{"id":853,"date":"2026-09-24T20:53:59","date_gmt":"2026-09-24T20:53:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4.jpg"},"modified":"2026-09-24T20:54:13","modified_gmt":"2026-09-24T20:54:13","slug":"656565-5","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/annem-30-yil-boyunca-her-pazar-ayni-tren-istasyonuna-gitti-cenazesinden-sonra-cantasinda-buldugum-bilet-kimi-bekledigini-ortaya-cikardi\/656565-5\/","title":{"rendered":"ANNEM 30 YIL BOYUNCA HER PAZAR AYNI TREN \u0130STASYONUNA G\u0130TT\u0130 \u2014 CENAZES\u0130NDEN SONRA \u00c7ANTASINDA BULDU\u011eUM B\u0130LET, K\u0130M\u0130 BEKLED\u0130\u011e\u0130N\u0130 ORTAYA \u00c7IKARDI."},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-853","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"157\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4-300x157.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4-300x157.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cBen Yusuf\u2019um,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnem beni otuz y\u0131l bekledi, de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>O an ne s\u00f6yleyece\u011fimi bilemedim.<\/p>\n<p>Kar\u015f\u0131mda duran adam altm\u0131\u015f ya\u015flar\u0131ndayd\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u0131sm\u0131 beyazlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Uzun boyluydu ama omuzlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Elindeki sararm\u0131\u015f bileti \u00f6yle s\u0131k\u0131 tutuyordu ki parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n eklemleri bembeyaz olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n<p>Y\u0131llard\u0131r annemin pazar g\u00fcnleri oturdu\u011fu o eski bank\u0131n yan\u0131nda, birbirimize bakan iki yabanc\u0131yd\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Ama ikimiz de ayn\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011fuyduk.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet,\u201d dedim sonunda. \u201cHer pazar geldi.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf\u2019un g\u00f6zleri doldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHer pazar m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYa\u011fmurda da. Karda da. Hastayken bile.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf g\u00f6zlerini istasyon saatine \u00e7evirdi. Saat 10.21\u2019i g\u00f6steriyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Dudaklar\u0131 titredi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAlt\u0131 dakika ge\u00e7 kald\u0131m,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Bu c\u00fcmlede \u00f6yle a\u011f\u0131r bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131k vard\u0131 ki cevap veremedim.<\/p>\n<p>Yan yana oturduk.<\/p>\n<p>Bir s\u00fcre trenlerin raylarda \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 metalik sesten ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015fey duyulmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra Yusuf \u00e7antas\u0131ndan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f bir zarf \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBunu babam \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde buldum,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Zarf\u0131n \u00fczerinde annemin ad\u0131 yaz\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Nevin.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBabam Kemal, iki ay \u00f6nce \u00f6ld\u00fc. E\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 toplarken bu mektubu buldum. Mektupta annemin h\u00e2l\u00e2 her pazar ayn\u0131 istasyonda beni bekliyor olabilece\u011fini yazm\u0131\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7imde bir \u00f6fke y\u00fckseldi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBiliyormu\u015f yani?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOtuz y\u0131l boyunca annemin bekledi\u011fini biliyormu\u015f ve sana s\u00f6ylememi\u015f mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf\u2019un y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ac\u0131 daha da b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBabam bana annemin bizi terk etti\u011fini s\u00f6yledi.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Oldu\u011fum yerde donup kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf anlatmaya devam etti.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ocuklu\u011fu boyunca annesinin onu istemedi\u011fine inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kemal ona, Nevin\u2019in ba\u015fka bir hayat se\u00e7ti\u011fini, o\u011flunu geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOn ya\u015f\u0131ndayken annemi g\u00f6rmek istedi\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim,\u201d dedi Yusuf. \u201cBabam \u00e7ok sinirlendi. Bana, \u2018O seni g\u00f6rmek isteseydi \u015fimdiye kadar gelirdi,\u2019 dedi.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Oysa annem gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Hem de y\u00fczlerce kez.<\/p>\n<p>Her pazar.<\/p>\n<p>Ayn\u0131 saatte.<\/p>\n<p>Ayn\u0131 peronda.<\/p>\n<p>Birden \u00e7ocukken anneme s\u00f6yledi\u011fim bir c\u00fcmleyi hat\u0131rlad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnne, pazar g\u00fcnleri neden hep gidiyorsun?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>O zaman g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBazen bir insan\u0131n gelmesi i\u00e7in de\u011fil, geldi\u011finde seni orada bulabilmesi i\u00e7in beklersin.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Y\u0131llarca bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn ne anlama geldi\u011fini anlayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi anl\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf mektubu bana uzatt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Kemal\u2019in el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Mektupta her \u015fey vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce aileler aras\u0131ndaki b\u00fcy\u00fck tart\u0131\u015fmadan sonra Kemal o\u011flunu al\u0131p gitmi\u015fti. Nevin\u2019in onlar\u0131 bulmas\u0131n\u0131 engellemi\u015f, adreslerini de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e annesini daha \u00e7ok sormaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca ise ger\u00e7ekleri anlatmak yerine yalan s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Ama Kemal ya\u015flan\u0131p hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda vicdan\u0131yla ba\u015f ba\u015fa kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Mektubun son sat\u0131rlar\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6yle yaz\u0131yordu:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNevin bana, \u2018Yusuf bir g\u00fcn beni ararsa pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc saat 10.15\u2019te istasyonda olaca\u011f\u0131m,\u2019 demi\u015fti. Onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tutaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorum. Ben ise verdi\u011fim hi\u00e7bir s\u00f6z\u00fc tutmad\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf elleriyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kapatt\u0131<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":768,"height":402,"file":"2026\/09\/656565-4.jpg","filesize":19663,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"656565-4-300x157.jpg","width":300,"height":157,"filesize":4918,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4-300x157.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"656565-4-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":3957,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4-150x150.jpg"},"full":{"file":"656565-4.jpg","width":768,"height":402,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":852,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4.jpg","filename":"656565-4.jpg","filesize":19663,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/853","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=853"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":852,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/852"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}