{"id":524,"date":"2026-09-17T21:48:34","date_gmt":"2026-09-17T21:48:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1.jpg"},"modified":"2026-09-17T21:49:04","modified_gmt":"2026-09-17T21:49:04","slug":"imgon1-2","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kizim-eve-simsiyah-giyinmis-dovmeli-ve-gozlerine-siyah-kalem-cekmis-solgun-bir-genc-getirdi\/imgon1-2\/","title":{"rendered":"KIZIM EVE S\u0130MS\u0130YAH G\u0130Y\u0130NM\u0130\u015e, D\u00d6VMEL\u0130 VE G\u00d6ZLER\u0130NE S\u0130YAH KALEM \u00c7EKM\u0130\u015e SOLGUN B\u0130R GEN\u00c7 GET\u0130RD\u0130"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-524","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1-300x300.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>Kocam\u0131n o\u011flu.<\/p>\n<p>Duru\u2019nun a\u011fabeyi.<\/p>\n<p>K\u0131z\u0131m, sevgilisi oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc adam\u0131n asl\u0131nda karde\u015fi oldu\u011funu o anda \u00f6\u011freniyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Duru\u2019nun y\u00fcz\u00fc bembeyaz olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBu\u2026 bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Baran hemen ona d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDuru, ben bunu bug\u00fcn \u00f6\u011frendim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Duru\u2019nun g\u00f6zleri doldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNe demek bug\u00fcn \u00f6\u011frendin?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Baran cebinden katlanm\u0131\u015f bir zarf \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnem \u00fc\u00e7 hafta \u00f6nce \u00f6ld\u00fc.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sesi ilk kez titredi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cKanserdi. \u00d6lmeden \u00f6nce bana bir kutu b\u0131rakt\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde eski foto\u011fraflar, videolar ve bir mektup vard\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay sandalyeye \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Baran devam etti.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMektupta babam\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131n Tuncay oldu\u011funu yaz\u0131yordu. Nerede ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen bu eve Duru y\u00fcz\u00fcnden gelmedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Duru irkildi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNe?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYani\u2026 seni kullanmad\u0131m. Seninle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda kim oldu\u011funu bilmiyordum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Telefonundan bir tarih g\u00f6sterdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnemin kutusunu seninle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131ktan iki ay sonra ald\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Duru\u2019nun g\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPeki neden bana s\u00f6ylemedin?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc emin de\u011fildim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Baran\u2019\u0131n sesi k\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cVe do\u011frusu korktum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sonra Tuncay\u2019a bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBug\u00fcn beni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce verece\u011fi tepkiyi merak ettim. Beni tan\u0131y\u0131p tan\u0131mayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmek istedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ben h\u00e2l\u00e2 tek bir \u015feye tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSen bunu y\u0131llard\u0131r biliyordun.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay bana bakamad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBiz evlendi\u011fimizde de mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7imde bir \u015fey k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Mesele yaln\u0131zca ge\u00e7mi\u015fte yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir hata de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<p>Yirmi y\u0131ll\u0131k bir yaland\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Her do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnde.<\/p>\n<p>Her aile foto\u011fraf\u0131nda.<\/p>\n<p>Duru d\u00fcnyaya geldi\u011finde.<\/p>\n<p>Bana \u201chayat\u0131mda senden saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok\u201d dedi\u011fi her anda.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnesine ne oldu?\u201d diye sordum.<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 temizledi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAd\u0131 Asl\u0131\u2019yd\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOnu neden b\u0131rakt\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGen\u00e7tim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Baran ac\u0131 bir kahkaha att\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNe kadar kullan\u0131\u015fl\u0131 bir c\u00fcmle.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen korktum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen de korktum,\u201d dedi Baran.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBabam\u0131n beni istemedi\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde ben de korktum. Ama annemi yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmad\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay\u2019\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPara g\u00f6nderdim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Baran g\u00f6zlerini ona dikti.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPara m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sesinde ilk kez \u00f6fke vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDo\u011fum g\u00fcnlerimde seni beklerken para m\u0131 g\u00f6nderdin?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay cevap veremedi.<\/p>\n<p>Duru a\u011flayarak \u00fcst kata \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Pe\u015finden gitmek istedim ama ayaklar\u0131m beni ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Baran telefonu cebine koydu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen buraya aile da\u011f\u0131tmaya gelmedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Kap\u0131ya y\u00f6neldi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen sadece annemin bana yalan s\u00f6ylemedi\u011fini g\u00f6rmek istedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Tam \u00e7\u0131kacakken seslendim.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBaran.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Durdu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDuru\u2019yla ili\u015fkiniz\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBitti.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bunu s\u00f6ylerken y\u00fcz\u00fc ac\u0131yla gerildi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cZaten ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fcs\u00fc m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOnu incitmek istemedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay bir anda arkas\u0131ndan seslendi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cO\u011flum\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Baran oldu\u011fu yerde dondu.<\/p>\n<p>Ama d\u00f6nmedi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBana \u00f6yle deme.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7ekip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>O gece evimizde kimse uyumad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Sabaha kar\u015f\u0131 Duru yan\u0131ma geldi.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zleri \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnne, babam\u0131 b\u0131rakacak m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bu soruya hemen cevap veremedim.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc yirmi d\u00f6rt y\u0131ll\u0131k bir evlilik tek gecede silinmiyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Ama baz\u0131 ger\u00e7ekler de \u00f6\u011frenildikten sonra geri kapat\u0131lam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay g\u00fcnlerce \u00f6z\u00fcr diledi.<\/p>\n<p>Bahaneler sundu.<\/p>\n<p>Gen\u00e7 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n<p>Korktu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n<p>Bizi kaybetmek istemedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n<p>Ama s\u00f6ylediklerinin hi\u00e7biri \u015fu ger\u00e7e\u011fi de\u011fi\u015ftirmiyordu:<\/p>\n<p>Baran babas\u0131z b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Ve Tuncay bunu bilerek ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Bir hafta sonra Baran\u2019\u0131 arad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Bir kafede bulu\u015ftuk.<\/p>\n<p>Masaya oturdu\u011funda h\u00e2l\u00e2 mesafeliydi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSenden bir \u015fey istemiyorum,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBiliyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cElimdeki \u015feylerle dava falan da a\u00e7mayaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen bunun i\u00e7in gelmedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sonra \u00f6n\u00fcne k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir foto\u011fraf koydum.<\/p>\n<p>Duru\u2019nun \u00e7ocukluk foto\u011fraf\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSenin bir karde\u015fin var.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Baran uzun s\u00fcre foto\u011frafa bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zleri doldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cDuru beni g\u00f6rmek istemez.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u015eu an istemiyor.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bunu d\u00fcr\u00fcst\u00e7e s\u00f6yledim.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAma hayat uzun.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Aradan aylar ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay\u2019la evlili\u011fimizi bitirdim.<\/p>\n<p>Sebebi yaln\u0131zca ge\u00e7mi\u015fte yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fey de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<p>As\u0131l sebep, o ge\u00e7mi\u015fi y\u0131llarca bizim bug\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn i\u00e7ine saklamas\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Duru zamanla toparland\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Baran da hayat\u0131na devam etti.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130lk aylar birbirlerini hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmediler.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra bir g\u00fcn Duru bana mesaj att\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnne, Baran\u2019la kahve i\u00e7meye gidiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Kalbim s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ama bu kez korkudan de\u011fil.<\/p>\n<p>Ak\u015fam eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde g\u00f6zleri k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNas\u0131l ge\u00e7ti?\u201d diye sordum.<\/p>\n<p>Duru hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGarip.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bir s\u00fcre sustu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGiderken sevgilim vard\u0131. D\u00f6nerken a\u011fabeyim oldu.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Aylar sonra Baran ilk kez bizimle bayram sofras\u0131na oturdu.<\/p>\n<p>Masada bir sandalye fazla de\u011fildi art\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Aksine, y\u0131llard\u0131r eksik olan sandalye sonunda dolmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n<p>Tuncay o sofrada yoktu.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 hatalar\u0131n aff\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olsa bile, sonu\u00e7lar\u0131 ortadan kalkm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Yine de o gece Baran\u2019\u0131 Duru\u2019yla mutfakta tart\u0131\u015f\u0131rken g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde istemeden g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.<\/p>\n<p>Duru ona,<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen senden b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm gibi davranma,\u201d<\/p>\n<p>diyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Baran da,<\/p>\n<p>\u201cTeknik olarak a\u011fabeyinim,\u201d<\/p>\n<p>diye cevap veriyordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130lk kez ikisinin de y\u00fcz\u00fcnde ger\u00e7ek bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>O an \u015funu anlad\u0131m:<\/p>\n<p>Bir aileyi ger\u00e7ekler y\u0131kmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Onu as\u0131l y\u0131kan, ger\u00e7e\u011fin y\u0131llarca saklanmas\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ama bazen ortaya \u00e7\u0131kan en ac\u0131 s\u0131r bile, geride kalan insanlar\u0131n birbirine d\u00fcr\u00fcst\u00e7e yakla\u015fmas\u0131na izin verirse yeni bir ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7abilirdi.<\/p>\n<p>Bizim ailemiz eski haline hi\u00e7 d\u00f6nmedi.<\/p>\n<p>Ama belki de d\u00f6nmemesi gerekiyordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sonunda kusursuz g\u00f6r\u00fcnen bir yalan\u0131n i\u00e7inde ya\u015fam\u0131yorduk.<\/p>\n<p>Eksik, yaral\u0131 ama ger\u00e7ek bir aileydik.<\/p>\n<p>Ve ilk kez sofraya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda hi\u00e7bir sandalyenin kime ait oldu\u011funu sorgulam\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":1024,"height":1024,"file":"2026\/09\/imgon1-1.jpg","filesize":96723,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"imgon1-1-300x300.jpg","width":300,"height":300,"filesize":29307,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1-300x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"imgon1-1-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":8624,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"imgon1-1-768x768.jpg","width":768,"height":768,"filesize":141125,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1-768x768.jpg"},"full":{"file":"imgon1-1.jpg","width":1024,"height":1024,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":522,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgon1-1.jpg","filename":"imgon1-1.jpg","filesize":96723,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/524","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=524"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":522,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/522"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}