{"id":2188,"date":"2026-10-27T23:04:20","date_gmt":"2026-10-27T23:04:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13.jpg"},"modified":"2026-10-27T23:04:34","modified_gmt":"2026-10-27T23:04:34","slug":"3333333-19","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/4-yil-yurt-disinda-calistindan-sonra\/3333333-19\/","title":{"rendered":"4 y\u0131l yurt d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131ndan sonra"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-2188","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"157\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13-300x157.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13-300x157.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cD\u00f6rt y\u0131ld\u0131r her \u015feye siz karar verdiniz. \u015eimdi s\u0131ra bende.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bu c\u00fcmleyi s\u00f6yledi\u011fim anda annemin y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifade de\u011fi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Az \u00f6nce h\u00e2l\u00e2 bana a\u00e7\u0131klama yapabilece\u011fini, birka\u00e7 bahane s\u0131ralay\u0131p beni yeniden kand\u0131rabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Ama telefonumun ekran\u0131nda duran banka d\u00f6k\u00fcmlerini g\u00f6r\u00fcnce bunun art\u0131k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eebnem dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAbi, sen yanl\u0131\u015f anl\u0131yorsun\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ona \u00e7evirdim.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cD\u00f6rt y\u0131l boyunca yanl\u0131\u015f anlad\u0131m zaten.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sesimi y\u00fckseltmedim.<\/p>\n<p>Belki de onlar\u0131 en \u00e7ok korkutan buydu.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ba\u011f\u0131rm\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n<p>Sadece art\u0131k her \u015feyi biliyordum.<\/p>\n<p>Yelda h\u00e2l\u00e2 yan\u0131mda duruyordu. Omuzlar\u0131 titriyordu. Elini tuttu\u011fumda parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n buz gibi oldu\u011funu fark ettim.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00dcst\u00fcn\u00fc de\u011fi\u015ftir,\u201d dedim ona. \u201cHastaneye gidiyoruz.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Annem hemen araya girdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u015eimdi mi? Bu saatte ne hastanesi?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ona bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOn bir ay boyunca gitmesi gereken hastaneye.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Nadire sustu.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eebnem ise g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Yelda birka\u00e7 saniye bana bakt\u0131ktan sonra f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDosyalar\u0131m depoda.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bu c\u00fcmleyi duydu\u011fumda i\u00e7imde yeniden bir \u015fey koptu.<\/p>\n<p>Kar\u0131m\u0131n sa\u011fl\u0131k dosyalar\u0131 bile evin i\u00e7inde de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<p>Depodayd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ben valizimi b\u0131rakt\u0131m, Yelda\u2019n\u0131n koluna girdim ve birlikte arka tarafa y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck.<\/p>\n<p>Depo kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm manzaray\u0131 hayat\u0131m boyunca unutamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 biliyordum.<\/p>\n<p>Darac\u0131k bir yatak.<\/p>\n<p>Eski bir battaniye.<\/p>\n<p>Bir plastik sandalye.<\/p>\n<p>Yar\u0131m \u015fi\u015fe su.<\/p>\n<p>Ve k\u00f6\u015fede \u00fcst \u00fcste y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hastane evraklar\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Yelda dosyalar\u0131 al\u0131rken yerde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir po\u015fet dikkatimi \u00e7ekti.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7inden baz\u0131 re\u00e7eteler \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Re\u00e7etelerin \u00fczerinde ila\u00e7 isimleri ve tarihler vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Bir\u00e7o\u011fu aylar \u00f6nce yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ama ila\u00e7lar al\u0131nmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBunlar\u0131 neden almad\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yelda cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n<p>Sadece g\u00f6zlerini yere indirdi.<\/p>\n<p>Cevab\u0131 zaten biliyordum.<\/p>\n<p>Paras\u0131 yoktu.<\/p>\n<p>Daha do\u011frusu, benim g\u00f6nderdi\u011fim para ona verilmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>O gece Yelda\u2019y\u0131 \u00f6zel bir hastaneye g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>Doktorlar onu hemen yat\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Kan de\u011ferleri \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015f\u00fckt\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Tedavisi ciddi \u015fekilde aksat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":768,"height":402,"file":"2026\/10\/3333333-13.jpg","filesize":19663,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"3333333-13-300x157.jpg","width":300,"height":157,"filesize":4918,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13-300x157.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"3333333-13-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":3957,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13-150x150.jpg"},"full":{"file":"3333333-13.jpg","width":768,"height":402,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":2187,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/3333333-13.jpg","filename":"3333333-13.jpg","filesize":19663,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2188","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2188"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":2187,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2187"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}