{"id":490,"date":"2026-09-16T22:44:23","date_gmt":"2026-09-16T22:44:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999.jpg"},"modified":"2026-09-16T22:44:53","modified_gmt":"2026-09-16T22:44:53","slug":"9999999","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/43-yasinda-duldum-koyun-agasiyla-evlendim-ilk-geceden\/attachment\/9999999\/","title":{"rendered":"43 ya\u015f\u0131nda duldum k\u00f6y\u00fcn a\u011fas\u0131yla evlendim ilk geceden.."},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-490","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"162\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999-300x162.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999-300x162.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>43 YA\u015eINDA DULDUM, K\u00d6Y\u00dcN A\u011eASIYLA EVLEND\u0130M \u2014 \u0130LK GECEDEN BANA S\u00d6YLED\u0130\u011e\u0130 \u015eEY, BU EVL\u0130L\u0130\u011e\u0130N SANDI\u011eIM G\u0130B\u0130 OLMADI\u011eINI ANLAMAMA YETT\u0130&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>K\u0131rk \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Dul kalal\u0131 alt\u0131 y\u0131l olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n<p>Kocam\u0131 bir trafik kazas\u0131nda kaybettikten sonra bir daha evlenmeyi hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015ftim. K\u00f6y\u00fcn kenar\u0131ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ta\u015f evimde tek ba\u015f\u0131ma ya\u015f\u0131yor, bah\u00e7emde yeti\u015ftirdi\u011fim sebzeleri pazarda satarak ge\u00e7imimi sa\u011fl\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n<p>Benim ad\u0131m Neriman.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00f6yde herkes beni sakin, kendi halinde bir kad\u0131n olarak tan\u0131rd\u0131. Kimsenin i\u015fine kar\u0131\u015fmaz, kimseyi de hayat\u0131ma fazla yakla\u015ft\u0131rmazd\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Ta ki Rasim A\u011fa bir ak\u015fam kap\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde belirene kadar.<\/p>\n<p>Rasim, \u00e7evredeki k\u00f6ylerde bile ad\u0131 bilinen bir adamd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Geni\u015f tarlalar\u0131, hayvan s\u00fcr\u00fcleri, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir kona\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131. Elli ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Sert bak\u0131\u015fl\u0131, az konu\u015fan, girdi\u011fi yerde insanlar\u0131n ister istemez sustu\u011fu t\u00fcrden biriydi.<\/p>\n<p>Kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131llar \u00f6nce kaybetmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ocu\u011fu da yoktu.<\/p>\n<p>O ak\u015fam kap\u0131mda durup do\u011frudan,<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSeninle evlenmek istiyorum Neriman,\u201d dedi\u011finde, elimdeki su kovas\u0131n\u0131 neredeyse yere d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcl\u00fcp ge\u00e7ece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>Ama y\u00fcz\u00fcnde zerre \u015faka yoktu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBeni tan\u0131m\u0131yorsun bile,\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTan\u0131yorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNas\u0131l?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAlt\u0131 y\u0131ld\u0131r seni g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bu cevap i\u00e7imi tuhaf bir \u015fekilde \u00fcrpertti.<\/p>\n<p>Me\u011fer pazarda, \u00e7e\u015fme ba\u015f\u0131nda, k\u00f6y d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnlerinde defalarca kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015f\u0131z. Ben fark\u0131nda bile de\u011filmi\u015fim.<\/p>\n<p>Teklifini \u00f6nce reddettim.<\/p>\n<p>Fakat Rasim \u0131srar etmedi.<\/p>\n<p>Sadece,<\/p>\n<p>\u201cD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn. Kona\u011f\u0131ma hizmet\u00e7i de\u011fil, e\u015f ar\u0131yorum,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra \u00e7ekip gitti.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcnlerce o c\u00fcmleyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k insana zamanla al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131k gibi geliyor. Ama geceleri evin duvarlar\u0131 sessizle\u015fti\u011finde insan baz\u0131 ger\u00e7eklerden ka\u00e7am\u0131yor.<\/p>\n<p>Ben de yorulmu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n<p>Tek ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnmekten, hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131mda kendi \u00e7orbam\u0131 yapmaktan, k\u00f6t\u00fc bir r\u00fcyan\u0131n ard\u0131ndan konu\u015facak kimse bulamamaktan&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bir ay sonra Rasim&#8217;in teklifini kabul ettim.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00f6y aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cRasim A\u011fa neden Neriman&#8217;\u0131 se\u00e7ti?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBu ya\u015fta evlilik mi olur?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cKesin arazisi i\u00e7in ald\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Arkamdan s\u00f6ylenenleri duyuyordum.<\/p>\n<p>Ama \u00f6nemsemedim.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz g\u00f6steri\u015fsizdi. Kona\u011f\u0131n avlusunda uzun masalar kuruldu. Davullar \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131, yemekler da\u011f\u0131t\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Rasim g\u00fcn boyunca yan\u0131mdan neredeyse hi\u00e7 ayr\u0131lmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Fakat d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn bitip kona\u011f\u0131n kap\u0131lar\u0131 kapand\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda i\u00e7ime a\u00e7\u0131klayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir tedirginlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Yatak odas\u0131 kona\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst kat\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Geni\u015f bir odayd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ah\u015fap tavan, eski bir gard\u0131rop, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir yatak&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Rasim kap\u0131y\u0131 arkas\u0131ndan kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kalbim h\u0131zland\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Aylar sonra bile hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk \u015fey onun bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Bana uzun uzun bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ben utanarak ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7evirdim.<\/p>\n<p>Rasim yan\u0131ma geldi.<\/p>\n<p>Elimi tuttu.<\/p>\n<p>Parmaklar\u0131 s\u0131cakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Fakat bekledi\u011fim \u015fey olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Beni kendisine do\u011fru \u00e7ekmek yerine yata\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131ndaki sandalyeye oturdu.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra,<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNeriman, sana bu gece s\u00f6ylemem gereken bir \u015fey var,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Sesinin de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fini hemen fark ettim.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNe oldu?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBu evlili\u011fi neden istedi\u011fimi sana tam olarak anlatmad\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Elimi \u00e7ektim.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7imde bir korku y\u00fckseldi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNe demek bu?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Rasim birka\u00e7 saniye sustu.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra gard\u0131robun i\u00e7inden eski, metal bir kutu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Kutuyu yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBunu a\u00e7.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Kapa\u011f\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7inden sararm\u0131\u015f birka\u00e7 foto\u011fraf \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130lk foto\u011fraf\u0131 elime ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda nefesim kesildi&#8230;<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":768,"height":414,"file":"2026\/09\/9999999.jpg","filesize":23101,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"9999999-300x162.jpg","width":300,"height":162,"filesize":6014,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999-300x162.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"9999999-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":4396,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999-150x150.jpg"},"full":{"file":"9999999.jpg","width":768,"height":414,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":489,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999.jpg","filename":"9999999.jpg","filesize":23101,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/490","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=490"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":489,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/489"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}