{"id":1729,"date":"2026-10-16T19:28:24","date_gmt":"2026-10-16T19:28:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=1729"},"modified":"2026-10-16T19:28:24","modified_gmt":"2026-10-16T19:28:24","slug":"anneler-gununde-beni-dislayan-oglum-hesabi-bana-odetmek-istedi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/anneler-gununde-beni-dislayan-oglum-hesabi-bana-odetmek-istedi\/","title":{"rendered":"Anneler G\u00fcn\u00fc\u2019nde Beni D\u0131\u015flayan O\u011flum Hesab\u0131 Bana \u00d6detmek \u0130stedi"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-1729 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/anneler-gununde-beni-dislayan-oglum-hesabi-bana-odetmek-istedi\/hggft-9\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/hggft-3-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1730\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1730'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201cKamile Han\u0131m, kendilerine durumu a\u00e7\u0131klamam\u0131 ister misiniz?\u201d\n\n\u201cL\u00fctfen a\u00e7\u0131klay\u0131n.\u201d\n\nEngin, \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k i\u00e7inde bekleyen aileye d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cKar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zda duran han\u0131mefendi, yaln\u0131zca restoran\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n de\u011ferli bir m\u00fc\u015fterisi de\u011fil. Villa Floransa&#8217;n\u0131n ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fu Aksu Konaklama Grubu&#8217;nun kurucu orta\u011f\u0131 ve y\u00fczde altm\u0131\u015f iki hissesinin sahibidir. Ayr\u0131ca y\u00f6netim kurulu ba\u015fkan\u0131d\u0131r.\u201d\n\nHerkes sustu. Restoran\u0131n m\u00fczi\u011fi bile kesilmi\u015f gibiydi.\n\nGizem&#8217;in y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmseyici g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme silindi.\n\n\u201cBu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. \u201cKamile Han\u0131m emekli oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\n\u201cG\u00fcnl\u00fck i\u015flerden emekli oldum,\u201d dedim. \u201cSahibi oldu\u011fum \u015feylerden de\u011fil.\u201d\n\nCihan g\u00f6zlerini bana dikmi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cBana neden s\u00f6ylemedin?\u201d\n\n\u201cBana en son ne zaman hayat\u0131mla ilgili bir \u015fey sordun, o\u011flum?\u201d\n\n\u015eirket gelirinden \u00f6\u011frencilere burs veriyordum. Cihan bunu bile bilmiyordu. O\u011flumsa her ziyarete geldi\u011finde yaln\u0131zca evimin ne kadar de\u011ferlendi\u011fini ve bankadaki birikimimi soruyordu.\n\n\u201cBen senin rahat ya\u015faman i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken,\u201d dedim, \u201csen benim hayat\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmeye bile gerek duymad\u0131n.\u201d\n\nCevap vermedi. Rahmetli e\u015fimle kurdu\u011fumuz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck pansiyonun y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcy\u00fcp bir gruba d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc biliyordu. Fakat babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra her \u015feyi satt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sanm\u0131\u015f, do\u011frulu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenmek i\u00e7in bir kez bile u\u011fra\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nEngin, Ekin&#8217;e d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cYetki belgesinin asl\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcvenli dosyaya al\u0131n. \u0130\u015flem kay\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131 saklay\u0131n. Hesaba hi\u00e7bir \u00f6deme yans\u0131t\u0131lmayacak.\u201d\n\nTar\u0131k bankoya yumru\u011funu indirdi.\n\n\u201cBir dakika! Bizim davetimiz var. Bizi rezil etmeye hakk\u0131n\u0131z yok!\u201d\n\n\u201cDavetinizin bedelini kendi paran\u0131zla \u00f6deyebilirsiniz,\u201d dedim.\n\nNevin hemen yumu\u015fak bir ses tak\u0131nd\u0131.\n\n\u201cKamileci\u011fim, belli ki yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131lma olmu\u015f. \u00c7ocuklar aralar\u0131nda konu\u015fup halleder.\u201d\n\n\u201cOrtada yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131lma yok. Benim ad\u0131ma haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f sahte bir belge var.\u201d\n\nGizem \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 omzuna takt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBurada daha fazla a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lanmayaca\u011f\u0131m. Cihan, gidiyoruz.\u201d\n\nTam kap\u0131ya y\u00f6nelmi\u015flerdi ki Engin sessizce g\u00fcvenlik g\u00f6revlisine i\u015faret etti.\n\n\u201cKimseyi burada tutma yetkimiz yok,\u201d dedi, \u201cancak belgenin asl\u0131n\u0131 almaya ya da kay\u0131tlar\u0131 silmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan olursa m\u00fcdahale edece\u011fiz. Kamile Han\u0131m&#8217;\u0131n avukat\u0131na haber verildi.\u201d\n\nTar\u0131k&#8217;\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc ilk kez ger\u00e7ekten korkmu\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o s\u0131rada telefonum \u00e7ald\u0131. Arayan Vedat&#8217;t\u0131.\n\n\u201cKamile Han\u0131m,\u201d dedi, \u201cSe\u00e7kin Organizasyon&#8217;a giden son \u00f6demelerin arkas\u0131ndaki kullan\u0131c\u0131 kay\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131 bulduk. Rezervasyonlar\u0131 Cihan a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f. Belgeleri y\u00fckleyen hesap ise Gizem&#8217;e ait.\u201d\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/anneler-gununde-beni-dislayan-oglum-hesabi-bana-odetmek-istedi\/images-6\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/images-2-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1731\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1731'>\n\t\t\t\tG\u00f6zlerimi kapatt\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck de olsa duran \u015f\u00fcphe, yerini a\u011f\u0131r bir kesinli\u011fe b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunu herkesin \u00f6n\u00fcnde tekrar eder misin?\u201d diye sordum ve telefonu hoparl\u00f6re ald\u0131m.\n\nVedat bulgular\u0131n\u0131 tekrarlay\u0131nca Gizem&#8217;in eli \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n sap\u0131nda dondu.\n\n\u201cBen yaln\u0131zca dosyalar\u0131 y\u00fckledim!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u201cNe oldu\u011funu bana Tar\u0131k s\u00f6yledi!\u201d\n\nTar\u0131k k\u0131z\u0131na \u00f6fkeyle d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cSus! Bir kelime daha etme!\u201d\n\n\u0130\u015fte o an, aralar\u0131ndaki aile dayan\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131n ger\u00e7ekte ne kadar ince oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\n\nCihan bir ad\u0131m \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne, mesele g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc gibi de\u011fil. \u0130\u015fler k\u00f6t\u00fc gidiyordu. Tar\u0131k&#8217;\u0131n \u015firketi bor\u00e7 i\u00e7indeydi. Birka\u00e7 organizasyonla toparlayacakt\u0131k. Sonra paray\u0131 geri koyacakt\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cPeki, benim imzam\u0131 kim taklit etti?\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.\n\n\u201cEski sigorta belgesini ben buldum.\u201d\n\nKalbimde y\u0131llard\u0131r saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m son umut da o c\u00fcmleyle k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131.\n\n\u201cSen mi verdin Gizem&#8217;e?\u201d\n\n\u201cEvet.\u201d\n\nO\u011flumun su\u00e7unu \u00f6\u011frenmek ac\u0131yd\u0131. Fakat bunu kendi a\u011fz\u0131ndan duymak, insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc bir sessizlik yarat\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201c\u015eirketten \u00e7\u0131kan 2.984.000 TL yetmedi mi?\u201d diye sordum. \u201cBir de ki\u015fisel hesab\u0131mdan 1.520.000 TL mi \u00e7ekecektiniz?\u201d\n\nCihan dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n\u201cBu sonuncusuydu, anne. S\u00f6z veriyorum.\u201d\n\n\u201cPeki ya bu ak\u015fam benimle tesad\u00fcfen kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmasayd\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zlerini kald\u0131rmad\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u00d6demeyi yap\u0131p gidecektik.\u201d\n\n\u201cBen hesab\u0131mdaki eksilmeyi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce?\u201d\n\n\u201cBir muhasebe hatas\u0131 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyecektik.\u201d\n\nBu kadar haz\u0131rl\u0131kl\u0131 olu\u015flar\u0131 midemi buland\u0131rd\u0131. Anneler G\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7in bana be\u015f dakikal\u0131k bir telefon g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmesini \u00e7ok g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015flerdi. Ama ayn\u0131 g\u00fcn, param\u0131 kullanmak i\u00e7in ayr\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 bir hik\u00e2ye uydurmaya saatlerini harcam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Masalar\u0131nda bana bir sandalye yoktu; planlar\u0131nda ise ad\u0131m, imzam ve b\u00fct\u00fcn birikimim vard\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u0130lkinde de bana hi\u00e7 s\u00f6ylememeye s\u00f6z vermi\u015ftin, de\u011fil mi?\u201d\n\nTar\u0131k aniden araya girdi.\n\n\u201cCihan yeti\u015fkin bir adam! Belgeleri o getirdi. Ben nereden bileyim sahte olduklar\u0131n\u0131?\u201d\n\n\u201cAz \u00f6nce b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 benim iyili\u011fim i\u00e7in yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemiyor muydun?\u201d dedim.\n\nNevin kocas\u0131n\u0131n kolunu tuttu. Gizem g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Birka\u00e7 dakika \u00f6nce benim yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla e\u011flenen insanlar \u015fimdi birbirlerini su\u00e7luyordu.\n\nEngin bizi \u00f6zel bir g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fme odas\u0131na davet etti. Orada avukat\u0131m telefona ba\u011fland\u0131. Belgelerin ve g\u00fcvenlik kameras\u0131 kay\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131n korunmas\u0131n\u0131, resmi ba\u015fvurunun gecikmeden yap\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi.\n\nCihan sandalyeye \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.\n\n\u201cAnne, polislik mi edeceksin bana?\u201d\n\n\u201cBen sana y\u0131llard\u0131r annelik ettim,\u201d dedim. \u201c\u015eimdi yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n sorumlulu\u011funu \u00fcstlenmen gerekiyor.\u201d\n\nTam o s\u0131rada Gizem&#8217;in telefonuna pe\u015f pe\u015fe mesajlar geldi. Ekran\u0131 saklamak isterken Cihan mesaj\u0131n \u00fcst sat\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cBabam yazm\u0131\u015f,\u201d dedi k\u0131s\u0131k sesle. \u201cKamile&#8217;nin unutkanl\u0131k hik\u00e2yesini s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcn, yoksa b\u00fct\u00fcn plan \u00e7\u00f6ker, diyor.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\n\u201cDemek insanlar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde bunad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6ylemeniz de plan\u0131n par\u00e7as\u0131yd\u0131.\u201d\n\nGizem a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBize inanacaklar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck. Sen itiraz etsen bile kimse seni ciddiye almayacakt\u0131.\u201d\n\n\u201cKom\u015fular\u0131ma beni unuttu\u011fum \u015feylerle ilgili uyarman\u0131z da bu y\u00fczden miydi?\u201d\n\nGizem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. Birka\u00e7 hafta \u00f6nce kap\u0131c\u0131ya, evi a\u00e7\u0131k unuttu\u011fumu s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Oysa anahtar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7antamda bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde beklemi\u015ftim. Nevin&#8217;in benim hakk\u0131mda endi\u015feli konu\u015ftu\u011funu duydu\u011fumda iyi niyet sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Me\u011fer insanlar\u0131n zihnine k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u015f\u00fcpheler ekiyorlarm\u0131\u015f.\n\n\u201cBeni unutturmak de\u011fil,\u201d dedim, \u201cben konu\u015ftu\u011fumda kimsenin inanmamas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flamak istiyordunuz.\u201d\n\nBu itiraf, \u00e7al\u0131nmak istenen paradan daha a\u011f\u0131r geldi. Beni yaln\u0131zca paras\u0131z de\u011fil, kendi s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc savunamayacak biri haline getirmeyi de g\u00f6ze alm\u0131\u015flard\u0131.\n\n\u201cEkin,\u201d dedim kap\u0131da bekleyen gen\u00e7 kad\u0131na, \u201caz \u00f6nce imzam\u0131 do\u011frulamadan \u00f6deme yapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z i\u00e7in te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim.\u201d\n\n\u201cG\u00f6revimi yapt\u0131m, Kamile Han\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cBazen insan\u0131n g\u00f6revini d\u00fczg\u00fcn yapmas\u0131, ba\u015fka birinin b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131n\u0131 korur.\u201d\n\nO gece eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde e\u015fimin foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde uzun s\u00fcre oturdum. Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce Cihan&#8217;\u0131n okula ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn elimi nas\u0131l s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 tuttu\u011funu hat\u0131rlad\u0131m. \u00c7ocu\u011fumun o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck eliyle bu ak\u015fam uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sahte belge aras\u0131nda koca bir \u00f6m\u00fcr vard\u0131.\n\nSabaha kar\u015f\u0131 Cihan&#8217;dan mesaj geldi.\n\n\u201cAnne, l\u00fctfen \u015fik\u00e2yet\u00e7i olma. Her \u015feyi d\u00fczeltece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nCevap olarak yaln\u0131zca \u015funu yazd\u0131m:\n\n\u201cD\u00fczeltmek istiyorsan \u00f6nce ger\u00e7e\u011fi eksiksiz anlat.\u201d\n\nErtesi sabah avukat\u0131m\u0131n b\u00fcrosuna tek ba\u015f\u0131na geldi. Gizem&#8217;in ve Tar\u0131k&#8217;\u0131n kendisine bask\u0131 yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi ama su\u00e7u onlar\u0131n \u00fczerine y\u0131kmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmad\u0131. Eski imza \u00f6rne\u011fini kendisinin payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onay formlar\u0131n\u0131 bilerek kulland\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 kabul eden yaz\u0131l\u0131 bir ifade verdi.\n\nDaha k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc, sahte faturalar\u0131n bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn ger\u00e7ek bir hizmet kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyormu\u015f.\n\n\u201cBunu neden yapt\u0131n?\u201d diye sordum.\n\n\u201cGizem&#8217;in ailesine kendimi kabul ettirmek istedim. Onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcnmekten korktum.\u201d\n\n\u201cBeni k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclterek kendini b\u00fcy\u00fctebilece\u011fini mi sand\u0131n?\u201d\n\nSessizce a\u011flad\u0131.\n\nHakk\u0131nda yap\u0131lan resmi ba\u015fvuruyu geri \u00e7ekmedim. \u015eirket kay\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131 inceleyen uzmanlar\u0131n haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 rapor, toplam zarar\u0131 do\u011frulad\u0131. \u0130nceleme aylar s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Se\u00e7kin Organizasyon&#8217;un hesaplar\u0131na ve baz\u0131 mal varl\u0131klar\u0131na ili\u015fkin hukuki tedbirler istendi; alaca\u011f\u0131n \u00f6nemli bir k\u0131sm\u0131 zaman i\u00e7inde geri al\u0131nd\u0131. Kalan tutar i\u00e7in dava devam etti.\n\n\u0130lk duru\u015fma g\u00fcn\u00fcnde Cihan&#8217;\u0131 adliye koridorunda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u00c7ocukken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp dizini yaralad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda nas\u0131l g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bakarsa yine \u00f6yle bakt\u0131. Fakat bu kez onu kuca\u011f\u0131ma al\u0131p ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7iremezdim. \u0130\u00e7eri girerken avukat\u0131m koluma girdi. Cihan&#8217;\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7tim ve durmadan y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm. O karar\u0131n ne kadar zor oldu\u011funu kimse bilmedi. Bir anne bazen evlad\u0131na d\u00f6nmemek i\u00e7in de\u011fil, do\u011fru yerde durabilmek i\u00e7in y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye devam ederdi.\n\nRestoranda yap\u0131lmak istenen 1.520.000 TL&#8217;lik i\u015flemse hi\u00e7 ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmedi. Ekin&#8217;in uygulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yeni kontrol sistemi sayesinde tek kuru\u015fum bile \u00e7ekilmemi\u015fti.\n\nBu s\u00fcre\u00e7te y\u00f6netim kurulunda eski onay sistemini tamamen kald\u0131rd\u0131k. Art\u0131k hi\u00e7bir \u00f6deme yaln\u0131zca y\u00fcklenmi\u015f bir imza g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcyle kabul edilmiyordu.\n\nTar\u0131k&#8217;la Nevin, b\u00fct\u00fcn su\u00e7u Cihan&#8217;a y\u00fcklemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Gizem de sonunda evi terk etti. Evliliklerinin bitip bitmeyece\u011fini bilmiyordum. Art\u0131k onlar\u0131n kararlar\u0131n\u0131 y\u00f6netmek benim g\u00f6revim de\u011fildi.\n\nCihan ise aylard\u0131r ilk kez bir i\u015f bulup d\u00fczenli \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Her ay, zarar\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131lanmas\u0131na katk\u0131 olarak belirli bir miktar \u00f6d\u00fcyordu. Bazen kap\u0131ma geliyor, konu\u015fmaya cesaret edemeden geri d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. Bir defas\u0131nda posta kutumda k\u0131sa bir not buldum: \u201c\u00d6z\u00fcr dilemek, borcumu \u00f6demiyor. Bunun fark\u0131nday\u0131m. Yine de her ay do\u011fru olan\u0131 yapaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d Notu saklad\u0131m, hemen aramad\u0131m. Kaybolan g\u00fcvenin d\u00f6nmesi zaman isterdi.\n\nBir sonraki Anneler G\u00fcn\u00fc&#8217;nde yine lacivert elbisemi giydim. E\u015fimin inci bro\u015funu takt\u0131m ve Villa Floransa&#8217;da bir masa ay\u0131rtt\u0131m.\n\nBu kez masan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bo\u015f bir sandalye vard\u0131. Fakat onu bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 bekledi\u011fim i\u00e7in de\u011fil, istersem tek ba\u015f\u0131ma da huzurla oturabilece\u011fimi hat\u0131rlamak i\u00e7in b\u0131rakt\u0131m.\n\nYeme\u011fin ortas\u0131nda Cihan geldi. Elinde g\u00f6steri\u015fli bir hediye de\u011fil, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir demet beyaz papatya vard\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne,\u201d dedi, \u201cbeni affetmeni istemeye hakk\u0131m olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorum. Sadece Anneler G\u00fcn\u00fc&#8217;n\u00fc kutlamak istedim.\u201d\n\n\u00c7i\u00e7ekleri ald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cYapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 unutmad\u0131m, Cihan.\u201d\n\n\u201cBiliyorum.\u201d\n\n\u201cBir g\u00fcn g\u00fcvenimi yeniden kazanabilir misin, onu da bilmiyorum.\u201d\n\n\u201cBeklerim,\u201d dedi. \u201cBu kez acele etmeyece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nKar\u015f\u0131mdaki sandalyeyi i\u015faret ettim.\n\n\u201c\u0130stersen bir kahve i\u00e7ebilirsin.\u201d\n\nCihan oturdu. \u0130kimiz de bir s\u00fcre konu\u015fmad\u0131k. Ama o sessizlik, ge\u00e7en y\u0131lki gibi a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lanman\u0131n de\u011fil, belki de uzun bir iyile\u015fmenin ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nAnnelik, evlad\u0131n\u0131n her yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtmek de\u011fildi. Bazen ona verebilece\u011fin en b\u00fcy\u00fck sevgi, yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n sonu\u00e7lar\u0131ndan ka\u00e7mas\u0131na izin vermemekti.\n\nO ak\u015fam restorandan \u00e7\u0131karken art\u0131k \u015funu biliyordum: Bir insan\u0131n yan\u0131nda kalabal\u0131klar olabilir ve yine de yapayaln\u0131z hissedebilir. Bazen de kendi ayaklar\u0131 \u00fczerinde durdu\u011funda, hayat\u0131na kimin ger\u00e7ekten ait oldu\u011funu ilk kez g\u00f6rebilir.\n\nBen o\u011flumu sevmeyi b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. 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