{"id":1712,"date":"2026-10-16T19:22:41","date_gmt":"2026-10-16T19:22:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=1712"},"modified":"2026-10-16T19:22:41","modified_gmt":"2026-10-16T19:22:41","slug":"kizim-bodrum-kati-icin-maasimin-yarisini-istedi-kendi-evimin-anahtari-her-seyi-degistirdi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kizim-bodrum-kati-icin-maasimin-yarisini-istedi-kendi-evimin-anahtari-her-seyi-degistirdi\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u0131z\u0131m Bodrum Kat\u0131 \u0130\u00e7in Maa\u015f\u0131m\u0131n Yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u0130stedi: Kendi Evimin Anahtar\u0131 Her \u015eeyi De\u011fi\u015ftirdi"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-1712 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kizim-bodrum-kati-icin-maasimin-yarisini-istedi-kendi-evimin-anahtari-her-seyi-degistirdi\/cvdsxc-4\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/cvdsxc-3-150x150.webp\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1713\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1713'>\n\t\t\t\tK\u0131z\u0131m, emekli maa\u015f\u0131mdan her ay 16.000 TL \u00f6demem ve haftan\u0131n d\u00f6rt g\u00fcn\u00fc torunlar\u0131ma bakarak &#8220;evdeki yerimi hak etmem&#8221; \u015fart\u0131yla bodrum katlar\u0131nda ya\u015famama izin verebilece\u011fini s\u00f6yledi. Ona kibarca te\u015fekk\u00fcr ettim. Sonra tah\u0131l silosunun yak\u0131n\u0131nda, ayl\u0131k sadece 11.000 TL&#8217;ye kiralanan iki odal\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ev buldum.\n\nHer \u015fey bir cumartesi \u00f6\u011fleden sonra, \u00f6\u011fle yeme\u011finin hemen ard\u0131ndan ya\u015fand\u0131.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m \u015eule&#8217;nin mutfak masas\u0131nda oturuyorduk. Damad\u0131m K\u0131van\u00e7, \u00fczerine bir \u015feyler yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 defter k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcme do\u011fru itti.\n\nK\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n tam ortas\u0131nda tek bir rakam vard\u0131.\n\n16.000 TL.\n\nEtraf\u0131na iki tane daire \u00e7izmi\u015fti.\n\n&#8220;Bu para odan\u0131n kiras\u0131n\u0131, faturalar\u0131 ve yiyecek masraflar\u0131n\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131layacak,&#8221; diye a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131 \u015eule.\n\n&#8220;Bir de haftan\u0131n d\u00f6rt g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ocuklara bakars\u0131n. B\u00f6ylece sen de eve katk\u0131da bulunmu\u015f olursun, anne.&#8221;\n\nEve katk\u0131da bulunmak.\n\nBen altm\u0131\u015f yedi ya\u015f\u0131nday\u0131m.\n\n\u015eule&#8217;yi, babas\u0131n\u0131n y\u0131llarca ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n tarlalar\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fctevaz\u0131 parayla b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcm.\n\n\u00d6n\u00fcm\u00fczdeki mart ay\u0131nda, e\u015fim Fuat&#8217;\u0131 kaybedeli tam iki y\u0131l olacak.\n\nO masada oturuyor olsayd\u0131, \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze konulan o k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t hakk\u0131nda ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnece\u011fini \u00e7ok iyi biliyordum.\n\nAma art\u0131k yan\u0131mda de\u011fildi.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7, y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakmak yerine masadaki tuzlu\u011fa g\u00f6zlerini dikmi\u015fti.\n\nAyl\u0131k emekli maa\u015f\u0131m 32.800 TL.\n\nYirmi iki y\u0131l boyunca il\u00e7edeki kereste fabrikas\u0131n\u0131n muhasebe i\u015flerini y\u00fcr\u00fctm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.\n\nHesap yapmak i\u00e7in elime kalem almama bile gerek yoktu.\n\nBenden ayl\u0131k gelirimin neredeyse yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 istiyorlard\u0131.\n\nKar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ise bodrum kat\u0131nda, bir pasta kal\u0131b\u0131ndan ancak biraz daha b\u00fcy\u00fck penceresi olan bir odada kalacakt\u0131m.\n\n\u00dcstelik k\u00f6\u015fesinde s\u00fcrekli u\u011fuldayan bir nem alma cihaz\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Odaya bir kez daha bakabilir miyim?&#8221; diye sordum.\n\nBirlikte on \u00fc\u00e7 basamak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indik.\n\nHavada \u0131slak kartonla deterjan kokusunun birbirine kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r bir koku vard\u0131.\n\nD\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131ndaki torunum Ada da bizimle a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indi.\n\n&#8220;Anneanne, sen a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki evin alt\u0131nda m\u0131 uyuyacaks\u0131n?&#8221; diye sordu.\n\n&#8220;Belki can\u0131m. Daha belli de\u011fil.&#8221;\n\nO teklifi orac\u0131kta reddetmek istiyordum.\n\nAma insan\u0131n tek k\u0131z\u0131na, onun kendi mutfa\u011f\u0131nda hay\u0131r demesi bazen b\u00fcy\u00fck bir tart\u0131\u015fmaya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015febiliyor.\n\n\u00dcstelik \u015eule benim tek \u00e7ocu\u011fumdu.\n\nBu y\u00fczden g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\n&#8220;Te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim k\u0131z\u0131m. Biraz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcneyim.&#8221;\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7&#8217;\u0131n haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 katlay\u0131p \u00e7antama koydum.\n\nKarar vermek i\u00e7in fazla zaman\u0131m yoktu.\n\nKas\u0131m ay\u0131n\u0131n birinden \u00f6nce \u00e7iftlik evinden ta\u015f\u0131nmam gerekiyordu.\n\nO ev, rahmetli e\u015fimin \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7iftlik taraf\u0131ndan bize tahsis edilmi\u015fti.\n\nFuat&#8217;\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra Karakaya ailesi b\u00fcy\u00fck bir anlay\u0131\u015f g\u00f6stererek yakla\u015f\u0131k iki y\u0131l daha orada kalmama izin vermi\u015fti.\n\nAncak o\u011fullar\u0131, e\u015fi ve yeni do\u011fan bebe\u011fiyle birlikte \u00e7iftlikte \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya geri d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu.\n\nEve ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\nOnlar\u0131 tamamen anl\u0131yordum.\n\nEve d\u00f6nerken d\u00f6rt sokak ilerideki yem ve tar\u0131m malzemeleri d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131na u\u011frad\u0131m.\n\nNejat Bey, \u00fc\u00e7 haftad\u0131r kasas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f bir ilan asm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n&#8220;K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ev kiral\u0131k. \u0130ki oda ve banyo. Bilgi i\u00e7in Nejat Bey&#8217;e ba\u015fvurun.&#8221;\n\nEvin h\u00e2l\u00e2 bo\u015f olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sordum.\n\nBeni evi g\u00f6rmeye g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.\n\nK\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck ev, tah\u0131l silosunun arkas\u0131ndaki sakin bir sokaktayd\u0131.\n\nD\u0131\u015f cephesi beyazd\u0131, verandas\u0131nda bir sal\u0131ncak vard\u0131 ve \u00f6n kap\u0131s\u0131na ula\u015fmak i\u00e7in yaln\u0131zca tek bir basamak \u00e7\u0131kmak gerekiyordu.\n\nHasat mevsimi devam etti\u011fi i\u00e7in neredeyse her yerin \u00fczerinde ince bir m\u0131s\u0131r tozu tabakas\u0131 birikmi\u015fti.\n\nNejat Bey ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ka\u015f\u0131d\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Pek g\u00f6steri\u015fli bir yer de\u011fil, S\u00fcheyla Han\u0131m.&#8221;\n\n\u00d6n kap\u0131ya bakt\u0131m.\n\n&#8220;Kendine ait bir kap\u0131s\u0131 var. Benim i\u00e7in bu yeterli.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Kiras\u0131 11.000 TL. Elektrik ayr\u0131ca \u00f6denecek.&#8221;\n\nArabam\u0131n yan\u0131nda durup telefonumdan depozitoyu banka hesab\u0131na g\u00f6nderdim.\n\nNejat Bey, metal bir halkaya ge\u00e7irilmi\u015f iki anahtar\u0131 bana uzatt\u0131.\n\nBiri \u00f6n kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131yordu.\n\nDi\u011feri arka kap\u0131y\u0131.\n\nHayat\u0131mda ilk kez, tamamen kendi iste\u011fimle se\u00e7ti\u011fim bir evin anahtarlar\u0131n\u0131 elimde tutuyordum.\n\n\u015eule&#8217;ye durumu anlatmak i\u00e7in dokuz g\u00fcn bekledim.\n\nBiliyorum, daha \u00f6nce s\u00f6ylemeliydim.\n\nAma duygular\u0131n\u0131 incitmekten korkuyordum.\n\nTesad\u00fcfen K\u0131van\u00e7, fabrikaya giderken k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck evin \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7mi\u015f ve arabam\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nO ak\u015fam \u015eule telefon etti.\n\n&#8220;Demek paran\u0131 hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir yabanc\u0131ya vermeyi, kendi ailene yard\u0131m etmeye tercih ediyorsun!&#8221;\n\nCevap vermeden \u00f6nce bir an d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.\n\n&#8220;Ben senin kirac\u0131n olmaktansa annen olarak kalmay\u0131 tercih ederim.&#8221;\n\nTelefonu y\u00fcz\u00fcme kapatt\u0131.\n\nSonraki on g\u00fcn boyunca onlardan hi\u00e7bir haber alamad\u0131m.\n\nNe bir mesaj.\n\nNe bir telefon.\n\nTorunlar\u0131m\u0131n tek bir foto\u011fraf\u0131 bile gelmedi.\n\nHer ak\u015fam verandamdaki sal\u0131nca\u011fa oturup tart\u0131lmak i\u00e7in s\u0131raya giren tah\u0131l kamyonlar\u0131n\u0131 izliyordum.\n\nKendime ait bir evim vard\u0131.\n\nKendi anahtarlar\u0131m.\n\nKendime ait bir \u00f6n kap\u0131m.\n\nAma torunlar\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6ylesine \u00f6zl\u00fcyordum ki baz\u0131 geceler ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n bu yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa de\u011fip de\u011fmedi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum.\n\nSonra bir per\u015fembe ak\u015fam\u0131, tam ak\u015fam yeme\u011finden \u00f6nce, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da bir kamyonetin durdu\u011funu duydum.\n\nAraban\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131 sert\u00e7e kapand\u0131.\n\n\u015eule yolcu koltu\u011fundan indi.\n\nG\u00f6zleri \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f ve k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olmu\u015ftu. Sanki saatlerdir a\u011fl\u0131yordu.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 da arkas\u0131ndan inip verandaya do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.\n\nElinde sar\u0131 sayfal\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck bir not defteri vard\u0131.\n\n\u0130lk sayfas\u0131, yukar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya kadar kendi el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla doldurulmu\u015ftu.\n\nOnlar kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7alamadan sinekli\u011fi a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 do\u011frudan g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bakt\u0131.\n\n&#8220;S\u00fcheyla Anne, o 16.000 TL rakam\u0131n\u0131 ben belirledim. \u015eule&#8217;nin hi\u00e7bir ilgisi yoktu.&#8221;\n\n\u0130\u00e7eri girdi, sar\u0131 defteri mutfak masam\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u0131rakt\u0131 ve bana do\u011fru \u00e7evirdi.\n\n&#8220;Burada mutlaka okuman gereken bir \u015fey var.&#8221;\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kizim-bodrum-kati-icin-maasimin-yarisini-istedi-kendi-evimin-anahtari-her-seyi-degistirdi\/ggff\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ggff-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1714\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1714'>\n\t\t\t\t&#8220;Burada mutlaka okuman gereken bir \u015fey var.&#8221;\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7&#8217;\u0131n sesi titriyordu.\n\nSar\u0131 defteri \u00f6n\u00fcme \u00e7ekti\u011fimde ilk dikkatimi \u00e7eken \u015fey, sayfan\u0131n en \u00fcst\u00fcne b\u00fcy\u00fck harflerle yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir c\u00fcmle oldu.\n\n&#8220;S\u00fcheyla Anne&#8217;ye s\u00f6yleyemediklerimiz.&#8221;\n\n\u015eule ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fmi\u015f, ellerini birbirine kenetlemi\u015fti.\n\n&#8220;Bu da ne demek?&#8221; diye sordum.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n&#8220;O g\u00fcn masaya koydu\u011fum 16.000 TL&#8217;lik k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorsun. Sana ger\u00e7e\u011fi s\u00f6ylemeden \u00f6nce neden b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlatmam gerekiyor.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Dinliyorum.&#8221;\n\nDefterin ilk sayfas\u0131nda uzun bir hesap tablosu vard\u0131.\n\nKredi taksitleri, elektrik faturalar\u0131, market bor\u00e7lar\u0131, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n okul masraflar\u0131&#8230;\n\nEn alt sat\u0131rda k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kalemle yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir rakam duruyordu.\n\n468.000 TL.\n\nG\u00f6zlerimi kald\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\n&#8220;Bu kadar borcunuz mu var?&#8221;\n\n\u015eule sessizce a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Alt\u0131 ay \u00f6nce \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m fabrikan\u0131n \u00fcretim b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclt\u00fcld\u00fc. Maa\u015f\u0131m neredeyse yar\u0131ya indi. \u015eule&#8217;nin i\u015f yerinde de personel azalt\u0131ld\u0131.&#8221;\n\n\u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla k\u0131z\u0131ma bakt\u0131m.\n\n&#8220;Sen i\u015ften mi \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131ld\u0131n?&#8221;\n\n&#8220;\u00dc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce anne.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Bana neden s\u00f6ylemedin?&#8221;\n\n&#8220;\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc zaten babam\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra yeterince \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum.&#8221;\n\nSandalyeye yava\u015f\u00e7a oturdum.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7 ayd\u0131r i\u015fsizdi ve benim bundan haberim yoktu.\n\nHer telefon g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmemizde i\u015flerin yolunda oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 defterin ikinci sayfas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Bor\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kapatmak i\u00e7in arabay\u0131 satmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck. Ama fabrikaya gidip gelmem gerekiyor. Sonra evin bodrumunu kiraya vermek akl\u0131ma geldi.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Ve kirac\u0131 olarak beni se\u00e7tin.&#8221;\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne e\u011fdi.\n\n&#8220;Evet.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;\u00dcstelik torunlar\u0131ma da haftan\u0131n d\u00f6rt g\u00fcn\u00fc bakmam\u0131 istedin.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015eule yeniden \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flarsa \u00e7ocuklara bakacak birine ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z olacakt\u0131.&#8221;\n\nBir s\u00fcre kimse konu\u015fmad\u0131.\n\nSonra defterde ba\u015fka bir \u015fey g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\n\nSayfan\u0131n sa\u011f k\u00f6\u015fesinde Fuat&#8217;\u0131n ad\u0131 yaz\u0131yordu.\n\nParma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 o sat\u0131r\u0131n \u00fczerine koydum.\n\n&#8220;E\u015fimin ad\u0131n\u0131n burada ne i\u015fi var?&#8221;\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 birden gerildi.\n\n\u015eule g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 silip bana yakla\u015ft\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Anne, as\u0131l konu\u015fmam\u0131z gereken konu bu.&#8221;\n\nKalbim h\u0131zland\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Ne olmu\u015f Fuat&#8217;a?&#8221;\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 sar\u0131 defterin aras\u0131ndan katlanm\u0131\u015f bir banka dekontu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.\n\nTarihine bakt\u0131m.\n\nE\u015fimin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden yaln\u0131zca on d\u00f6rt g\u00fcn \u00f6ncesine aitti.\n\nG\u00f6nderen k\u0131sm\u0131nda Fuat&#8217;\u0131n ad\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\nAl\u0131c\u0131 ise K\u0131van\u00e7&#8217;t\u0131.\n\nTutar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce nefesim kesildi.\n\n240.000 TL.\n\n&#8220;E\u015fim sana bu kadar para m\u0131 g\u00f6ndermi\u015f?&#8221;\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n&#8220;\u0130ki y\u0131l \u00f6nce fabrikada ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim bir i\u015f kazas\u0131ndan sonra aylarca \u00e7al\u0131\u015famad\u0131m. Banka kredilerim birikti. Fuat Baba durumumu \u00f6\u011frendi\u011finde bize yard\u0131m etti.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Bana neden s\u00f6ylemedi?&#8221;\n\n&#8220;\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u00f6ylememem i\u00e7in s\u00f6z verdirdi.&#8221;\n\nG\u00f6zlerim doldu.\n\nFuat&#8217;la otuz sekiz y\u0131l evli kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.\n\nB\u00fcy\u00fck bir birikimimiz yoktu ama birbirimizden \u00f6nemli bir \u015fey saklamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm.\n\n&#8220;Bu para nereden gelmi\u015f?&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Y\u0131llarca biriktirdi\u011fi paraym\u0131\u015f.&#8221;\n\nO an e\u015fimin \u00f6lmeden \u00f6nce bana s\u00f6yledi\u011fi bir c\u00fcmleyi hat\u0131rlad\u0131m.\n\n&#8220;\u0130nsan bazen ailesini ayakta tutmak i\u00e7in kendi hayallerinden vazge\u00e7er, S\u00fcheyla.&#8221;\n\nO zaman ne demek istedi\u011fini anlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u015eimdi ise bo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenmi\u015fti.\n\n&#8220;Demek sizin bor\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6demi\u015f.&#8221;\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 g\u00f6zlerini kald\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Evet. Ama hik\u00e2yenin devam\u0131 var.&#8221;\n\nDefterin son sayfas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\nOrada Fuat&#8217;\u0131n el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir not vard\u0131.\n\nKelimeleri tan\u0131mam i\u00e7in ikinci kez bakmama gerek yoktu.\n\n&#8220;Bu para bor\u00e7 de\u011fil. Ancak bir g\u00fcn S\u00fcheyla&#8217;n\u0131n yard\u0131ma ihtiyac\u0131 olursa kap\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 ona a\u00e7\u0131n. Onu asla y\u00fck gibi g\u00f6rmeyin.&#8221;\n\nMektubu okurken g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n \u00fczerine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\n\nFuat hayat\u0131n\u0131n son g\u00fcnlerinde bile benim gelece\u011fimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 konu\u015fmaya devam etti.\n\n&#8220;Fuat Baba&#8217;n\u0131n bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yerine getirmek yerine senden para istedim. Seni aileden biri gibi de\u011fil, bir gelir kayna\u011f\u0131 gibi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.&#8221;\n\n\u015eule elimi tuttu.\n\n&#8220;Ben de buna izin verdim anne.&#8221;\n\nElimi yava\u015f\u00e7a geri \u00e7ektim.\n\n&#8220;Sizden para istemedim. Bedava ya\u015famak da istemedim. Ama bana sundu\u011funuz \u015fey bir aile yuvas\u0131 de\u011fildi.&#8221;\n\n\u0130kisi de sustu.\n\n&#8220;O bodrumda kalsayd\u0131m yaln\u0131zca kira \u00f6deyen biri olmayacakt\u0131m. Sabah \u00e7ocuklara bakacak, ak\u015fam yemek haz\u0131rlayacak, hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda yard\u0131m edecek, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 yaparken de kendi evimde misafir gibi ya\u015fayacakt\u0131m.&#8221;\n\n\u015eule a\u011flayarak ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Hakl\u0131s\u0131n.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Benim en \u00e7ok can\u0131m\u0131 ac\u0131tan para de\u011fildi k\u0131z\u0131m. Bana ihtiyac\u0131n\u0131z oldu\u011funda beni hat\u0131rlaman\u0131zd\u0131.&#8221;\n\nTam o s\u0131rada \u015eule&#8217;nin telefonu \u00e7ald\u0131.\n\nEkrana bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn rengi de\u011fi\u015fti.\n\n&#8220;Okuldan ar\u0131yorlar.&#8221;\n\nTelefonu a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\nKar\u015f\u0131 taraftaki ki\u015finin s\u00f6ylediklerini dinlerken do\u011fruldu.\n\n&#8220;Nas\u0131l yani? Ada nerede?&#8221;\n\nKalbim yerinden \u00e7\u0131kacak gibi oldu.\n\n\u015eule&#8217;nin elleri titriyordu.\n\n&#8220;Bir dakika&#8230; Polisi arad\u0131n\u0131z m\u0131?&#8221;\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 aya\u011fa f\u0131rlad\u0131.\n\nTelefon kapand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u015eule neredeyse konu\u015fam\u0131yordu.\n\n&#8220;Ada&#8217;y\u0131 bulam\u0131yorlarm\u0131\u015f.&#8221;\n\nO sabah Ada&#8217;y\u0131 anaokuluna b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015flard\u0131.\n\nAk\u015fam yap\u0131lan veli toplant\u0131s\u0131 nedeniyle \u00e7ocuklar okulun oyun salonunda bekliyordu.\n\n\u00d6\u011fretmen k\u0131sa s\u00fcreli\u011fine di\u011fer \u00e7ocuklarla ilgilenirken Ada arka bah\u00e7eye \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nSonra ortadan kaybolmu\u015ftu.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 hemen arabas\u0131n\u0131n anahtar\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131.\n\nBen de montumu giydim.\n\n&#8220;Ben de geliyorum.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Anne, sen yorulursun.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;\u015eule, torunum kay\u0131p. Benim yorulmam\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme.&#8221;\n\nYolda kimse konu\u015fmad\u0131.\n\nOkula vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda iki polis memuru bah\u00e7ede inceleme yap\u0131yordu.\n\n\u00d6\u011fretmen, Ada&#8217;n\u0131n en son arka kap\u0131n\u0131n yak\u0131n\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc anlatt\u0131.\n\nKap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcndeki \u00e7amurda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ayakkab\u0131 izleri vard\u0131.\n\nBir polis memuru \u00e7evredeki sokaklar\u0131 kontrol ettiklerini s\u00f6yledi.\n\n\u015eule a\u011flayarak k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu.\n\nBen ise bah\u00e7enin k\u00f6\u015fesinde duran k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck pembe bir tokaya bak\u0131yordum.\n\nAda&#8217;n\u0131n sabah sa\u00e7\u0131na takt\u0131\u011f\u0131 tokayd\u0131.\n\nTokan\u0131n yan\u0131nda ince bir m\u0131s\u0131r kabu\u011fu vard\u0131.\n\nBirden akl\u0131ma bir \u015fey geldi.\n\nGe\u00e7en hafta Ada benim yeni evime geldi\u011finde verandada oturmu\u015f, tah\u0131l kamyonlar\u0131n\u0131 izlemi\u015fti.\n\nOna tah\u0131l silosunun nas\u0131l \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nK\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ellerini \u00e7\u0131rparak bana bir soru sormu\u015ftu.\n\n&#8220;Anneanne, kocaman kamyonlar senin evinin yan\u0131ndan m\u0131 ge\u00e7iyor?&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Evet can\u0131m.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;O zaman seni \u00f6zleyince kamyonlar\u0131 takip ederim.&#8221;\n\nO an bu s\u00f6zleri \u00e7ocuk\u00e7a bir \u015faka sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nAma \u015fimdi i\u00e7imde korkun\u00e7 bir \u015f\u00fcphe do\u011fmu\u015ftu.\n\n&#8220;K\u0131van\u00e7, Ada benim evime gitmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor olabilir!&#8221;\n\nHepimiz yeniden arabaya ko\u015ftuk.\n\nOkulla evim aras\u0131nda yakla\u015f\u0131k iki kilometre vard\u0131.\n\nYolun bir k\u0131sm\u0131 tarlalar\u0131n ve eski depolar\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7iyordu.\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 ana caddeye d\u00f6nerken ben kald\u0131r\u0131mdaki her \u00e7ocu\u011fa dikkatle bakt\u0131m.\n\nSonunda tah\u0131l silosunun yak\u0131n\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir pembe mont g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\n\nBir \u00e7itin yan\u0131nda hareketsiz duruyordu.\n\n&#8220;Dur!&#8221; diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\nAraba tamamen durmadan kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\nKo\u015farak \u00e7ite yakla\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nAda oradayd\u0131.\n\nAma yaln\u0131z de\u011fildi.\n\nYa\u015fl\u0131 bir kamyon \u015fof\u00f6r\u00fc onun yan\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6melmi\u015f, elindeki telefonla birini ar\u0131yordu.\n\nBeni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck han\u0131m\u0131 m\u0131 ar\u0131yorsunuz?&#8221;\n\nAda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Anneanne!&#8221;\n\nKollar\u0131ma at\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda dizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc.\n\nOnu \u00f6ylesine s\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131ld\u0131m ki bir daha b\u0131rakmak istemedim.\n\nKamyon \u015fof\u00f6r\u00fc, Ada&#8217;y\u0131 yol kenar\u0131nda a\u011flarken buldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi.\n\nK\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z, anneannesinin beyaz evini arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u015eule ko\u015farak yan\u0131m\u0131za geldi.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131na sar\u0131l\u0131p h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rarak a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nAda ise g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7inde beklenmedik bir \u015fey s\u00f6yledi.\n\n&#8220;Anneanne, annem senin bizi sevmedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi.&#8221;\n\nHepimiz donup kald\u0131k.\n\n\u015eule k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131.\n\n&#8220;Ben \u00f6yle demedim Ada.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Telefonda anneannem bizi istemiyor dedin.&#8221;\n\n\u015eule g\u00f6zlerini kapatt\u0131.\n\nO an k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n, benim ta\u015f\u0131nmam\u0131n ard\u0131ndan evde s\u00f6ylediklerinin k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun kalbinde nas\u0131l bir iz b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131m.\n\nAda&#8217;n\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131m.\n\n&#8220;Ben sizi her zaman sevece\u011fim. Sadece ba\u015fka bir evde oturuyorum.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Bir daha kaybolmayaca\u011f\u0131m anneanne.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Biliyorum can\u0131m.&#8221;\n\nO ak\u015fam hep birlikte k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck evime d\u00f6nd\u00fck.\n\nAda verandadaki sal\u0131ncakta uyuyakald\u0131.\n\n\u015eule yan\u0131ma oturdu.\n\n&#8220;Anne, seni kaybetmekten korktu\u011fum i\u00e7in k\u00f6t\u00fc davrand\u0131m. Ama bug\u00fcn k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 kaybetme korkusunu ya\u015fay\u0131nca yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m hatay\u0131 anlad\u0131m.&#8221;\n\nOmzuna dokundum.\n\n&#8220;Birini sevmek, onu yan\u0131nda tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak de\u011fildir k\u0131z\u0131m. Bazen kendi yolunda y\u00fcr\u00fcmesine izin vermektir.&#8221;\n\nK\u0131van\u00e7 ertesi hafta bor\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 yap\u0131land\u0131rmak i\u00e7in bankaya ba\u015fvurdu.\n\n\u015eule yeni bir i\u015f buldu.\n\nBen de torunlar\u0131ma ara s\u0131ra bakmaya devam ettim.\n\nAma art\u0131k bu bir zorunluluk de\u011fildi.\n\n\u0130stedi\u011fim zaman gidiyor, istedi\u011fim zaman kendi evime d\u00f6n\u00fcyordum.\n\nAylar sonra, bir pazar sabah\u0131 Ada verandamda otururken bana sordu:\n\n&#8220;Anneanne, bu ev neden bu kadar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck?&#8221;\n\nG\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\n&#8220;\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan\u0131n mutlu olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in kocaman bir eve ihtiyac\u0131 yok.&#8221;\n\n&#8220;Peki neye ihtiyac\u0131 var?&#8221;\n\nOnu kuca\u011f\u0131ma ald\u0131m.\n\n&#8220;Kendini de\u011ferli hissedebilece\u011fi bir yere.&#8221;\n\nAda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme yaslad\u0131.\n\nO an Fuat&#8217;\u0131n bana y\u0131llarca \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi \u015feyi nihayet tam anlam\u0131yla kavrad\u0131m.\n\nAile olmak ayn\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda ya\u015famak de\u011fildi.\n\nBirbirinin hayat\u0131na sayg\u0131 duymak, zor g\u00fcnlerde yan\u0131nda olmak ve sevgiyi hi\u00e7bir zaman bor\u00e7 hesab\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrmemekti.\n\nBen altm\u0131\u015f yedi ya\u015f\u0131mda ilk kez yaln\u0131z ya\u015famay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftim.\n\nAma art\u0131k yaln\u0131z de\u011fildim.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kendi kap\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7abildi\u011fim gibi, sevdiklerime de o kap\u0131y\u0131 g\u00f6n\u00fcl rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla a\u00e7abiliyordum.\n\nVe hayat\u0131m\u0131n en de\u011ferli anahtar\u0131, cebimde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m metal anahtar de\u011fil, sonunda yeniden kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmd\u00fc.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1713,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1712","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1712","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1712"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1712\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1715,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1712\/revisions\/1715"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1713"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1712"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1712"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1712"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}