{"id":713,"date":"2026-09-21T19:34:37","date_gmt":"2026-09-21T19:34:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1.jpg"},"modified":"2026-09-21T19:34:55","modified_gmt":"2026-09-21T19:34:55","slug":"bh1","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/yillarca-beni-evlatliktan-reddeden-babam-vefat-etti\/bh1\/","title":{"rendered":"Y\u0131llarca beni evlatl\u0131ktan reddeden babam vefat etti"},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-713","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"240\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1-240x300.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1-240x300.jpg 240w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1.jpg 526w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 240px) 100vw, 240px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>Bunu hayat\u0131m boyunca ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131m. Her yeni do\u011fumg\u00fcn\u00fcnde, her ba\u015far\u0131mla eski bir yara gibi a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 o reddedili\u015f. \u0130nsanlar soruyor, ben susuyorum. Aile toplant\u0131lar\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fcmden ka\u00e7an bak\u0131\u015flar, sanki g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez bir damga ta\u015f\u0131yormu\u015fum gibi yakla\u015fan uzakl\u0131klar\u2026Cenazesine gitmeyi hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015ftim. Uzun y\u0131llar boyunca yok sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir g\u00f6lgeye gitmek anlams\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.Fakat bir sabah telefon \u00e7ald\u0131.Arayan, babam\u0131n avukat\u0131yd\u0131.\u201cBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131z sa\u011f olsun,\u201d dedi.Te\u015fekk\u00fcr bile edemedim.Ard\u0131ndan birka\u00e7 saniye sustu.\u201cBaban\u0131z\u0131n vasiyetnamesiyle ilgili sizinle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmem gerekiyor.\u201d\u201cBenimle mi?\u201dSesimdeki \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 saklayamad\u0131m.\u201cEvet. \u00d6zellikle sizin i\u00e7in b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u015fey var.\u201dTelefonu kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda uzun s\u00fcre oldu\u011fum yerde kald\u0131m.Babam hayat\u0131 boyunca benimle konu\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Y\u0131llarca do\u011fum g\u00fcnlerimde tek bir mesaj bile g\u00f6ndermemi\u015f, mezuniyetimi, i\u015f hayat\u0131ndaki ba\u015far\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131, kurdu\u011fum aileyi yok saym\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u015eimdi ise \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra bana bir \u015fey b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra avukat\u0131n ofisine gittim.Masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde eski, kahverengi bir zarf duruyordu.\u00dczerinde yaln\u0131zca ad\u0131m yaz\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131.El yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 hemen tan\u0131d\u0131m.Babam\u0131n el yaz\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131.Zarf\u0131 a\u00e7mak istemedim.\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc y\u0131llard\u0131r bekledi\u011fim tek \u015fey onun bana neden bunu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemesiydi. \u015eimdi bunu \u00f6\u011frenmekten korkuyordum.Sonunda zarf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m.\u0130\u00e7inden birka\u00e7 sayfal\u0131k bir mektup \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\u0130lk sat\u0131r\u0131 okudu\u011fum anda g\u00f6zlerim doldu.\u201cE\u011fer bu mektubu okuyorsan, art\u0131k sana ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlatmam i\u00e7in \u00e7ok ge\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m demektir.\u201dNefesimi tuttum.Devam ettim.\u201c\u00c7ocukken seni evlatl\u0131ktan reddetti\u011fimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn. Bunu sana ben s\u00f6yledim. Y\u0131llarca benden nefret etmeni de g\u00f6ze ald\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni koruyabilece\u011fim tek yolun bu oldu\u011funa inand\u0131m.\u201dK\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 masaya b\u0131rakt\u0131m.\u201cBu ne demek?\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m.Avukat sessizce beni izliyordu.\u201cDevam edin,\u201d dedi.Mektubu yeniden elime ald\u0131m.Babam, beni neden hayat\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131yordu.Ama as\u0131l \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 olan, karar\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131nda ailemizin y\u0131llard\u0131r saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u015fka bir ki\u015finin bulunmas\u0131yd\u0131.Mektupta o ki\u015finin ad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde elim titremeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o isim bana hi\u00e7 yabanc\u0131 de\u011fildi.\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan beri hayat\u0131mda olan biriydi.\u00dcstelik babam\u0131n beni reddetti\u011fi g\u00fcn, o ki\u015fi evimizdeydi.Y\u0131llarca babam\u0131n bana neden b\u00f6yle davrand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Onun sevgisizli\u011fini kendimde aram\u0131\u015f, yanl\u0131\u015f yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015fey oldu\u011funa inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.Oysa babam mektubunda ba\u015fka bir \u015fey s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu.\u201cBenden nefret etmen, onun seni bulmas\u0131ndan daha g\u00fcvenliydi.\u201dBu c\u00fcmleyi defalarca okudum.\u201cBeni kimden koruyordun?\u201d diye sordum, sanki babam kar\u015f\u0131mdaym\u0131\u015f gibi.Cevab\u0131 mektubun sonraki sayfas\u0131ndayd\u0131.Ve o sayfay\u0131 \u00e7evirdi\u011fimde hayat\u0131m boyunca bildi\u011fim aile hik\u00e2yesinin asl\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck bir yalandan ibaret oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendim.Babam beni terk etmemi\u015fti.Beni herkesten saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.Fakat nedenini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde, cenazesine gitmedi\u011fim i\u00e7in ilk kez pi\u015fmanl\u0131k duydum.\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc mezar\u0131na gitti\u011fimde art\u0131k ona s\u00f6ylemek istedi\u011fim tek bir \u015fey vard\u0131:\u201cBunu bana neden daha \u00f6nce anlatmad\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":526,"height":658,"file":"2026\/09\/bh1.jpg","filesize":37433,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"bh1-240x300.jpg","width":240,"height":300,"filesize":12717,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1-240x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"bh1-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":5327,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1-150x150.jpg"},"full":{"file":"bh1.jpg","width":526,"height":658,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":711,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/bh1.jpg","filename":"bh1.jpg","filesize":37433,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/713","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=713"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":711,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/711"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}