{"id":813,"date":"2026-09-23T20:55:51","date_gmt":"2026-09-23T20:55:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11.jpg"},"modified":"2026-09-23T20:56:14","modified_gmt":"2026-09-23T20:56:14","slug":"imgonli11","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kizim-bana-baba-her-gece-sizin-odaniza-bir-adam-giriyor-dedi-o-gece-onu-yakalamak-icin-uyuyormus-gibi-yapmaya-karar-verdim\/imgonli11\/","title":{"rendered":"KIZIM BANA, \u2018BABA, HER GECE S\u0130Z\u0130N ODANIZA B\u0130R ADAM G\u0130R\u0130YOR,\u2019 DED\u0130\u2026 O GECE ONU YAKALAMAK \u0130\u00c7\u0130N UYUYORMU\u015e G\u0130B\u0130 YAPMAYA KARAR VERD\u0130M."},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-813","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"

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Beliz y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte o sessizlik her \u015feyi de\u011fi\u015ftirdi.<\/p>\n

\u00d6fkemi kaybettim.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ilk kez onlar\u0131n benden bir ili\u015fki de\u011fil, ba\u015fka bir \u015fey saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Beliz\u2019in omuzlar\u0131 titriyordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cBora\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

\u201cNe oluyor?\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz bana bakmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce kontrol i\u00e7in hastaneye gittim.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNeden?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBa\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. \u00c7ok yoruluyordum. Kilo veriyordum.\u201d<\/p>\n

Yutkundu.<\/p>\n

\u201cKan tahlillerimde sorun \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Kalbim h\u0131zland\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cNe sorunu?\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz\u2019in g\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u201cLenfoma.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sanki biri odadaki b\u00fct\u00fcn havay\u0131 \u00e7ekip alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6yledi\u011fi kelimeyi duydum ama anlamland\u0131ramad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u201cNe?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cKanser.\u201d<\/p>\n

Dizlerimin g\u00fcc\u00fc kesildi.<\/p>\n

Yata\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131na oturdum.<\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n

Tek s\u00f6yleyebildi\u011fim buydu.<\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130lk ba\u015fta erken evre oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcler. Sonra daha agresif oldu\u011fu anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 ayd\u0131r m\u0131 biliyorsun?\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 ayd\u0131r bunu benden sakl\u0131yor musun?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cEvet.\u201d<\/p>\n

O an i\u00e7imdeki korkunun yerini \u00f6fke ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ama bu kez ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc bir \u00f6fkeydi.<\/p>\n

\u201cNas\u0131l yapars\u0131n bunu?\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz a\u011fl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen daha \u00f6nce annende ayn\u0131 hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sustum.<\/p>\n

Annem.<\/p>\n

On y\u0131l \u00f6nce kanserden kaybetti\u011fim annem.<\/p>\n

Aylarca hastane koridorlar\u0131nda uyumu\u015f, her k\u00f6t\u00fc haberde biraz daha \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Beliz b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 biliyordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cDoktorlar tedaviye hemen ba\u015flamam\u0131z gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yledi\u011finde seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBeni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn i\u00e7in mi s\u00f6ylemedin?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDuru\u2019yu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sesi \u00e7atlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBeni hasta g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde korkmas\u0131n\u0131 istemedim. Seni yeniden ayn\u0131 \u015feyin i\u00e7ine sokmak istemedim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u201cSen benim kar\u0131ms\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBiliyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBenim hayat\u0131m\u0131 korumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken beni hayat\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz bu c\u00fcmleden sonra y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ellerinin aras\u0131na ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Dr. Emre sessizce kap\u0131ya do\u011fru \u00e7ekildi.<\/p>\n

\u201cSize biraz zaman vereyim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ben ona d\u00f6nd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

\u201cHer gece mi geliyorsunuz?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHer gece de\u011fil. Baz\u0131 tedaviler ve kan de\u011ferleri i\u00e7in belirli gecelerde geliyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cPeki neden gece?\u201d<\/p>\n

Doktor cevap vermeden Beliz araya girdi.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen uyurken yapmak istedim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir anda Duru\u2019nun s\u00f6zleri akl\u0131ma geldi.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnnem hep \u00e7ok \u00fczg\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.\u201d<\/p>\n

O c\u00fcmle zihnimde yank\u0131land\u0131.<\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131m ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Ben ise g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm her par\u00e7ay\u0131 k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ine yerle\u015ftirmi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ellerimin aras\u0131na ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u201cDuru seni g\u00f6rd\u00fc.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz h\u0131zla bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cNe?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAdam\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledi.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fc de\u011fi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Sesi parampar\u00e7ayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBen onun hi\u00e7bir \u015fey fark etmedi\u011fini san\u0131yordum.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cFark etmi\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz g\u00f6zlerini kapatt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBunu ona nas\u0131l anlataca\u011f\u0131z?\u201d<\/p>\n

Cevap veremedim.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc benim de ne s\u00f6yleyece\u011fimi bilmiyordum.<\/p>\n

O gece Dr. Emre tedaviyi tamamlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ben yata\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturdum.<\/p>\n

\u0130lk kez Beliz\u2019in damar\u0131na giren i\u011fneyi, serumun yava\u015f\u00e7a akt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onun yorgun y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Ve ilk kez onun ne kadar zay\u0131flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten fark ettim.<\/p>\n

O kadar uzun s\u00fcre kendi korkular\u0131ma bakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ki kar\u0131m\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 korkuyu g\u00f6rememi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n

Sabaha kar\u015f\u0131 Beliz uyuyakald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda odadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Duru\u2019nun odas\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7eri bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda uyan\u0131k oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

\u201cBaba?\u201d<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131na oturdum.<\/p>\n

\u201cUyumad\u0131n m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cAdam yine geldi mi?\u201d<\/p>\n

Derin bir nefes ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u201cEvet.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnneme k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015fey mi yap\u0131yor?\u201d<\/p>\n

Bu soru beni par\u00e7alad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n

Elini tuttum.<\/p>\n

\u201cO adam annene yard\u0131m ediyor.\u201d<\/p>\n

Duru ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnnem hasta m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir an yalan s\u00f6ylemek istedim.<\/p>\n

Onu korumak istedim.<\/p>\n

Sonra Beliz\u2019in yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hatay\u0131 tekrar etmek \u00fczere oldu\u011fumu fark ettim.<\/p>\n

\u201cEvet.\u201d<\/p>\n

Duru\u2019nun g\u00f6zleri doldu.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00d6lecek mi?\u201d<\/p>\n

Bo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.<\/p>\n

\u201cDoktorlar onu iyile\u015ftirmek i\u00e7in ellerinden geleni yap\u0131yor. Biz de onun yan\u0131nda olaca\u011f\u0131z.\u201d<\/p>\n

Duru bana sar\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cBen de mi?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cEn \u00e7ok sen.\u201d<\/p>\n

O sabah \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz mutfak masas\u0131nda oturduk.<\/p>\n

Beliz her \u015feyi Duru\u2019nun anlayabilece\u011fi kadar basit anlatt\u0131.<\/p>\n

Duru a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Beliz de a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ben de.<\/p>\n

Ama o g\u00fcnden sonra evimizde art\u0131k kapal\u0131 kap\u0131lar ard\u0131nda f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tedavi g\u00fcnlerinde ben Beliz\u2019in yan\u0131nda oturdum.<\/p>\n

Duru ona k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck resimler yapt\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bazen sa\u00e7lar\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fclmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Beliz aynaya bak\u0131p a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bazen ben banyoya girip sessizce a\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ama art\u0131k hi\u00e7birimiz yaln\u0131z a\u011flam\u0131yorduk.<\/p>\n

Aylar ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n

Tedavi kolay olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130yi g\u00fcnler oldu.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc g\u00fcnler de.<\/p>\n

Sonra bir sabah hastanede doktor, son taramalar\u0131n \u00f6ncekilere g\u00f6re \u00e7ok daha iyi oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n

Hastal\u0131k tamamen bitmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Ama tedaviye cevap veriyordu.<\/p>\n

Beliz elimi tuttu.<\/p>\n

Parmaklar\u0131 zay\u0131ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ama s\u0131cakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

Arabaya d\u00f6nerken Duru arka koltuktan bize seslendi.<\/p>\n

\u201cBaba?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cEfendim?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cArt\u0131k o adam geceleri gelmeyecek mi?\u201d<\/p>\n

Dikiz aynas\u0131ndan ona bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cUmar\u0131m gelmesine gerek kalmaz.\u201d<\/p>\n

Duru ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 pencereye yaslad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sonra \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n bazen yeti\u015fkinlerden daha do\u011fru c\u00fcmleler kurabildi\u011fi o garip anlardan birinde \u015f\u00f6yle dedi:<\/p>\n

\u201cBence annem bir daha \u00fczg\u00fcnken g\u00f6zlerini kapatmamal\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Beliz bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ben de ona.<\/p>\n

Elini tuttum.<\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedim.<\/p>\n

\u201cBir daha hi\u00e7birimiz g\u00f6zlerimizi kapatmayaca\u011f\u0131z.\u201d<\/p>\n

O gece yatak odas\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ilk kez tamamen a\u00e7\u0131k b\u0131rakt\u0131k.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o evde bizi birbirimizden koruyan \u015feyin s\u0131rlar de\u011fil, ger\u00e7e\u011fi birlikte ta\u015f\u0131yabilmek oldu\u011funu sonunda anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":1024,"height":1024,"file":"2026\/09\/imgonli11.jpg","filesize":185716,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"imgonli11-300x300.jpg","width":300,"height":300,"filesize":17551,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-300x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"imgonli11-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":6093,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"imgonli11-768x768.jpg","width":768,"height":768,"filesize":72187,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-768x768.jpg"},"full":{"file":"imgonli11.jpg","width":1024,"height":1024,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":811,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11.jpg","filename":"imgonli11.jpg","filesize":185716,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/813","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=813"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":811,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/811"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}