{"id":1554,"date":"2026-10-12T22:50:59","date_gmt":"2026-10-12T22:50:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=1554"},"modified":"2026-10-12T22:50:59","modified_gmt":"2026-10-12T22:50:59","slug":"kiz-kardesim-firtinada-kaybolduktan-sonra-9-cocuguna-ben-baktim-12-yil-sonra-yegenimin-itirafiyla-kanim-dondu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kiz-kardesim-firtinada-kaybolduktan-sonra-9-cocuguna-ben-baktim-12-yil-sonra-yegenimin-itirafiyla-kanim-dondu\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u0131z Karde\u015fim F\u0131rt\u0131nada Kaybolduktan Sonra 9 \u00c7ocu\u011funa Ben Bakt\u0131m\u2026 12 Y\u0131l Sonra Ye\u011fenimin \u0130tiraf\u0131yla Kan\u0131m Dondu.."},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-1554 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kiz-kardesim-firtinada-kaybolduktan-sonra-9-cocuguna-ben-baktim-12-yil-sonra-yegenimin-itirafiyla-kanim-dondu\/hggft-6\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/hggft-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1555\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1555'>\n\t\t\t\tH\u0130KAYEN\u0130N DEVAMI:\n\nSonunda dayanamad\u0131m. Bir g\u00fcn okuldan d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde onu kap\u0131da durdurdum ve art\u0131k bana neler gizledi\u011fini anlatmas\u0131n\u0131 istedim.\n\nY\u00fcz\u00fc bir anda kire\u00e7 gibi bembeyaz oldu.\n\n&#8220;Sana ger\u00e7e\u011fi s\u00f6ylemeye haz\u0131r\u0131m,&#8221; dedi titreyen bir sesle.\n\nDizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. &#8220;Ne ger\u00e7e\u011fi Emre? Neyin ger\u00e7e\u011fi?&#8221; diye kekeledim.\n\nG\u00f6zleri ya\u015flarla dolarken bana do\u011fru bir ad\u0131m att\u0131 ve f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131:\n\n&#8220;O kaza g\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fanan ger\u00e7e\u011fi&#8230; Annemin \u015fu an nerede oldu\u011funu biliyorum.&#8221;\n\n\u201cSana ger\u00e7e\u011fi s\u00f6ylemeye haz\u0131r\u0131m,\u201d dedi titreyen bir sesle.\n\nDizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u201cNe ger\u00e7e\u011fi Emre? Neyin ger\u00e7e\u011fi?\u201d diye kekeledim.\n\nG\u00f6zleri ya\u015flarla dolarken bana do\u011fru bir ad\u0131m att\u0131 ve f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131:\n\n\u201cO kaza g\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fanan ger\u00e7e\u011fi&#8230; Annemin \u015fu an nerede oldu\u011funu biliyorum.\u201d\n\nBu s\u00f6zler beynimde yank\u0131lan\u0131rken nefes alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim. Holdeki duvara yaslanmak zorunda kald\u0131m, aksi takdirde yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131lacakt\u0131m. On iki y\u0131l&#8230; Tam on iki y\u0131l boyunca k\u0131z karde\u015fim Zeynep&#8217;in o f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 gecede u\u00e7uruma s\u00fcr\u00fcklendi\u011fini, bedeninin o karanl\u0131k sularda kayboldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek kahrolmu\u015ftum. Karde\u015fimin yoklu\u011funda sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma aklar d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, hayat\u0131m o dokuz \u00e7ocu\u011fa hem annelik hem babal\u0131k yapmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken ak\u0131p gitmi\u015fti. \u015eimdi kar\u015f\u0131mdaki on alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki ye\u011fenim, d\u00fcnyam\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ma y\u0131kan bir c\u00fcmle kuruyordu.\n\n\u201cNas\u0131l yani? Emre, sen ne dedi\u011finin fark\u0131nda m\u0131s\u0131n? Annen o kazada\u2026\u201d diyebildim sadece. Sesim, kendi kulaklar\u0131ma bile yabanc\u0131 gelen c\u0131l\u0131z bir f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131dan ibaretti.\n\nEmre omuzlar\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fmek \u00fczere olan okul \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f\u00e7a yere b\u0131rakt\u0131. Titreyen elleriyle montunun i\u00e7 cebine uzand\u0131. Y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f, kenarlar\u0131 sararm\u0131\u015f ve defalarca katlanmaktan iz yapm\u0131\u015f bir ka\u011f\u0131t par\u00e7as\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. \u201cO kazada \u00f6lmedi teyze,\u201d dedi yutkunarak. \u201cHi\u00e7 \u00f6lmedi. Bizi korumak i\u00e7in gitmek zorundayd\u0131.\u201d\n\nKa\u011f\u0131d\u0131 elinden al\u0131rken parmaklar\u0131m buz gibiydi. Bu bir mektuptu; Zeynep\u2019in o \u00e7ok iyi bildi\u011fim, her harfini \u00f6zenle k\u0131v\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 inci gibi el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Mektup y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesine, kaza g\u00fcn\u00fcne aitti.\n\n\u201cBunu nerede buldun?\u201d diye sordum. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m art\u0131k yanaklar\u0131mdan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyor, \u00e7eneme do\u011fru iniyordu.\n\n\u201cBulmad\u0131m,\u201d dedi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011ferek. \u201cHep bendeydi. O gece annem evden \u00e7\u0131kmadan hemen \u00f6nce odama geldi. Beni uzun uzun \u00f6pt\u00fc, bu zarf\u0131 en sevdi\u011fim bez ay\u0131m\u0131n astar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine saklad\u0131 ve \u2018Bunu sadece \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, her \u015feyi anlayabilecek ya\u015fa geldi\u011finde a\u00e7. O zamana kadar bu ikimizin s\u0131rr\u0131 olacak,\u2019 dedi. D\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m teyze. \u0130\u00e7inde ne yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 okuyam\u0131yordum bile ama annemin bana verdi\u011fi son emanet oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in onu herkesten saklad\u0131m. Bez ay\u0131mla yatt\u0131m kalkt\u0131m. Sonra b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm&#8230; Okumay\u0131 s\u00f6kt\u00fcm. Ve ger\u00e7e\u011fi \u00f6\u011frendim.\u201d\n\nMektubu aralay\u0131p okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda kan\u0131m dondu. Zeynep&#8217;in rahmetli e\u015fi, Emre&#8217;nin babas\u0131, d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan m\u00fckemmel bir aile babas\u0131 gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnse de asl\u0131nda karanl\u0131k bir d\u00fcnyaya bula\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7evredeki ac\u0131mas\u0131z tefecilere ak\u0131l almaz boyutlarda bor\u00e7lanm\u0131\u015f, senetler imzalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 onu aniden aram\u0131zdan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, bu adamlar Zeynep&#8217;in kap\u0131s\u0131na dayanm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Zeynep mektubunda, adamlar\u0131n \u00e7ocuklara zarar vereceklerini a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a s\u00f6ylediklerini yaz\u0131yordu. Zeynep o f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 gece, pe\u015findeki adamlar\u0131 atlatmak ve dikkatleri ba\u015fka y\u00f6ne \u00e7ekmek i\u00e7in o korkun\u00e7 kazay\u0131 kurgulamak zorunda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Arabay\u0131 u\u00e7uruma do\u011fru yuvarlamadan hemen \u00f6nce kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p atlam\u0131\u015f, izini kaybettirmi\u015fti. B\u00f6ylece adamlar onun \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnecek, pe\u015fini b\u0131rakacak ve en \u00f6nemlisi, benim kanatlar\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki o dokuz masum \u00e7ocu\u011fa asla dokunmayacaklard\u0131 go&#8217;rsele ilerleyn devam\u0131 sonraki sayfada&#8230;.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kiz-kardesim-firtinada-kaybolduktan-sonra-9-cocuguna-ben-baktim-12-yil-sonra-yegenimin-itirafiyla-kanim-dondu\/ghggf\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ghggf-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1556\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1556'>\n\t\t\t\tOkuduk\u00e7a g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme bir \u00f6k\u00fcz oturmu\u015f gibi hissettim. \u201cPeki \u015fimdi nerede oldu\u011funu nas\u0131l biliyorsun?\u201d diye sordum. \u0130\u00e7imdeki derin ac\u0131, yava\u015f yava\u015f tarifsiz bir \u00f6fkeye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu. Bize bunca y\u0131l bu cehennemi ya\u015fatmaya hakk\u0131 var m\u0131yd\u0131?\n\nEmre cebinden telefonunu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. \u201cGe\u00e7en ay sahte bir sosyal medya hesab\u0131ndan bana bir mesaj geldi. Sadece tek bir foto\u011fraf. Annemindi&#8230; Ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc ayn\u0131yd\u0131. Sonra mesaj atmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. O tefeciler y\u0131llar \u00f6nce b\u00fcy\u00fck bir operasyonda tutuklan\u0131p cezaevine girmi\u015fler. Art\u0131k tehlike kalmam\u0131\u015f. Ama bunca y\u0131l sonra sizin, bizim kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131kmaya y\u00fcz\u00fc olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in sadece bana ula\u015ft\u0131. Teyze, o Bal\u0131kesir&#8217;de k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir zeytin kasabas\u0131nda ya\u015f\u0131yor. Her g\u00fcn gizli gizli bizim foto\u011fraflar\u0131m\u0131za bakarak a\u011fl\u0131yormu\u015f.\u201d\n\nO an hissettiklerimi kelimelere d\u00f6kmem imkans\u0131zd\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir ihanete u\u011fram\u0131\u015fl\u0131k hissi, kaybolan y\u0131llar\u0131ma duydu\u011fum ac\u0131ma ve her \u015feye ra\u011fmen k\u0131z karde\u015fimi, can\u0131m\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yeniden g\u00f6recek olman\u0131n verdi\u011fi o \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nca umut&#8230; G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 elimin tersiyle sildim. Salonda televizyon izleyen di\u011fer \u00e7ocuklara \u00e7akt\u0131rmadan Emre&#8217;nin kolundan tuttum.\n\n\u201cKalk,\u201d dedim kararl\u0131 bir sesle. \u201cGidiyoruz.\u201d\n\n\u201cNereye?\u201d diye sordu \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla, g\u00f6zleri kocaman a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnnene,\u201d dedim. \u201cBunca y\u0131l sizin i\u00e7in sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fcp\u00fcrge ettim. Onun bana verece\u011fi \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir hesap, size verece\u011fi y\u0131llar\u0131n sevgisi var.\u201d\n\nO gece di\u011fer b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7ocuklara i\u015f i\u00e7in k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcreli\u011fine il d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmam gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yleyip Emre ile yola koyulduk. Sabaha kar\u015f\u0131 Bal\u0131kesir&#8217;in zeytin a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131yla \u00e7evrili o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u00f6y\u00fcne vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, hava yeni yeni ayd\u0131nlan\u0131yordu. Emre&#8217;nin tarif etti\u011fi adresteki beyaz badanal\u0131, mavi pencereli, bah\u00e7esi sardunyalarla dolu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck evin \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi\u011fimizde kalbim yerinden f\u0131rlayacak gibiydi.\n\nArabadan indik. Demir bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 iterek i\u00e7eri girerken kap\u0131 g\u0131c\u0131rdad\u0131. O s\u0131rada verandada, elinde eski bir demlikle \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri sulayan bir kad\u0131n bize do\u011fru d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131na yo\u011fun aklar d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, y\u00fcz\u00fc y\u0131llar\u0131n getirdi\u011fi a\u011f\u0131r bir yorgunlukla \u00e7izgilenmi\u015fti ama o g\u00f6zler&#8230; O mahzun g\u00f6zler benim biricik karde\u015fime aitti.\n\nZeynep bizi g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde elindeki demlik b\u00fcy\u00fck bir g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcyle yere d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, su ta\u015flara yay\u0131ld\u0131. Oldu\u011fu yere \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp elleriyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kapatt\u0131. \u201cAbla&#8230;\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 titreyen omuzlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan. Emre ko\u015farak verandaya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ve on iki y\u0131ll\u0131k hasretle annesinin boynuna sar\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130kisinin h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131 o serin Ege sabah\u0131na kar\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, y\u0131llar\u0131n biriktirdi\u011fi t\u00fcm ac\u0131lar, t\u00fcm s\u0131rlar d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyordu.\n\nYava\u015f\u00e7a yanlar\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131m. Ona hem \u00e7ok k\u0131zg\u0131nd\u0131m hem de deliler gibi \u00f6zlemi\u015ftim. Zeynep ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p kollar\u0131n\u0131 bana do\u011fru uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u201cAffet beni abla,\u201d diye h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rd\u0131, \u201cSizi uzaktan izlemek her g\u00fcn, her saniye \u00f6lmek gibiydi&#8230;\u201d\n\nDaha fazla dayanamad\u0131m ve dizlerimin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp ona s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131m. On iki y\u0131ll\u0131k o koca bo\u015fluk kapanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Evet, hayat\u0131m\u0131z bir daha asla eskisi gibi olmayacakt\u0131, bu devasa sars\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 atlatmak, di\u011fer \u00e7ocuklara ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlatmak \u00e7ok zaman alacakt\u0131. Ama en az\u0131ndan art\u0131k tamd\u0131k. Dokuz \u00e7ocu\u011fun annesi, benim biricik karde\u015fim art\u0131k evine d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1555,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1554","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1554","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1554"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1554\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1557,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1554\/revisions\/1557"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1555"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1554"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1554"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1554"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}