{"id":2090,"date":"2026-10-25T20:36:15","date_gmt":"2026-10-25T20:36:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/sdf.jpg"},"modified":"2026-10-25T20:36:17","modified_gmt":"2026-10-25T20:36:17","slug":"sdf","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/60-yillik-esim-otobuste-babamin-korkunc-sirrini-itiraf-etti-o-fotografta-gordugum-sey-hayatimi-degistirdi-2\/sdf\/","title":{"rendered":"sdf"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-2090","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/sdf.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"242\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/sdf-242x300.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/sdf-242x300.jpg 242w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/sdf-768x953.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/sdf.jpg 825w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 242px) 100vw, 242px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cBaban, uzak akrabam\u0131z Seher Yal\u00e7\u0131n\u2019\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Seher\u2019in \u00e7ocu\u011fu olmuyordu. Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta bebe\u011fe ge\u00e7ici olarak bakaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Baban ise bunun kal\u0131c\u0131 olmas\u0131n\u0131 istedi. Ben kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sanki biri g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme a\u011f\u0131r bir ta\u015f koymu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen uyurken k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 benden ald\u0131n\u0131z.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet,\u201d dedi Beh\u00e7et. \u201cBaban her \u015feyi ayarlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Sana bebe\u011fin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan s\u00f6z etmeyecektik. Hastanedeki baz\u0131 belgeleri de senden saklad\u0131k.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPeki bir daha \u00e7ocuk sahibi olamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 neden s\u00f6yledin?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAmeliyat\u0131n ger\u00e7ekti. Doktorlar sonraki gebeliklerin riskli olabilece\u011fini anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ama kesinlikle \u00e7ocuk sahibi olamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylememi\u015flerdi. Ben ger\u00e7e\u011fi gizlemek i\u00e7in onlar\u0131n uyar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirdim. Sonras\u0131nda ba\u015fka doktora gitmeni de engellemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Y\u0131llarca bo\u015f kalan be\u015fik hayallerim g\u00f6zlerimin \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7ti. Bebek k\u0131yafetlerine bakarken a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnleri, anneler g\u00fcn\u00fcnde kendimi eve kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m sabahlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBabam sana neden para \u00f6dedi?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBa\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta sessiz kalmam i\u00e7in teklif etti. Sonra her ay be\u015f y\u00fcz dolar vermeye ba\u015flad\u0131. K\u0131rk y\u0131l s\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130lk zamanlarda bor\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6dedim. Sonra paray\u0131 almak al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131k h\u00e2line geldi. Baban \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra bile korkakl\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan kurtulamad\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u0130ki y\u00fcz k\u0131rk bin dolar,\u201d dedim. \u201cK\u0131rk y\u0131l boyunca ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n paran\u0131n toplam\u0131. Ben k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in her \u015feyimi verirdim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Beh\u00e7et y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc elleriyle kapatt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBeni affetmeni beklemiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSen onun ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordun. Ben ise hi\u00e7 do\u011fmam\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun yas\u0131n\u0131 tuttum. Aram\u0131zdaki fark bu.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Zarf\u0131n i\u00e7indeki belgeleri yeniden inceledim. Bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tta Seher Yal\u00e7\u0131n\u2019\u0131n ad\u0131 ve eski adresi vard\u0131. Arkas\u0131na daha yeni bir adres yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBunu ne zaman \u00f6\u011frendin?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce Seher\u2019i buldum. K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledi. Art\u0131k elli sekiz ya\u015f\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Kalbim duracak gibi oldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 ayd\u0131r biliyorsun ve bana bug\u00fcn m\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsun?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCesaret edemedim. Seher de k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bizimle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmek isteyip istemeyece\u011fini bilmiyordu. Ama art\u0131k daha fazla saklayamad\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131 ne?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDerya.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Derya. \u0130smi dudaklar\u0131mda defalarca tekrarlad\u0131m. D\u00fcnyaya getirdi\u011fim, hi\u00e7 kuca\u011f\u0131ma alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131 Derya\u2019yd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBeni ona g\u00f6t\u00fcr.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Beh\u00e7et ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOtob\u00fcs zaten onun ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fehre gidiyor. Y\u0131l d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fczde seni buraya getirmek istememin nedeni buydu.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00d6yleyse art\u0131k konu\u015fma. Yaln\u0131zca beni g\u00f6t\u00fcr.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yolculu\u011fun kalan b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde camdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakt\u0131m. Beh\u00e7et elimi tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmad\u0131. Altm\u0131\u015f y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fimiz boyunca ilk kez yan\u0131mda oturan adam\u0131 tamamen yabanc\u0131 hissediyordum.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eehre vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir pansiyona yerle\u015ftik. Beh\u00e7et, Seher\u2019i arad\u0131. Ertesi sabah onun evine gittik.<\/p>\n<p>Kap\u0131y\u0131 bastonuna yaslanan beyaz sa\u00e7l\u0131 bir kad\u0131n a\u00e7t\u0131. Beni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce g\u00f6zleri doldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNeriman,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen sizi tan\u0131m\u0131yorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cAma siz benim k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 tan\u0131yorsunuz.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Seher bizi salona ald\u0131. Duvarda as\u0131l\u0131 foto\u011fraflar\u0131n aras\u0131nda gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n\u0131n mezuniyet resmi vard\u0131. Ka\u015flar\u0131 benim gen\u00e7li\u011fimdeki ka\u015flara benziyordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBu Derya m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Seher ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOnu kendi k\u0131z\u0131m gibi b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcm. \u00c7ok sevdim. Ama sevgim yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131 ortadan kald\u0131rm\u0131yor.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sonra bildiklerini anlatt\u0131. Babam ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta ona bebe\u011fin annesinin a\u011f\u0131r hasta oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Zamanla ger\u00e7e\u011fi \u00f6\u011frenmesine ra\u011fmen \u00e7ocu\u011fu b\u0131rakmaya cesaret edememi\u015fti. Benim onay\u0131m olmadan y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fclen i\u015flemlerin b\u00fct\u00fcn ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 art\u0131k kendisi de hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDerya beni neden aramad\u0131?\u201d diye sordum.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvlat edinildi\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011finde \u00f6z annesinin onu istemedi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Ge\u00e7en y\u0131l ona ger\u00e7e\u011fin bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 anlatt\u0131m. \u00c7ok k\u0131zd\u0131. H\u00e2l\u00e2 k\u0131rg\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m benim onu terk etti\u011fime mi inand\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Seher a\u011flayarak ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7imdeki ac\u0131n\u0131n tarifi yoktu. K\u0131z\u0131m annesiz b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, ben ise k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan habersiz ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Seher telefonunu ald\u0131 ve Derya\u2019y\u0131 arad\u0131. Uzun bir konu\u015fmadan sonra g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 silerek bize d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYar\u0131n \u00f6\u011fleden sonra buraya gelmeyi kabul etti.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>O gece uyuyamad\u0131m. Beh\u00e7et di\u011fer yatakta sessizce oturuyordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAltm\u0131\u015f y\u0131l boyunca seni tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m,\u201d dedim. \u201c\u015eimdi hangi hat\u0131ram\u0131za g\u00fcvenece\u011fimi bilmiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBeni b\u0131rakmak istersen hakl\u0131s\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNe yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hen\u00fcz bilmiyorum. Ama yar\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131mla konu\u015furken benim yerime tek kelime s\u00f6ylemeyeceksin.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ertesi g\u00fcn saat \u00fc\u00e7te kap\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7eri orta boylu, k\u0131sa kahverengi sa\u00e7l\u0131 bir kad\u0131n girdi. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde y\u0131llar\u0131n b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ince \u00e7izgiler vard\u0131. Birka\u00e7 saniye birbirimize bakt\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNeriman Han\u0131m?\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDerya\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ona sar\u0131lmak istedim ama hareket edemedim. O da yakla\u015fmad\u0131. Kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 oturduk.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBeni neden hi\u00e7 aramad\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d diye sordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyordum k\u0131z\u0131m. Do\u011furdu\u011fumu bile saklad\u0131lar benden.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Derya\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6zleri doldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cY\u0131llarca beni istemedi\u011finizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Seher annem ge\u00e7en y\u0131l ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlat\u0131nca neye inanaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cKe\u015fke bir kez olsun kuca\u011f\u0131ma alabilseydim seni.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Derya \u00e7antas\u0131ndan eski bir defter \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan beri ger\u00e7ek anneme sormak istedi\u011fim sorular\u0131 yazard\u0131m. En \u00e7ok da do\u011fdu\u011fumda beni sevip sevmedi\u011finizi merak ederdim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cVarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmiyordum. Ama anne olmay\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131m boyunca istedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130kimiz de a\u011fl\u0131yorduk. Bir s\u00fcre sonra Derya, hayat\u0131ndan s\u00f6z etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Evliydi, iki yeti\u015fkin \u00e7ocu\u011fu vard\u0131. D\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131nda Ela ad\u0131nda bir torunu bulunuyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Telefonundan Ela\u2019n\u0131n foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6sterdi. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z k\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131k sa\u00e7lar\u0131yla g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTorunumun \u00e7ocu\u011fu mu?\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet,\u201d dedi Derya. \u201cAma l\u00fctfen her \u015feyin hemen d\u00fczelece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyin. Benim bir hayat\u0131m var. Seher annem beni b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc. Onu seviyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBunu senden almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131m. Yaln\u0131zca seni tan\u0131mama izin ver.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Derya bir s\u00fcre d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDeneyebiliriz.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ayr\u0131l\u0131rken Beh\u00e7et\u2019le kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSen benim babam m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d diye sordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBiyolojik baban\u0131m,\u201d dedi Beh\u00e7et. \u201cAma sana babal\u0131k yapmad\u0131m. Bunun mazereti yok.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Derya g\u00f6zlerini ondan ay\u0131rmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEn az\u0131ndan \u015fimdi do\u011fruyu s\u00f6yledin.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u015eehrimize d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde Beh\u00e7et\u2019le ayr\u0131 odalarda ya\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131k. Evlili\u011fimiz bir gecede eski h\u00e2line d\u00f6nemezdi. Beh\u00e7et saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 belgeleri \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Hukuki destek alarak eski kay\u0131tlar\u0131 ara\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131k. Baz\u0131 belgelere ula\u015fabildik, baz\u0131lar\u0131na ula\u015famad\u0131k. Aradan ge\u00e7en y\u0131llar\u0131n her soruya kesin cevap vermeyece\u011fini kabullendik.<\/p>\n<p>Derya\u2019yla haftada bir telefonla konu\u015ftuk. \u00d6nce g\u00fcnl\u00fck hayat\u0131m\u0131zdan s\u00f6z ettik. Sonra \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu, okul y\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131 ve k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Ben de gen\u00e7li\u011fimde sevdi\u011fim \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131, dikti\u011fim elbiseleri, kurdu\u011fum annelik hayallerini payla\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Bir g\u00fcn telefonda, \u201cSize anne demekte zorlan\u0131yorum,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBana Neriman diyebilirsin. Yeter ki konu\u015fmaya devam edelim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Aylar sonra beni evine davet etti. Kap\u0131y\u0131 d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131ndaki Ela a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSen Neriman nine misin?\u201d diye sordu.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zlerim doldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet can\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z elime yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 resmi tutu\u015fturdu. Resimde yan yana duran \u00fc\u00e7 kad\u0131n vard\u0131. Birinin sa\u00e7lar\u0131 bembeyazd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>O g\u00fcn ilk kez ge\u00e7mi\u015fin b\u00fct\u00fcn ac\u0131s\u0131na ra\u011fmen gelece\u011fin h\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00fczellikler ta\u015f\u0131yabilece\u011fine inand\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Bir y\u0131l sonra Beh\u00e7et hastaland\u0131. Derya hastaneye ziyarete geldi. Yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda durup sessizce ona bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSeni affetti\u011fimi s\u00f6yleyemem,\u201d dedi. \u201cBelki hi\u00e7bir zaman affedemem. Ama art\u0131k ger\u00e7e\u011fi saklamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7in geldim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Beh\u00e7et a\u011flayarak te\u015fekk\u00fcr etti.<\/p>\n<p>Ben de zamanla onunla yeniden konu\u015fabildim. Ancak ili\u015fkimiz eskisi gibi olmad\u0131. Altm\u0131\u015f y\u0131ll\u0131k beraberlik, yap\u0131lan haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 silmiyordu. Ayn\u0131 evde ayr\u0131 odalarda ya\u015famay\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fck. Ona bak\u0131m gerekti\u011finde yard\u0131m ettim ama affetmek zorunda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 da biliyordum.<\/p>\n<p>Bir ak\u015fam Derya\u2019yla foto\u011fraflara bakarken otob\u00fcste \u00e7ekti\u011fimiz o son foto\u011fraf kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Mavi bluzumla kameraya bak\u0131yordum. Yan\u0131mda Beh\u00e7et hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu. O foto\u011fraf\u0131n \u00e7ekildi\u011fi sabah hayat\u0131m\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fece\u011finden habersizdim.<\/p>\n<p>Derya foto\u011fraf\u0131 elimden ald\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u0130stersen yenisini \u00e7ekelim,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Yan\u0131ma oturdu. Ela da aram\u0131za girdi. Bu kez \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz birlikte g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedik.<\/p>\n<p>Eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde yeni foto\u011fraf\u0131 yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131n ba\u015fucuna koydum. Yan\u0131na hastanede \u00e7ekilmi\u015f siyah beyaz foto\u011fraf\u0131 yerle\u015ftirdim.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ki foto\u011fraf\u0131n aras\u0131nda elli sekiz y\u0131l vard\u0131. Birinde benden al\u0131nan bebe\u011fim, di\u011ferinde kendi hayat\u0131n\u0131 kurmu\u015f k\u0131z\u0131m ve onun torunu bulunuyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Ge\u00e7mi\u015fi de\u011fi\u015ftiremedim. Babamdan hesap soramad\u0131m. Derya\u2019n\u0131n ilk ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6remedim, ilk kelimesini duyamad\u0131m, okul kap\u0131s\u0131nda bekleyemedim. Beh\u00e7et\u2019in sessizli\u011finin benden \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u0131llar\u0131 geri alamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Ama art\u0131k her pazar telefonum \u00e7al\u0131yordu. Bazen Derya bir yemek tarifini soruyor, bazen Ela yeni \u00e7izdi\u011fi resmi g\u00f6steriyordu. K\u0131z\u0131mla aram\u0131zdaki yak\u0131nl\u0131k yava\u015f yava\u015f, birbirimizi zorlamadan b\u00fcy\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Yetmi\u015f dokuz ya\u015f\u0131mda \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim en \u00f6nemli \u015fey \u015fuydu: Annelik yaln\u0131zca bir \u00e7ocu\u011fu d\u00fcnyaya getirmek ya da b\u00fcy\u00fctmek de\u011fildi. Bazen y\u0131llarca kapal\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015f bir kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde sab\u0131rla beklemek, o kap\u0131 araland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ge\u00e7mi\u015fin b\u00fct\u00fcn ac\u0131s\u0131na ra\u011fmen sevgiyle yakla\u015fabilmekti.<\/p>\n<p>Kaybetti\u011fimiz elli sekiz y\u0131l\u0131 geri getiremezdik. 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