{"id":854,"date":"2026-09-24T20:54:00","date_gmt":"2026-09-24T20:54:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1.jpg"},"modified":"2026-09-24T20:54:25","modified_gmt":"2026-09-24T20:54:25","slug":"imgonli11-2","status":"inherit","type":"attachment","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/annem-30-yil-boyunca-her-pazar-ayni-tren-istasyonuna-gitti-cenazesinden-sonra-cantasinda-buldugum-bilet-kimi-bekledigini-ortaya-cikardi\/imgonli11-2\/","title":{"rendered":"ANNEM 30 YIL BOYUNCA HER PAZAR AYNI TREN \u0130STASYONUNA G\u0130TT\u0130 \u2014 CENAZES\u0130NDEN SONRA \u00c7ANTASINDA BULDU\u011eUM B\u0130LET, K\u0130M\u0130 BEKLED\u0130\u011e\u0130N\u0130 ORTAYA \u00c7IKARDI."},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"class_list":["post-854","attachment","type-attachment","status-inherit","hentry"],"description":{"rendered":"<p class=\"attachment\"><a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1.jpg'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-300x300.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n"},"caption":{"rendered":"<p>\u201c\u0130ki ay \u00f6nce bu mektubu buldum ama hemen gelemedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNeden?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Derin bir nefes ald\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc korktum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnenden mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHay\u0131r. Onun y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmaktan.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Y\u0131llarca kendisini terk eden bir anneye \u00f6fke duymu\u015ftu. Hatta gen\u00e7li\u011finde annesine hitaben mektuplar yazm\u0131\u015f, sonra hepsini y\u0131rtm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi b\u00fct\u00fcn o \u00f6fkenin yanl\u0131\u015f bir hik\u00e2yeye dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYa beni affetmezse diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Sesim istemeden sertle\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnem seni otuz y\u0131l bekledi. Sence seni affetmez miydi?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar ak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Tam o s\u0131rada akl\u0131ma annemin cenazesinden \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z son gece geldi.<\/p>\n<p>Annem hastayd\u0131. Yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturuyordum.<\/p>\n<p>Bir ara g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7\u0131p bana:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBu pazar istasyona gidemeyebilirim,\u201d demi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Ben de elini tutup, \u201cArt\u0131k gitme anne. Yeterince bekledin,\u201d demi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n<p>Bana uzun uzun bakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra \u00e7ok sessiz bir sesle:<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u0130nsan sevdi\u011fi birini beklemekten yorulmaz. Sadece zaman\u0131n kendisinden \u00f6nce yorulmas\u0131ndan korkar,\u201d demi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>O an s\u00f6zlerini anlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm\u00fcn ortas\u0131na bir ta\u015f oturmu\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf\u2019a bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGel.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNereye?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnemin evine.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>O \u00f6\u011fleden sonra birlikte eve gittik.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girerken durdu.<\/p>\n<p>Sanki annem birazdan mutfaktan \u00e7\u0131kacakm\u0131\u015f gibi etrafa bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Duvarlardaki foto\u011fraflar\u0131 inceledi.<\/p>\n<p>Benim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ocuklar\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Annemin do\u011fum g\u00fcnleri.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra salonun k\u00f6\u015fesindeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck vitrinde bir foto\u011fraf g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Dondu.<\/p>\n<p>Foto\u011fraf, benim daha \u00f6nce fark etmedi\u011fim kadar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ve eskiydi.<\/p>\n<p>\u00dczerinde \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fi vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Annem.<\/p>\n<p>Kemal.<\/p>\n<p>Ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Yusuf.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf foto\u011fraf\u0131 eline ald\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBunu neden saklam\u0131\u015f?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni hi\u00e7 unutmam\u0131\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Annemin yatak odas\u0131na ge\u00e7tik.<\/p>\n<p>Daha \u00f6nce \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 buldu\u011fum dolab\u0131 yeniden a\u00e7t\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Bu kez Yusuf, alt raftaki eski bir kutuyu fark etti.<\/p>\n<p>Kutunun \u00fczerinde yaln\u0131zca tek kelime vard\u0131:<\/p>\n<p>YUSUF.<\/p>\n<p>Birbirimize bakt\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Kutuyu a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda i\u00e7inden onlarca zarf \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Her birinin \u00fczerinde tarih vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Annem her y\u0131l Yusuf\u2019a mektup yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ama hi\u00e7birini g\u00f6ndermemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc adresini bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf ilk mektubu a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Annem \u015f\u00f6yle yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cCan\u0131m o\u011flum, bug\u00fcn yine gelmedin. Sana k\u0131zg\u0131n de\u011filim. Belki h\u00e2l\u00e2 haz\u0131r de\u011filsindir. Ben sen haz\u0131r olana kadar ayn\u0131 yerde olaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf mektubu okuyamad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Sandalye \u00e7ekip oturdu ve \u00e7ocuk gibi a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Saatler boyunca kutudaki mektuplar\u0131 okuduk.<\/p>\n<p>Annem Yusuf\u2019un do\u011fum g\u00fcnlerini hi\u00e7 unutmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Her y\u0131l ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131na bast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hesaplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBug\u00fcn 40 oldun.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBug\u00fcn 50 ya\u015f\u0131ndas\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBug\u00fcn sa\u00e7lar\u0131n beyazlamaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r belki.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Son mektup yaln\u0131zca \u00fc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf titreyen elleriyle a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSevgili o\u011flum, art\u0131k \u00e7ok ya\u015fland\u0131m. Bir pazar geldi\u011finde beni g\u00f6remezsen, sak\u0131n seni beklemekten vazge\u00e7ti\u011fimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme. Belki ben gidemem ama sana verdi\u011fim s\u00f6z orada kal\u0131r. E\u011fer bir g\u00fcn gelirsen, karde\u015fini bul. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc senin kaybetti\u011fin y\u0131llar\u0131 geri veremem ama yaln\u0131z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeni sa\u011flayabilirim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf uzun s\u00fcre konu\u015fmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cKarde\u015fim\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bu kelimeyi ilk kez s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Garipti.<\/p>\n<p>Ama yabanc\u0131 gelmedi.<\/p>\n<p>Sonraki pazar tekrar istasyona gittik.<\/p>\n<p>Bu kez yan\u0131mda Yusuf vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Annemin her zaman oturdu\u011fu banka k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir metal plaka yapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>\u00dczerinde yaln\u0131zca bir c\u00fcmle yaz\u0131yordu:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBaz\u0131 insanlar gelmese bile verilen s\u00f6zler burada beklemeye devam eder.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Saat 10.15 oldu\u011funda tren geldi.<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Bir an raylara, sonra bana bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnnem beni g\u00f6remedi.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedim. \u201cAma seni eve getirdi.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Yusuf g\u00f6zlerini kapat\u0131p ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra ilk kez g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n<p>O g\u00fcn istasyondan birlikte ayr\u0131ld\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Otuz y\u0131l boyunca annem her pazar oraya yaln\u0131z gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Ama onun son yolculu\u011fundan sonra, o perondan ilk kez iki karde\u015f yan yana y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Ve sonunda \u015funu anlad\u0131m:<\/p>\n<p>Annem otuz y\u0131l boyunca yaln\u0131zca o\u011flunu beklememi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Bir g\u00fcn ger\u00e7e\u011fin b\u00fct\u00fcn yalanlardan daha uzun ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131na inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 kavu\u015fmalar zaman\u0131nda ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmez.<\/p>\n<p>Ama ger\u00e7ek sevgi, insanlar\u0131 ge\u00e7 de olsa birbirlerinin yoluna yeniden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Annem o trenden inecek ki\u015fiyi g\u00f6remedi.<\/p>\n<p>Ama b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir bilet, bir kutu dolusu mektup ve tutulmu\u015f bir s\u00f6z sayesinde, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra bile ailesini yeniden bir araya getirmeyi ba\u015fard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ve o g\u00fcnden sonra ne zaman bir tren sesi duysam, annemin otuz y\u0131l boyunca neden ayn\u0131 bankta oturdu\u011funu hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n<p>O asl\u0131nda bir insan\u0131 de\u011fil, umudun eve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc bekliyordu.<\/p>\n"},"alt_text":"","media_type":"image","mime_type":"image\/jpeg","media_details":{"width":1024,"height":1024,"file":"2026\/09\/imgonli11-1.jpg","filesize":75538,"sizes":{"medium":{"file":"imgonli11-1-300x300.jpg","width":300,"height":300,"filesize":18183,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-300x300.jpg"},"thumbnail":{"file":"imgonli11-1-150x150.jpg","width":150,"height":150,"filesize":5728,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-150x150.jpg"},"medium_large":{"file":"imgonli11-1-768x768.jpg","width":768,"height":768,"filesize":85572,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-768x768.jpg"},"full":{"file":"imgonli11-1.jpg","width":1024,"height":1024,"mime_type":"image\/jpeg","source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1.jpg"}},"image_meta":{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0","keywords":[],"alt":""}},"post":852,"source_url":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1.jpg","filename":"imgonli11-1.jpg","filesize":75538,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/854","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/attachment"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=854"}],"wp:attached-to":[{"embeddable":true,"post_type":"post","id":852,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/852"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}