{"id":1306,"date":"2026-10-07T21:41:38","date_gmt":"2026-10-07T21:41:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=1306"},"modified":"2026-10-07T21:41:38","modified_gmt":"2026-10-07T21:41:38","slug":"evlendigim-gece-karim-bana-adet-oldugunu-soyledi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/evlendigim-gece-karim-bana-adet-oldugunu-soyledi\/","title":{"rendered":"Evlendi\u011fim gece kar\u0131m bana adet oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi."},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-1306 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/evlendigim-gece-karim-bana-adet-oldugunu-soyledi\/662323n\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/662323n-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1307\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1307'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o kad\u0131n\u0131n sol elini sana asla g\u00f6stermemesi gerekiyordu.\u201d\n\nNihat day\u0131m bu s\u00f6zleri s\u00f6yledikten sonra avucundaki eski anahtar\u0131 bana uzatt\u0131.\n\nTam nedenini soracakt\u0131m ki beni susturdu.\n\nSonra \u00e7iftlik evinin arka taraf\u0131ndaki, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumdan beri kilitli duran eski ta\u015f oday\u0131 i\u015faret etti.\n\n\u2014 Cevab\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten \u00f6\u011frenmek istiyorsan \u00f6nce o kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7man gerekiyor.\n\nAnahtar\u0131 elime b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n titredi\u011fini fark ettim.\n\nArd\u0131ndan kula\u011f\u0131ma e\u011filip \u00f6yle bir c\u00fcmle s\u00f6yledi ki o anda babam\u0131n odas\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm kad\u0131n\u0131n Ceyda olmamas\u0131n\u0131 dilemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 O y\u00fcz\u00fck annenindi.\n\nBir s\u00fcre nefes alamad\u0131m.\n\nDay\u0131m\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Ne dedin?\n\n\u2014 Sol elde g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fck\u2026 annenin y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcyd\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 Annem d\u00f6rt y\u0131l \u00f6nce \u00f6ld\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 Biliyorum.\n\n\u2014 O zaman bana ne anlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorsun?\n\nNihat day\u0131m cevap vermedi.\n\nSadece ta\u015f odaya bakmaya devam etti.\n\nSinirle kolundan tuttum.\n\n\u2014 Day\u0131, yeter art\u0131k! D\u00fcn gece babam\u0131n odas\u0131nda bir kad\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Kar\u0131ma benziyordu. Parma\u011f\u0131nda d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne benzeyen bir y\u00fcz\u00fck vard\u0131. \u015eimdi bana annemin y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fc oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsun. A\u00e7\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131k konu\u015f.\n\nDay\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.\n\n\u2014 O oda a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131nca anlayacaks\u0131n.\n\nBirlikte \u00e7iftlik evinin arkas\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck.\n\nTa\u015f oda \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum boyunca yasakl\u0131 bir yer olmu\u015ftu.\n\nBabam bana oran\u0131n eski tar\u0131m aletleriyle dolu oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylerdi. Kap\u0131s\u0131na yakla\u015fmam\u0131 bile istemezdi.\n\nAnahtar\u0131 kilide soktum.\n\n\u0130lk denemede d\u00f6nmedi.\n\n\u0130kinci kez bast\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda pasl\u0131 mekanizma sert bir sesle a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 ittim.\n\n\u0130\u00e7eri a\u011f\u0131r bir rutubet kokusu yay\u0131ld\u0131.\n\nAma ortada ne saban vard\u0131 ne de eski motor par\u00e7alar\u0131.\n\nDuvar boyunca raflar uzan\u0131yordu.\n\nKutular.\n\nDosyalar.\n\nEski foto\u011fraf alb\u00fcmleri.\n\nBir k\u00f6\u015fede anneme ait oldu\u011funu hemen tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m ah\u015fap sand\u0131k duruyordu.\n\n\u00dczerinde ad\u0131 yaz\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131.\n\n\u201cMeral.\u201d\n\nDizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc.\n\nSand\u0131\u011f\u0131n kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\n\u0130\u00e7inde annemin \u015fallar\u0131, eski mektuplar\u0131 ve foto\u011fraflar\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\nEn \u00fcstte k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bir kutu duruyordu.\n\nKutuyu a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\nBo\u015ftu.\n\nAma i\u00e7indeki kadife y\u00fczeyde bir y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn y\u0131llarca durmu\u015f oldu\u011fu belliydi.\n\nNihat day\u0131 arkamda konu\u015ftu.\n\n\u2014 Ablam \u00f6lmeden iki ay \u00f6nce o y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bana verdi. \u201cBir g\u00fcn Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n bilmesi gerekirse ona g\u00f6ster,\u201d dedi.\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7evirdim.\n\n\u2014 Neyin bilmesi gerekirse?\n\nDay\u0131m raftan bir dosya ald\u0131.\n\nDosyan\u0131n i\u00e7inden eski bir foto\u011fraf \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.\n\nFoto\u011fraf yakla\u015f\u0131k otuz y\u0131l \u00f6ncesine aitti.\n\nBabam gen\u00e7ti.\n\nYan\u0131nda annem vard\u0131.\n\nAma yanlar\u0131nda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bir kad\u0131n daha duruyordu.\n\nFoto\u011fraf\u0131 elime ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m anda bo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.\n\nKad\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc Ceyda\u2019ya inan\u0131lmaz derecede benziyordu.\n\nAyn\u0131 g\u00f6zler.\n\nAyn\u0131 \u00e7ene.\n\nAyn\u0131 sa\u00e7 yap\u0131s\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Bu kim?\n\n\u2014 Ad\u0131 Sevil.\n\n\u2014 Kim Sevil?\n\nDay\u0131m uzun s\u00fcre sustu.\n\nSonra:\n\n\u2014 Ceyda\u2019n\u0131n annesi.\n\nElimdeki foto\u011fraf titredi.\n\n\u2014 Ceyda\u2019n\u0131n annesini hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedim. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledi.\n\n\u2014 \u00d6lmedi.\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Ne?\n\n\u2014 Ya\u015f\u0131yor.\n\nO an ta\u015f odan\u0131n i\u00e7i daralm\u0131\u015f gibi hissettim.\n\n\u2014 D\u00fcn gece babam\u0131n odas\u0131ndaki kad\u0131n\u2026\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/evlendigim-gece-karim-bana-adet-oldugunu-soyledi\/ince-1\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ince-1-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1308\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1308'>\n\t\t\t\tNihat day\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n\u2014 B\u00fcy\u00fck ihtimalle Sevil\u2019di.\n\nBir ad\u0131m geriledim.\n\nHer \u015fey bir anda yerli yerine oturuyor ama ayn\u0131 anda daha da karma\u015f\u0131kla\u015f\u0131yordu.\n\nSa\u00e7lar\u0131.\n\nBoyu.\n\nSilueti.\n\nCeyda\u2019ya benzemesi.\n\n\u2014 Peki neden d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn gecemde babam\u0131n odas\u0131ndayd\u0131?\n\nDay\u0131m g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n\u2014 \u0130\u015fte bilmedi\u011fim k\u0131s\u0131m bu.\n\nElimdeki foto\u011fraf\u0131n arkas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdim.\n\nT\u00fckenmez kalemle bir tarih yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nAlt\u0131nda da annemin el yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir c\u00fcmle vard\u0131:\n\n\u201c\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn de hayat\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirecek ger\u00e7e\u011fi bir g\u00fcn \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6\u011frenecek.\u201d\n\nKalbim yeniden h\u0131zland\u0131.\n\n\u2014 \u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z m\u0131?\n\nNihat day\u0131m cevap veremeden arkam\u0131zdan bir ses geldi.\n\n\u2014 O dosyay\u0131 yerine koy.\n\nBabamd\u0131.\n\nKap\u0131da duruyordu.\n\nY\u00fcz\u00fc hayat\u0131mda hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim kadar sertti.\n\nAma sertli\u011fin alt\u0131nda korku vard\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Baba, bu kad\u0131n kim?\n\nFoto\u011fraf\u0131 havaya kald\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\nBabam g\u00f6zlerini kapad\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Bu konu\u015fmay\u0131 bug\u00fcn yapmak istemezdim.\n\n\u2014 Ben de d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn gecemde senin odanda kar\u0131ma benzeyen bir kad\u0131n g\u00f6rmek istemezdim.\n\nBabam\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bir anda de\u011fi\u015fti.\n\n\u2014 Ceyda\u2019y\u0131 m\u0131 sand\u0131n?\n\n\u2014 Ba\u015fka ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnebilirdim?\n\nBabam a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r i\u00e7eri girdi.\n\n\u2014 O kad\u0131n Sevil\u2019di.\n\n\u2014 Neden odandayd\u0131?\n\n\u2014 Bana veda etmeye gelmi\u015fti.\n\nAc\u0131 ac\u0131 g\u00fcld\u00fcm.\n\n\u2014 \u0130nsanlar gece yar\u0131s\u0131 birbirlerine b\u00f6yle mi veda ediyor?\n\nBabam yumruklar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131kt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Duydu\u011fun her \u015feyi yanl\u0131\u015f yorumlad\u0131n.\n\n\u2014 O zaman do\u011frusunu anlat.\n\nBabam ta\u015f duvara yasland\u0131.\n\nSanki otuz y\u0131ld\u0131r s\u0131rt\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fck bir anda a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Sevil gen\u00e7li\u011fimde sevdi\u011fim kad\u0131nd\u0131.\n\nBo\u011faz\u0131m kurudu.\n\nBabam devam etti.\n\n\u2014 Annenle evlenmeden \u00f6nce.\n\nNihat day\u0131 araya girdi.\n\n\u2014 Sadece \u201csevdi\u011fim kad\u0131nd\u0131\u201d diyerek anlatamazs\u0131n, Ahmet.\n\nBabam ona sert\u00e7e bakt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Kar\u0131\u015fma.\n\n\u2014 Otuz y\u0131ld\u0131r kar\u0131\u015fmad\u0131k. Sonu\u00e7 ortada.\n\nBabam yeniden bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 Sevil\u2019le evlenmek istiyordum. Ama ailelerimiz aras\u0131nda eski bir kavga vard\u0131. Dedem buna izin vermedi. Beni annenle evlendirdiler.\n\n\u2014 Annemi sevmiyor muydun?\n\nBabam\u0131n g\u00f6zleri doldu.\n\n\u0130lk kez babam\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde ya\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\n\n\u2014 Sonradan \u00e7ok sevdim.\n\nBu cevap beni haz\u0131rl\u0131ks\u0131z yakalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Sevil hamile oldu\u011funu benden saklad\u0131.\n\nNefesim kesildi.\n\n\u2014 Ceyda\u2026\n\nBabam hemen:\n\n\u2014 Hay\u0131r, dedi.\n\nY\u00fcz\u00fcmdeki deh\u015feti anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Hay\u0131r, o\u011flum. Sak\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn \u015feyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme. Ceyda benim k\u0131z\u0131m de\u011fil.\n\nDuvara yasland\u0131m.\n\nBir an i\u00e7in b\u00fct\u00fcn bedenim bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nBabam devam etti.\n\n\u2014 Sevil\u2019in o d\u00f6nemde do\u011furdu\u011fu bebek birka\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fckken \u00f6ld\u00fc. Sonra Konya\u2019dan ayr\u0131ld\u0131. Y\u0131llar sonra ba\u015fka biriyle evlendi. Ceyda o evlilikten do\u011fdu.\n\n\u2014 Peki annem b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 biliyor muydu?\n\n\u2014 Evet.\n\n\u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla ona bakt\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Nas\u0131l?\n\nBabam derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Sevil geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde ilk gitti\u011fi ki\u015fi annen oldu.\n\n\u2014 Ne zaman?\n\n\u2014 Sen on ya\u015f\u0131ndayken.\n\nZihnim ge\u00e7mi\u015fi tarad\u0131.\n\nO ya\u015flarda evimize gelip giden kad\u0131nlar\u0131 hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nHi\u00e7bir \u015fey bulamad\u0131m.\n\nBabam raftan ba\u015fka bir zarf ald\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Annen onu benden uzak tutmad\u0131. Tam tersine, konu\u015fmam\u0131z\u0131 istedi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ge\u00e7mi\u015fte kalm\u0131\u015f bir \u015feyin b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 zehirlemesini istemiyordu.\n\n\u2014 D\u00fcn gece neden geri geldi?\n\nBabam sustu.\n\nNihat day\u0131m cevap verdi.\n\n\u2014 \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Ceyda annesinin kim oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendi.\n\nDonup kald\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Ne zaman?\n\n\u2014 D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce.\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7evirdim.\n\n\u2014 Ceyda biliyor muydu?\n\n\u2014 Sevil\u2019in ge\u00e7mi\u015fte babanla ili\u015fkisi oldu\u011funu bilmiyordu, dedi day\u0131m. Sadece annesinin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendi.\n\nO s\u0131rada ta\u015f odan\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131nda bir g\u00f6lge belirdi.\n\nCeyda.\n\nY\u00fcz\u00fc bembeyazd\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Art\u0131k biliyorum, dedi.\n\nHepimiz sustuk.\n\nCeyda g\u00f6zleri dolu dolu i\u00e7eri girdi.\n\n\u2014 Sabah odada uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Bar\u0131\u015f yoktu. Sizi ararken konu\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 duydum.\n\nBana bakt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 D\u00fcn gece a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya ger\u00e7ekten su almaya indim.\n\n\u2014 Seni babam\u0131n odas\u0131na girerken g\u00f6rmedim yani?\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Hay\u0131r.\n\n\u2014 Peki adet meselesi?\n\nY\u00fcz\u00fcnde k\u0131rg\u0131n bir ifade olu\u015ftu.\n\n\u2014 Ger\u00e7ekti, Bar\u0131\u015f.\n\nUtand\u0131m.\n\nAma h\u00e2l\u00e2 akl\u0131ma tak\u0131lan \u015feyler vard\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Sevil neden senin sabahl\u0131\u011f\u0131na benzeyen bir \u015fey giyiyordu?\n\nCeyda g\u00f6zlerini babama \u00e7evirdi.\n\nBabam:\n\n\u2014 \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o sabahl\u0131k Sevil\u2019indi, dedi.\n\n\u2014 Ne?\n\n\u2014 D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden \u00f6nce \u00e7iftlikte kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0131sa s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde Ceyda\u2019n\u0131n odas\u0131na baz\u0131 e\u015fyalar b\u0131rakt\u0131. Ceyda fark\u0131nda olmadan onun sabahl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kendi e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na koymu\u015f.\n\nCeyda \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla:\n\n\u2014 Annemin burada kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmiyordum.\n\nBabam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fdi.\n\n\u2014 Seni uzaktan g\u00f6rmek istedi.\n\n\u2014 Neden kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131?\n\nTam o anda d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bir araba sesi geldi.\n\nBabam y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kap\u0131ya \u00e7evirdi.\n\n\u2014 \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc gitmesi gerekiyordu.\n\nKo\u015farak d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.\n\nAvlunun kap\u0131s\u0131na do\u011fru ilerleyen koyu renkli eski bir otomobil g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\n\n\u2014 Sevil!\n\nAraba durdu.\n\nArka kap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.\n\nFoto\u011fraftaki kad\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015f hali d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nVe o anda neden onu Ceyda sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131m.\n\nCeyda\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc neredeyse annesinin gen\u00e7li\u011finin kopyas\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nKad\u0131n birka\u00e7 metre \u00f6tede durdu.\n\nCeyda arkamdan geldi\u011finde Sevil\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fc da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131.\n\n\u2014 K\u0131z\u0131m\u2026\n\nCeyda cevap vermedi.\n\n\u2014 Beni neden b\u0131rakt\u0131n?\n\nSevil\u2019in dudaklar\u0131 titredi.\n\n\u2014 Seni b\u0131rakmad\u0131m. Seni korumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Neden \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6ylediler?\n\n\u2014 \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hayat\u0131m boyunca yanl\u0131\u015f kararlar verdim. Sana verebildi\u011fim tek do\u011fru \u015fey, benden daha iyi bir aileydi.\n\nCeyda a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nSevil ona yakla\u015fmad\u0131.\n\nSadece uzaktan bakt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Benden nefret etmek hakk\u0131n. Ama d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rmeden gitmeye dayanamad\u0131m.\n\nSonra bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u2014 D\u00fcn gece baban\u0131n odas\u0131na senden \u00f6z\u00fcr dilemek i\u00e7in gittim.\n\n\u2014 Benden mi?\n\n\u2014 Ge\u00e7mi\u015fimizin evlili\u011finizin ilk gecesini zehirleyece\u011fini biliyorduk. Ahmet bana gelmememi s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Ben yine de geldim.\n\nBabam avluya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nSevil sol elini kald\u0131rd\u0131.\n\nParma\u011f\u0131ndaki y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.\n\nAnnemin y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcyd\u00fc.\n\nOnu bana uzatt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Bunu annen verdi.\n\n\u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011fe bakt\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Neden?\n\n\u2014 \u00d6lmeden \u00f6nce beni yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u201cBir g\u00fcn ge\u00e7mi\u015f ortaya \u00e7\u0131karsa Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n babas\u0131na nefretle bakmas\u0131n\u0131 istemiyorum,\u201d dedi. \u201c\u0130nsanlar gen\u00e7ken hata yapar. \u00d6nemli olan o hatan\u0131n ard\u0131ndan kim olduklar\u0131d\u0131r.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zlerim doldu.\n\nBabam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi.\n\nSevil y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fc avucuma b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Annen benden \u00e7ok daha g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir kad\u0131nd\u0131.\n\nCeyda yava\u015f\u00e7a annesine yakla\u015ft\u0131.\n\nSar\u0131lmad\u0131.\n\nAffetti\u011fini s\u00f6ylemedi.\n\nSadece:\n\n\u2014 Gitme, dedi. En az\u0131ndan bu kez konu\u015fmadan gitme.\n\nSevil\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fcnde bir anda y\u0131llar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc.\n\nO sabah \u00e7iftlikte kimse kahvalt\u0131 yapmad\u0131.\n\nSaatlerce konu\u015ftuk.\n\nBaz\u0131 ger\u00e7ekler ac\u0131tt\u0131.\n\nBaz\u0131lar\u0131 utand\u0131rd\u0131.\n\nBaz\u0131lar\u0131 ise y\u0131llard\u0131r yanl\u0131\u015f bildi\u011fimiz insanlar\u0131 yeniden tan\u0131mam\u0131za neden oldu.\n\nEn \u00f6nemlisi, babam\u0131n odas\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm \u015feyin bir ihanet olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendim.\n\nBir vedayd\u0131.\n\nGe\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015f bir vedala\u015fma.\n\nAylar sonra Ceyda ile yeniden ayn\u0131 \u00e7iftlik evine gittik.\n\nBu kez d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn yoktu.\n\nMisafir yoktu.\n\nSadece biz vard\u0131k.\n\nAnnemin y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc ta\u015f odadaki k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kutusuna geri koydum.\n\nBabam yan\u0131ma geldi.\n\n\u2014 Bana k\u0131zg\u0131n m\u0131s\u0131n? diye sordu.\n\nUzun s\u00fcre d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.\n\n\u2014 Yalan s\u00f6yledi\u011fin i\u00e7in evet.\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.\n\n\u2014 Ama ge\u00e7mi\u015fin oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in de\u011fil.\n\nBabam bana bakt\u0131.\n\nBelki hayat\u0131m\u0131zda ilk kez birbirimizi ger\u00e7ekten anlad\u0131k.\n\nO gece Ceyda\u2019yla \u00e7iftli\u011fin bah\u00e7esinde uzun s\u00fcre oturduk.\n\nElimi tuttu.\n\n\u2014 D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn gecemizi korkun\u00e7 bir an\u0131 olarak hat\u0131rlayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum, dedi.\n\n\u2014 Ben de.\n\n\u2014 \u015eimdi ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorsun?\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 omzuna yaslad\u0131m.\n\n\u2014 Bazen bir evlilik ilk gece ba\u015flam\u0131yor.\n\nBana bakt\u0131.\n\n\u2014 Ne zaman ba\u015fl\u0131yor?\n\nElini biraz daha s\u0131k\u0131 tuttum.\n\n\u2014 \u0130ki insan birbirine ger\u00e7e\u011fi s\u00f6ylemeye karar verdi\u011finde.\n\nO gece \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim en \u00f6nemli \u015fey buydu.\n\nBir aileyi ayakta tutan \u015fey kusursuz bir ge\u00e7mi\u015f de\u011fildir.\n\nGer\u00e7e\u011fin ne kadar a\u011f\u0131r olursa olsun, sonunda masaya konabilmesidir.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc saklanan s\u0131rlar nesiller boyunca insanlar\u0131 birbirinden uzakla\u015ft\u0131rabilir.\n\nAma s\u00f6ylenen ger\u00e7ek\u2026\n\nBazen y\u0131llard\u0131r kilitli duran bir kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7ar.\n\nVe insan ancak o kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131ktan sonra ger\u00e7ekten evine d\u00f6nebilir.\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1307,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1306","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1306","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1306"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1306\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1309,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1306\/revisions\/1309"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1307"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1306"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1306"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1306"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}