{"id":2157,"date":"2026-10-27T20:10:16","date_gmt":"2026-10-27T20:10:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert.jpg"},"modified":"2026-10-27T20:10:17","modified_gmt":"2026-10-27T20:10:17","slug":"yttert","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/sevgilimin-babasi-beni-her-gordugunde-2\/yttert\/","title":{"rendered":"yttert"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-2157","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"241\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert-241x300.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert-241x300.jpg 241w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert.jpg 288w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 241px) 100vw, 241px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>\u201c\u00c7ocu\u011fumuza m\u0131?\u201d<br \/>\nCengiz Bey koltu\u011fa oturdu.<br \/>\n\u201cAnnen benimle ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra babanla evlendi. Ancak baban sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n gibi sizi terk etmedi. Sen hen\u00fcz iki ya\u015f\u0131ndayken hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetti.\u201d<br \/>\nB\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyam ba\u015f\u0131ma y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cAnnem neden \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledi\u011fi bir adam\u0131 y\u0131llarca ya\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f gibi anlatt\u0131?\u201d<br \/>\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baban\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn arkas\u0131nda \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir s\u0131r vard\u0131.\u201d<br \/>\nTam o s\u0131rada kap\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyduk.<br \/>\nKaan eve gelmi\u015fti.<br \/>\n\u201cBaba? Beste? Ne oluyor burada?\u201d<br \/>\nElimdeki foto\u011fraf\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131. Cengiz Bey aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cO\u011flum, otur. \u0130kinizin de bilmesi gereken \u015feyler var.\u201d<br \/>\nKaan yan\u0131ma geldi. A\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce elimi tuttu.<br \/>\n\u201cBana ne oldu\u011funu anlat\u0131r m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d<br \/>\nCevap veremedim. Mektubu ona uzatt\u0131m.<br \/>\nCengiz Bey konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cBeste\u2019nin babas\u0131 Orhan, benim \u00e7ocukluk arkada\u015f\u0131md\u0131. Nermin\u2019le ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra onun Orhan\u2019la evlendi\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde \u00e7ok k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Y\u0131llarca ikisiyle de g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmedim. Ancak bir gece Orhan beni arad\u0131. \u00c7ok korkmu\u015ftu.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cNeden?\u201d diye sordum.<br \/>\n\u201c\u00c7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015firkette baz\u0131 usuls\u00fczl\u00fckler ke\u015ffetmi\u015fti. \u015eirketin ortaklar\u0131ndan biri, Orhan\u2019\u0131n susturulmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyordu. Orhan ba\u015f\u0131na bir \u015fey gelmesinden korkuyordu.\u201d<br \/>\nBo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.<br \/>\n\u201cSonra ne oldu?\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cBaban \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi trafik kazas\u0131nda hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetti.\u201d<br \/>\nKaan \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla babas\u0131na bak\u0131yordu.<br \/>\n\u201cBaba, sen neden bunlar\u0131 bize hi\u00e7 anlatmad\u0131n?\u201d<br \/>\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Orhan \u00f6lmeden \u00f6nce bana bir mektup ve baz\u0131 belgeler b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Nermin ise bunlar\u0131 ortaya \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rsam k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n da tehlikeye girece\u011fini s\u00f6yleyerek beni uzakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131.\u201d<br \/>\nDayanamad\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u201cYani annem b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131m boyunca bana yalan m\u0131 s\u00f6yledi?\u201d<br \/>\nCengiz Bey ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cBazen insanlar sevdiklerini korumak i\u00e7in yanl\u0131\u015f kararlar verirler.\u201d<br \/>\nBu s\u00f6zleri duyunca \u00f6fkeyle aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u201cBenim hayat\u0131m hakk\u0131nda karar verme hakk\u0131n\u0131 kim verdi size?\u201d<br \/>\n\u00c7antam\u0131 al\u0131p evden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Kaan arkamdan seslendi ama durmad\u0131m.<br \/>\nDo\u011frudan annemin evine gittim.<br \/>\nKap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fcmdeki ifadeyi g\u00f6r\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez bir \u015feylerin ters gitti\u011fini anlad\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cBeste, ne oldu k\u0131z\u0131m?\u201d<br \/>\nElimdeki foto\u011fraf\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne koydum.<br \/>\n\u201cCengiz Bey\u2019i tan\u0131yor musun?\u201d<br \/>\nAnnemin y\u00fcz\u00fc bembeyaz kesildi. Foto\u011fraf\u0131 eline ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zleri doldu.<br \/>\n\u201cNereden buldun bunu?\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cArt\u0131k bana yalan s\u00f6yleme anne! Babam\u0131n \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc neden saklad\u0131n?\u201d<br \/>\nAnnem mutfaktaki sandalyeye \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc. Hayat\u0131mda onu hi\u00e7 bu kadar \u00e7aresiz g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim.<br \/>\n\u201cBaban\u0131 kaybetti\u011fimizde iki ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131n. Cenazeden birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra evimizin kap\u0131s\u0131na tehdit mektuplar\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131lmaya ba\u015fland\u0131. Bana senin de ba\u015f\u0131na bir \u015fey gelebilece\u011fini s\u00f6ylediler.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cPeki neden polise gitmedin?\u201d<br \/>\n\u201cGittim k\u0131z\u0131m. Ama baban\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015firketin sahibi \u00e7ok g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcyd\u00fc. Elimde hi\u00e7bir kan\u0131t yoktu. Korktum. Seni al\u0131p ba\u015fka bir \u015fehre ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m. Baban\u0131n bizi terk etti\u011fini s\u00f6ylemek zorunda kald\u0131m.\u201d<br \/>\nAnnem a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<br \/>\nAncak benim akl\u0131m h\u00e2l\u00e2 Cengiz Bey\u2019deydi.<br \/>\n\u201cPeki onun b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlarla ne ilgisi var?\u201d<br \/>\nAnnem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baban \u00f6lmeden \u00f6nce ona bir s\u00f6z verdirmi\u015fti. E\u011fer bize bir \u015fey olursa seni koruyacakt\u0131.\u201d<br \/>\nO an her \u015fey anlam kazanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<br \/>\nCengiz Bey\u2019in bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131, hakk\u0131mda sordu\u011fu sorular ve beni s\u00fcrekli korumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nFakat h\u00e2l\u00e2 anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015fey vard\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cYirmi yedi y\u0131l boyunca nerelerdeymi\u015f? Madem babama s\u00f6z vermi\u015f, neden bizi hi\u00e7 aramam\u0131\u015f?\u201d<br \/>\nAnnem g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 silerek aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. Yatak odas\u0131na gitti ve dolab\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kutu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBunu art\u0131k g\u00f6rmenin zaman\u0131 geldi.\u201d<br \/>\nKutunun i\u00e7inde onlarca mektup vard\u0131. Hepsinin \u00fczerinde Cengiz Bey\u2019in ad\u0131 yaz\u0131yordu.<br \/>\nAnnem mektuplardan birini a\u00e7t\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cHer do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnde sana mektup yazd\u0131. Her y\u0131l para g\u00f6nderdi. Ancak ben onun bizimle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmesini istemedim.\u201d<br \/>\n\u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131ktan konu\u015fam\u0131yordum.<br \/>\n\u201cDemek b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 biliyordun!\u201d<br \/>\nAnnem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.<br \/>\n\u201cSeni ge\u00e7mi\u015ften uzak tutarsam g\u00fcvende olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.\u201d<br \/>\nO gece sabaha kadar uyuyamad\u0131m. Bir yandan anneme k\u0131z\u0131yor, di\u011fer yandan hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m babam\u0131n nas\u0131l bir insan oldu\u011funu merak ediyordum.<br \/>\nErtesi sabah Cengiz Bey\u2019i arad\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u201cSizinle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmem gerekiyor. Bu kez her \u015feyi anlatacaks\u0131n\u0131z.\u201d<br \/>\nBir saat sonra k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kafede bulu\u015ftuk. Yan\u0131nda kal\u0131n bir dosya getirmi\u015fti.<br \/>\n\u201cBeste, d\u00fcn sana anlatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015fey var.\u201d<br \/>\nDosyay\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde eski gazete kup\u00fcrleri, foto\u011fraflar ve baz\u0131 resmi belgeler bulunuyordu.<br \/>\n\u201cBaban\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sorumlu oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz adam y\u0131llar \u00f6nce yakaland\u0131. Ancak baban\u0131n kazas\u0131yla ba\u011flant\u0131s\u0131 hi\u00e7bir zaman kan\u0131tlanamad\u0131. Art\u0131k hayatta de\u011fil. Elimizdeki belgeler de davay\u0131 yeniden a\u00e7t\u0131rmaya yetmedi.\u201d<br \/>\n\u201c\u00d6yleyse neden \u015fimdi kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d<br \/>\nCengiz Bey cebinden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir anahtar \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baban\u0131n sana b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 son emaneti vermenin zaman\u0131 geldi.\u201d<br \/>\nAnahtar\u0131n ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck etikette bir banka kasas\u0131n\u0131n numaras\u0131 yaz\u0131yordu.<br \/>\nBirka\u00e7 saat sonra birlikte bankaya gittik.<br \/>\nKasay\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda i\u00e7inde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kutu, birka\u00e7 foto\u011fraf ve \u00fczerinde ad\u0131m yaz\u0131l\u0131 bir defter bulduk.<br \/>\nDefterin ilk sayfas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u201cSevgili k\u0131z\u0131m Beste\u2026\u201d<br \/>\nDaha ilk kelimelerde a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<br \/>\nBabam, do\u011fdu\u011fum g\u00fcnden itibaren benim i\u00e7in g\u00fcnl\u00fck tutmu\u015ftu. \u0130lk g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc, ilk ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131, s\u00f6yledi\u011fim ilk kelimeyi anlat\u0131yordu. Sayfalar ilerledik\u00e7e beni ne kadar sevdi\u011fini daha iyi anl\u0131yordum.<br \/>\nSon sayfada ise \u015f\u00f6yle yaz\u0131yordu:<br \/>\n\u201cBir g\u00fcn bu defteri okuyorsan yan\u0131nda olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in beni affet k\u0131z\u0131m. Hayatta en b\u00fcy\u00fck servetim sensin. Sak\u0131n ge\u00e7mi\u015fin ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n gelece\u011fini belirlemesine izin verme. Seni tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn yar\u0131nlarda bile sevece\u011fim.\u201d<br \/>\nDefteri g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme bast\u0131rd\u0131m.<br \/>\nCengiz Bey sessizce a\u011fl\u0131yordu.<br \/>\nOna d\u00f6nd\u00fcm.<br \/>\n\u201cSiz babam\u0131n yerini almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131yordunuz, de\u011fil mi?\u201d<br \/>\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cHay\u0131r k\u0131z\u0131m. Sadece ona verdi\u011fim s\u00f6z\u00fc tutmak istiyordum. G\u00f6zlerin baban\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine o kadar benziyor ki seni her g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde onu hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum.\u201d<br \/>\nO an ona ilk kez kendi iste\u011fimle sar\u0131ld\u0131m.<br \/>\nAylar sonra Kaan\u2019la evlenmeye karar verdi\u011fimizde d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde iki \u00f6zel sandalye ay\u0131rd\u0131k. Birinde annem, di\u011ferinde Cengiz Bey oturuyordu.<br \/>\nNik\u00e2h memuru imzalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 att\u0131rmadan hemen \u00f6nce Cengiz Bey bana k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kutu uzatt\u0131.<br \/>\n\u0130\u00e7inden babam\u0131n anneme ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 alyans \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cBaban bunu bir g\u00fcn sana vermemi istemi\u015fti.\u201d<br \/>\nAlyans\u0131 avucumda tutarken g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 gizleyemedim.<br \/>\nCengiz Bey\u2019e sar\u0131l\u0131p kula\u011f\u0131na f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m:<br \/>\n\u201cBabam\u0131 tan\u0131ma f\u0131rsat\u0131m olmad\u0131 ama onun nas\u0131l bir insan oldu\u011funu sizin sayenizde \u00f6\u011frendim.\u201d<br \/>\nO g\u00fcn bir \u015feyi anlad\u0131m. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fte ya\u015fananlar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirmek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi. Annemin y\u0131llarca saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ger\u00e7ekleri \u00f6\u011frenmek can\u0131m\u0131 yakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ancak babam\u0131n sevgisini kaybetmedi\u011fimi, yaln\u0131zca y\u0131llarca ondan habersiz ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 fark etmi\u015ftim.<br \/>\nAnnemle aram\u0131zdaki g\u00fcveni yeniden kurmak zaman ald\u0131. Cengiz Bey de ge\u00e7mi\u015fteki sessizli\u011finin b\u00fct\u00fcn sonu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kabul etti.<br \/>\nAma sonunda birbirimizi affetmeyi \u00f6\u011frendik.<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bazen bir insan\u0131n hayat\u0131nda eksik olan \u015fey, hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 birinin sevgisi de\u011fil, o sevginin var oldu\u011funu bilmektir.<br \/>\nVe ben yirmi yedi y\u0131l sonra babam\u0131n beni hi\u00e7bir zaman terk etmedi\u011fini \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":288,"height":359,"file":"2026\/10\/yttert.jpg","filesize":26897,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"yttert-241x300.jpg","width":241,"height":300,"filesize":20527,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert-241x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"yttert-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":7210,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert-150x150.jpg"},"full":{"file":"yttert.jpg","width":288,"height":359,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":2155,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/yttert.jpg","filename":"yttert.jpg","filesize":26897,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2157","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2157"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":2155,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2155"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}