.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sonra \u0130dil’i kuca\u011f\u0131ma verdi. Minicik y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakarken u\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fc, adam\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ve saatler s\u00fcren a\u011fr\u0131 uzak bir an\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u0130dil g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7\u0131p parma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 tuttu. O kadar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fc ki avucunun i\u00e7inde neredeyse kayboluyordu. Ama parma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6yle kararl\u0131 kavram\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.<\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131m merakla y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cNe oldu anne, niye g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorsun?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBug\u00fcn bir adam bana k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in daha az yere ihtiyac\u0131m oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi,\u201d dedim. \u201cBen de \u00f6mr\u00fcmde ilk kez, bulundu\u011fum yerin bana ait oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlad\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131m \u00f6nce \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, sonra bana s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

O gece \u0130dil’i be\u015fi\u011fine yat\u0131r\u0131rken rahmetli e\u015fimin sandalyeden bile \u00f6z\u00fcr dilememle ilgili \u015fakas\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131m. Y\u0131llarca nezaketle suskunlu\u011fu ayn\u0131 \u015fey sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Oysa birine sayg\u0131l\u0131 davranmak, kendi hakk\u0131ndan vazge\u00e7mek demek de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n

Torunumun minicik elini son kez \u00f6pt\u00fcm ve f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m:<\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130n\u015fallah b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde herkese nazik davran\u0131rs\u0131n, g\u00fczel k\u0131z\u0131m. Ama biri sana yerinin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylerse sak\u0131n inanma.\u201d<\/p>\n

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