{"id":1709,"date":"2026-10-16T19:18:45","date_gmt":"2026-10-16T19:18:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/gfewsc-1.webp"},"modified":"2026-10-16T19:19:03","modified_gmt":"2026-10-16T19:19:03","slug":"gfewsc-4","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/ikiz-kizlarimizi-kurtarmayi-sectik-kayinvalidemin-uc-ay-sonra-getirdigi-zarf\/gfewsc-4\/","title":{"rendered":"\u0130kiz K\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 Kurtarmay\u0131 Se\u00e7tik: Kay\u0131nvalidemin \u00dc\u00e7 Ay Sonra Getirdi\u011fi Zarf"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-1709","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/gfewsc-1.webp'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/gfewsc-1-300x150.webp\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/gfewsc-1-300x150.webp 300w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/gfewsc-1.webp 520w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>\u0130kiz k\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131 kurtarmak i\u00e7in kar\u0131m\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131 riske atacak karar\u0131 verdim ve o g\u00fcnden beri vicdan azab\u0131yla ya\u015f\u0131yorum. Kay\u0131nvalidem \u00fc\u00e7 ay boyunca benimle konu\u015fmad\u0131. Sonunda kap\u0131ma geldi\u011finde ise, &#8220;K\u0131z\u0131mla ilgili art\u0131k senden saklayamayaca\u011f\u0131m bir \u015fey var,&#8221; dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Kar\u0131m\u0131n annesi \u00fc\u00e7 ay boyunca benimle tek kelime konu\u015fmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ne cenazede ne de sonras\u0131nda. Ona k\u0131zlar\u0131n foto\u011fraflar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6nderiyordum, kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yaln\u0131zca &#8220;Te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim,&#8221; yaz\u0131yordu. Hepsi buydu.<\/p>\n<p>Ve onu anl\u0131yordum. Yerinde olsam ben de ayn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yapard\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o hastane odas\u0131nda karar vermemiz gerekti\u011finde, &#8220;Bebekleri kurtar\u0131n,&#8221; diyen bendim.<\/p>\n<p>O sabah h\u00e2l\u00e2 k\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131za koyaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z isimler konusunda tart\u0131\u015f\u0131yorduk. Kar\u0131m Meltem, ikiz olduklar\u0131 i\u00e7in isimlerinin birbirine benzemek zorunda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu. Ben de bu meseleyi biraz daha \u00f6nce halletmemiz gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yledim. G\u00fcld\u00fc ve benden bir bardak su istedi.<\/p>\n<p>O ak\u015fam ise daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim doktorlar yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda konu\u015furken elini tutuyordum. \u0130\u00e7lerinden biri, \u00f6nceli\u011fi kime vermelerini istedi\u011fimizi sordu.<\/p>\n<p>Kar\u0131ma bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Meltem&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Parmaklar\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;K\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131z. Tabii ki k\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131z.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Bekledim. Fikrini de\u011fi\u015ftirmesini ya da birinin bize ba\u015fka bir yol oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemesini bekleyip durdum.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;L\u00fctfen,&#8221; dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Ben de kabul ettim.<\/p>\n<p>Bu, birlikte verdi\u011fimiz son karar oldu.<\/p>\n<p>Eve iki k\u0131z\u0131mla ve kar\u0131m\u0131n e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131n bulundu\u011fu bir \u00e7antayla d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. Hastaneye gelirken giydi\u011fi sweatshirt de i\u00e7indeydi. H\u00e2l\u00e2 y\u0131kamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Herkes bana ayn\u0131 \u015feyi s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu. G\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olmal\u0131s\u0131n, o k\u0131zlar\u0131n sana ihtiyac\u0131 var.<\/p>\n<p>Ben de geceleri kalkt\u0131m. Biberonlar\u0131 \u0131s\u0131tt\u0131m. Yorgunluktan akl\u0131mda tutamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in hangisinin ne kadar s\u00fct i\u00e7ti\u011fini tek tek yazd\u0131m. Nefes ald\u0131klar\u0131ndan emin olmak i\u00e7in bazen yirmi dakika boyunca be\u015fiklerinin ba\u015f\u0131nda bekledim.<\/p>\n<p>K\u0131z karde\u015fim yemek getiriyordu ama g\u00fcnler sonra hi\u00e7 dokunulmam\u0131\u015f h\u00e2lde \u00e7\u00f6pe at\u0131yordu. O kadar kilo verdim ki kot pantolonlar\u0131m \u00fczerimden d\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ve ev her sessizle\u015fti\u011finde akl\u0131mdan ayn\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ge\u00e7iyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Ya ba\u015fka bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleseydim?<\/p>\n<p>Sonra ge\u00e7en per\u015fembe kap\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131. Kay\u0131nvalidem Sevim, evimin kap\u0131s\u0131nda duruyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Daha i\u00e7eri girmeden kendimi a\u00e7\u0131klamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Neden yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmiyorum. San\u0131r\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7 ayd\u0131r s\u00f6yleyeceklerimi kafamda tekrar edip duruyordum.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Onu kaybetmek istemedim. Benden bunu yapmam\u0131 istedi ve ben&#8230; Ben ba\u015fka bir \u015fey yapmal\u0131yd\u0131m. En az\u0131ndan bir \u015feyler denemeliydim&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Biliyorum.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Hay\u0131r. Anlam\u0131yorsun. Ben kabul ettim.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ki eliyle s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 tuttu\u011fu zarfa bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Senden uzak durmam\u0131n sebebinin seni su\u00e7lamam oldu\u011funu mu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorsun?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Buna cevap veremedim.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Meltem sana s\u00f6ylemememi istedi. Ona s\u00f6z verdim. 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