{"id":1751,"date":"2026-10-17T18:36:17","date_gmt":"2026-10-17T18:36:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=1751"},"modified":"2026-10-17T18:36:17","modified_gmt":"2026-10-17T18:36:17","slug":"kizimi-kapinin-onune-atti-babasinin-gecmisini-bilmiyordu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kizimi-kapinin-onune-atti-babasinin-gecmisini-bilmiyordu\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 Kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00d6n\u00fcne Att\u0131: Babas\u0131n\u0131n Ge\u00e7mi\u015fini Bilmiyordu"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-1751 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kizimi-kapinin-onune-atti-babasinin-gecmisini-bilmiyordu\/bff-8\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/bff-4-150x150.webp\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1752\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1752'>\n\t\t\t\tK\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcresiye d\u00f6v\u00fcp kanlar i\u00e7inde b\u0131rakt\u0131ktan sonra kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne atan kocas\u0131, alayc\u0131 bir sesle, \u201cSenin baban kim ki? Be\u015f para etmez bir adam!\u201d demi\u015fti. K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n kaburgalar\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde do\u011fruca bodruma indim ve y\u0131llard\u0131r saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m eski tahta sopay\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m. Damad\u0131m kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n s\u00fcr\u00fcnerek geri d\u00f6nece\u011fini san\u0131yordu. Ama kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda beni buldu. \u0130\u00e7eri girip kap\u0131n\u0131n kilidini \u00e7evirdi\u011fimde y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn rengi soldu. Sonra sakin bir sesle sordum: \u201cK\u0131z\u0131m sana hi\u00e7 anlatmad\u0131 m\u0131, bana neden on be\u015f y\u0131l boyunca \u2018\u0130nfazc\u0131\u2019 dediklerini?\u201d G\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda hayat\u0131n\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck hatas\u0131n\u0131 yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131&#8230;\n\nO gece, bardaktan bo\u015fan\u0131rcas\u0131na ya\u011fmur ya\u011farken k\u0131z\u0131m kap\u0131mda belirdi. Daha bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyemeden dizlerinin \u00fczerine \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc. B\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudu kontrols\u00fczce titriyordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fc mosmor olmu\u015f, ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 darbelerden tan\u0131nmaz hale gelmi\u015fti. Her nefesinde ac\u0131yla inliyordu. On be\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6nce ge\u00e7mi\u015fimi tamamen geride b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f, s\u0131radan bir oto tamircisi ve sessiz, ailesine ba\u011fl\u0131 bir baba olarak ya\u015famay\u0131 se\u00e7mi\u015ftim. Sabr\u0131n ve huzurlu bir hayat\u0131n sevdiklerimi korumaya yetece\u011fine kendimi inand\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ancak k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 o halde g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck bir yan\u0131lg\u0131 i\u00e7inde oldu\u011fumu anlad\u0131m.\n\nOnu kuca\u011f\u0131ma al\u0131p i\u00e7eri ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131m ve dikkatlice kanepeye yat\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130lk yard\u0131m \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 almak \u00fczereyken telefonundan bir sesli mesaj bildirimi geldi. Birka\u00e7 saniye sonra, zengin ve kendini herkesten \u00fcst\u00fcn g\u00f6ren damad\u0131m Taylan&#8217;\u0131n k\u00fcstah sesi sessiz odada yank\u0131land\u0131.\n\n\u201cArt\u0131k o senin sorunun, ihtiyar!\u201d diyerek alay etti. \u201cOna s\u00f6yle, sayg\u0131 g\u00f6stermeyi \u00f6\u011frendi\u011finde s\u00fcr\u00fcnerek geri gelebilir. Bir de sak\u0131n polisi aramaya kalkma! Sence kime inan\u0131rlar? Benim gibi sayg\u0131n bir \u015firket y\u00f6neticisine mi, yoksa b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc araba tamir ederek ge\u00e7irmi\u015f zavall\u0131 bir adama m\u0131? Haddini bil, Orhan!\u201d\n\nSes kayd\u0131 sona erdi.\n\nBa\u011f\u0131rmad\u0131m. Etraf\u0131 da\u011f\u0131tmad\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen \u00f6fkeye ra\u011fmen tek bir e\u015fya bile k\u0131rmad\u0131m. Bunun yerine kalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131m yava\u015flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Her nefeste biraz daha so\u011fukkanl\u0131, biraz daha kararl\u0131 hale geliyordum. On be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r oldu\u011fum gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m zarars\u0131z, sessiz ve her \u015feye boyun e\u011fen baba art\u0131k ortadan kaybolmu\u015ftu. Zihnimin en karanl\u0131k k\u00f6\u015felerine kilitledi\u011fim o eski adam, y\u0131llar sonra yeniden uyan\u0131yordu.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n yaralar\u0131n\u0131 dikkatlice temizleyip sard\u0131ktan sonra bodruma indim. Duvar\u0131n arkas\u0131nda ustal\u0131kla gizlenmi\u015f b\u00f6lmeyi a\u00e7t\u0131m. Orada, tam on be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r elimi bile s\u00fcrmedi\u011fim bir e\u015fya duruyordu. Di\u015fbudak a\u011fac\u0131ndan yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, \u00fczerinde eski darbelerin izlerini ta\u015f\u0131yan a\u011f\u0131r bir beyzbol sopas\u0131yd\u0131. Hayat\u0131m\u0131n en karanl\u0131k d\u00f6neminden kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir daha asla d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmeyece\u011fime yemin etti\u011fim adam\u0131n sessiz bir hat\u0131ras\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nBir saat sonra elimde o eski sopayla Taylan&#8217;\u0131n l\u00fcks villas\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131nda duruyordum.\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u00fcz\u00fcnde kendini be\u011fenmi\u015f bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme belirdi. Kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda korkudan titreyen, k\u0131z\u0131ndan uzak durmas\u0131 i\u00e7in kendisine yalvaracak ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam g\u00f6rmeyi bekledi\u011fi belliydi.\n\nAma beni g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc anda g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesi kayboldu.\n\nHi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7ip evin i\u00e7ine girdim. Ard\u0131ndan a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7elik kap\u0131y\u0131 kapat\u0131p s\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u00fc kilidini sakince \u00e7evirdim. Yava\u015f\u00e7a ona d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. G\u00f6zlerimde ne \u00f6fke ne de korku vard\u0131. Sadece y\u0131llard\u0131r unutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir ge\u00e7mi\u015fin so\u011fuk kararl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cCeyda sana hi\u00e7 anlatmad\u0131 m\u0131?\u201d diye sordum, sesimi hi\u00e7 y\u00fckseltmeden. \u201cBana neden on be\u015f y\u0131l boyunca \u2018\u0130nfazc\u0131\u2019 dediklerini?\u201d\n\nTaylan, hayat\u0131nda ilk kez paras\u0131yla, makam\u0131yla ya da tehditleriyle korkutamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir adam\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda duruyordu. G\u00f6zlerimdeki \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc sakinli\u011fe bakt\u0131k\u00e7a, o ana kadar hi\u00e7 bilmedi\u011fi bir ger\u00e7e\u011fi yava\u015f yava\u015f anlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131ma el kald\u0131rarak hayat\u0131n\u0131n en korkun\u00e7 hatas\u0131n\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kizimi-kapinin-onune-atti-babasinin-gecmisini-bilmiyordu\/gref\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/gref-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1753\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1753'>\n\t\t\t\tTaylan&#8217;\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 elimdeki eski sopayla y\u00fcz\u00fcm aras\u0131nda gidip geliyordu. Birka\u00e7 saniye \u00f6nce kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsedi\u011fi ya\u015fl\u0131 tamirciyi g\u00f6r\u00fcrken \u015fimdi bamba\u015fka birine bak\u0131yormu\u015f gibi duruyordu.\n\n\u201cSen&#8230; Sen ne demek istiyorsun?\u201d diye kekeledi.\n\n\u201cSana bir soru sordum, Taylan. Ceyda ge\u00e7mi\u015fimi hi\u00e7 anlatmad\u0131 m\u0131?\u201d\n\n\u201cBeni tehdit mi ediyorsun?\u201d\n\nElimdeki sopay\u0131 yava\u015f\u00e7a duvar\u0131n dibine b\u0131rakt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBuraya gelirken \u00f6fkeliydim. Elime bunu almam da hatayd\u0131. Ama sana dokunmayaca\u011f\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131na bir de benim y\u00fcz\u00fcmden a\u00e7\u0131lacak bir dava eklemeye niyetim yok.\u201d\n\nTaylan&#8217;\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmseyici bir ifade belirdi.\n\n\u201cDemek korktun.\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r. Sadece senin anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir \u015feyi y\u0131llar \u00f6nce \u00f6\u011frendim. Bir insan\u0131 korkutmak kolayd\u0131r. Yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n hesab\u0131n\u0131 vermesini sa\u011flamak ise sab\u0131r ister.\u201d\n\nCebimden telefonumu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBiraz \u00f6nce k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 tehdit etti\u011fin sesli mesaj\u0131 dinledim. Onu hastanelik ettikten sonra polisi aramamam\u0131z\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fsin. Bunun sonu\u00e7lar\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorsun.\u201d\n\nTaylan&#8217;\u0131n \u00e7enesi gerildi.\n\n\u201cCeyda beni sinirlendirdi. Kar\u0131 koca aras\u0131nda olur b\u00f6yle \u015feyler. Ayr\u0131ca o da bana ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.\u201d\n\n\u201cBa\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in kaburgalar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0131 k\u0131rd\u0131n?\u201d\n\n\u201cBen onun kaburgalar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rmad\u0131m!\u201d\n\n\u201cBunu doktorlar belirleyecek.\u201d\n\nBir an sustu. Ard\u0131ndan telefonunu eline ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cAvukat\u0131m\u0131 ar\u0131yorum. Evime zorla girdin, elimde sopayla beni tehdit ettin. Seni hapse att\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cBunu da anlatabilirsin. Ben burada oldu\u011fumu saklamayaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d\n\nGer\u00e7ekten de yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n yanl\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funu biliyordum. Kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kilitleyerek onunla y\u00fczle\u015fmem, y\u0131llard\u0131r uzak durmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6fkenin eseriydi. Ancak ge\u00e7mi\u015fte yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m hatalar\u0131 tekrar etmeyecektim.\n\n\u201cKap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131yorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cBundan sonras\u0131n\u0131 hukuk \u00e7\u00f6zecek.\u201d\n\nTam \u00e7\u0131kacakken arkamdan seslendi.\n\n\u201cSen kendini kim san\u0131yorsun?\u201d\n\nDurup ona d\u00f6nd\u00fcm.\n\n\u201cOn be\u015f y\u0131l emniyetin organize su\u00e7larla m\u00fccadele biriminde \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Mahkeme kararlar\u0131n\u0131 uygulamaktan, ka\u00e7ak\u00e7\u0131l\u0131k dosyalar\u0131ndaki delilleri ortaya \u00e7\u0131karmaktan sorumlu ekiplerde g\u00f6rev ald\u0131m. Pe\u015fine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz adamlar bana \u0130nfazc\u0131 derdi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ne kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olurlarsa olsunlar, dosyalar\u0131n\u0131 kapatt\u0131ramazlard\u0131.\u201d\n\nTaylan&#8217;\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ifade de\u011fi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cSen polis miydin?\u201d\n\n\u201cEskiden. Ama art\u0131k de\u011filim. Bunu \u00f6zellikle bilmeni istiyorum. Sana kar\u015f\u0131 hi\u00e7bir yetkim yok. Ben sadece k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n hakk\u0131n\u0131 arayan bir babay\u0131m.\u201d\n\nSopay\u0131 yerden al\u0131p d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.\n\nArabama bindi\u011fimde telefonum \u00e7ald\u0131. Arayan, Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n yan\u0131nda kalmas\u0131n\u0131 rica etti\u011fim kom\u015fumuz Zerrin Han\u0131m&#8217;d\u0131.\n\n\u201cOrhan Bey, ambulans geldi. Ceyda&#8217;y\u0131 hastaneye g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorlar. Ben de yan\u0131nday\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cTe\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim. Hemen geliyorum.\u201d\n\nHastaneye vard\u0131\u011f\u0131mda k\u0131z\u0131m acil serviste muayene ediliyordu. Doktor, g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleme sonu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 beklediklerini s\u00f6yledi.\n\nKoridorun so\u011fuk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 alt\u0131nda otururken y\u0131llard\u0131r akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131karmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler geri geldi.\n\nMesle\u011fimin son y\u0131llar\u0131nda pek \u00e7ok su\u00e7 dosyas\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. G\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc insanlar\u0131n parayla, korkuyla ve ba\u011flant\u0131larla ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131l susturdu\u011funa defalarca tan\u0131k olmu\u015ftum. Ancak bir soru\u015fturma s\u0131ras\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma arkada\u015f\u0131m a\u011f\u0131r yaralan\u0131nca hayat\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirmeye karar vermi\u015ftim.\n\nG\u00f6revimden ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, babamdan kalan tamirhaneyi yeniden a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nCeyda&#8217;n\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fcrken benim eski hayat\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde ya\u015famas\u0131n\u0131 istememi\u015ftim. Ona \u015fiddetten uzak durmay\u0131, d\u00fcr\u00fcst olmay\u0131 ve insanlara g\u00fcvenmeyi \u00f6\u011fretmi\u015ftim.\n\nFakat g\u00fcvenmekle tehlikeyi g\u00f6rmezden gelmek aras\u0131ndaki fark\u0131 anlatmay\u0131 unutmu\u015f olabilirdim.\n\nBir s\u00fcre sonra doktor yan\u0131ma geldi.\n\n\u201cK\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n iki kaburgas\u0131nda k\u0131r\u0131k var. Ayr\u0131ca v\u00fccudunda farkl\u0131 zamanlarda olu\u015fmu\u015f olabilecek morluklar g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz. Neyse ki \u015fu an hayati tehlikesi bulunmuyor. Bir s\u00fcre g\u00f6zlem alt\u0131nda tutaca\u011f\u0131z.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 e\u011fdim.\n\n\u201cDarp raporu d\u00fczenlenebilir mi?\u201d\n\n\u201cBulgular\u0131 t\u0131bbi olarak belgeliyoruz. Adli vaka bildirimi de yap\u0131l\u0131yor. K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ifadesi i\u00e7in gerekli s\u00fcre\u00e7 ba\u015flat\u0131lacak.\u201d\n\nDoktor uzakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ellerimin titredi\u011fini fark ettim.\n\nTaylan&#8217;a de\u011fil, kendime k\u0131z\u0131yordum.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6zlerindeki korkuyu neden daha \u00f6nce g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim?\n\nSabaha kar\u015f\u0131 Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n yan\u0131na girmeme izin verdiler.\n\nYata\u011f\u0131nda solgun g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Beni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBaba, \u00f6z\u00fcr dilerim.\u201d\n\nElini tuttum.\n\n\u201cNe i\u00e7in?\u201d\n\n\u201cSenin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dinlemedim. Taylan&#8217;la evlenirken bana acele etmememi s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftin.\u201d\n\n\u201cCeyda, evlenmek senin karar\u0131nd\u0131. Sana yap\u0131lanlar\u0131n sorumlusu da sen de\u011filsin.\u201d\n\nUzun s\u00fcre konu\u015famad\u0131.\n\nSonunda k\u0131s\u0131k bir sesle, \u201cBu ilk de\u011fildi,\u201d dedi.\n\n\u0130\u00e7imde bir \u015feylerin koptu\u011funu hissettim.\n\n\u201cNe zamand\u0131r?\u201d\n\n\u201cYakla\u015f\u0131k sekiz ayd\u0131r. \u00d6nce ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu. Sonra telefonumu kontrol etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Arkada\u015flar\u0131mla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmemi istemiyordu. Bir g\u00fcn beni itti. \u00d6z\u00fcr diledi, a\u011flad\u0131, de\u011fi\u015fece\u011fine s\u00f6z verdi.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar akt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBen de ona inand\u0131m.\u201d\n\nBir s\u00fcre sessiz kald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cPeki bu gece ne oldu?\u201d\n\nCeyda derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cBo\u015fanmak istedi\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim.\u201d\n\nBana bakarken g\u00f6zlerindeki korku yeniden belirdi.\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u0131ld\u0131rd\u0131, baba. Onu terk edersem kimsenin bana inanmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7evresinin kendisini tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, benimse hi\u00e7bir \u015feyim olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\nSonra beklemedi\u011fim bir \u015fey yapt\u0131.\n\nYast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan telefonunu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p bana uzatt\u0131.\n\n\u201cAma ben haz\u0131rl\u0131ks\u0131z de\u011fildim.\u201d\n\nTelefonun ekran\u0131nda tarihleriyle kaydedilmi\u015f foto\u011fraflar, mesajlar ve notlar vard\u0131.\n\n\u201cSon \u00fc\u00e7 ayd\u0131r ya\u015fananlar\u0131 kaydediyorum. Bana g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi tehditleri silmedim. Ge\u00e7en ay kolum morard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ektim. Bir de eski telefonum var. Baz\u0131 mesajlar\u0131n yedekleri onda.\u201d\n\n\u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBunlar\u0131 neden bana s\u00f6ylemedin?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni de hedef alaca\u011f\u0131ndan korktum.\u201d\n\nElimi s\u0131kt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBir de ba\u015fka bir \u015fey var.\u201d\n\nTelefonunda bir kad\u0131nla yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaz\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\nKad\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131 Serra&#8217;yd\u0131.\n\nSerra, Taylan&#8217;\u0131n y\u0131llar \u00f6nce ni\u015fanland\u0131\u011f\u0131 kad\u0131nd\u0131. Ceyda onun hakk\u0131nda yaln\u0131zca ni\u015fan\u0131 bozup ba\u015fka biriyle evlendi\u011fini biliyordu.\n\nAncak ger\u00e7ek \u00e7ok farkl\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nSerra, Taylan&#8217;\u0131n kontrolc\u00fc davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131na ve tehditlerine maruz kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131yordu. Ayr\u0131lmak istedi\u011finde Taylan&#8217;\u0131n ailesi araya girmi\u015f, mesele b\u00fcy\u00fcmesin diye bask\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nSerra o d\u00f6nemde \u015fik\u00e2yet\u00e7i olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cGe\u00e7en hafta onunla konu\u015ftum,\u201d dedi Ceyda. \u201cBa\u015fta inanmak istemedim. Sonra bana anlatt\u0131klar\u0131yla benim ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n neredeyse ayn\u0131 oldu\u011funu fark ettim.\u201d\n\n\u201cSerra yard\u0131m etmeye haz\u0131r m\u0131?\u201d\n\n\u201cEvet. Gerekirse bildiklerini anlataca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n telefonunu geri verdim.\n\n\u201cB\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 avukat\u0131na g\u00f6sterece\u011fiz. Hangi kay\u0131tlar\u0131n kullan\u0131labilece\u011fine o karar verecek.\u201d\n\nCeyda \u00fcrkek\u00e7e sordu:\n\n\u201cSen Taylan&#8217;a gittin mi?\u201d\n\n\u201cGittim.\u201d\n\n\u201cBaba, ona bir \u015fey yapmad\u0131n, de\u011fil mi?\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r. Ama kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kilitleyip elimde sopayla kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Bu yanl\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bunun sorumlulu\u011funu da alaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d\n\nDerin bir nefes verdi.\n\n\u201cBeni en \u00e7ok korkutan, sana da zarar vermesiydi.\u201d\n\nO an k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n yaln\u0131zca kendi hayat\u0131ndan de\u011fil, benim hayat\u0131mdan da endi\u015fe ederek sustu\u011funu anlad\u0131m.\n\nErtesi sabah polisler Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n ifadesini ald\u0131.\n\nHastane kay\u0131tlar\u0131, g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleme sonu\u00e7lar\u0131 ve yaralar\u0131n foto\u011fraflar\u0131 dosyaya eklendi. Ceyda, daha \u00f6nce saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 mesajlar\u0131 ve foto\u011fraflar\u0131 da teslim etti.\n\nTaylan&#8217;\u0131n o gece g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi sesli mesaj \u00f6zellikle \u00f6nemliydi.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 evden kovdu\u011funu ve geri d\u00f6nmesi i\u00e7in ona bask\u0131 yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kendi s\u00f6zleriyle anlat\u0131yordu.\n\nCeyda&#8217;n\u0131n avukat\u0131 olarak eski bir tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olan Meltem Han\u0131m&#8217;la g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck.\n\nMeltem, y\u0131llard\u0131r aile hukuku alan\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan deneyimli bir avukatt\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u00d6nceli\u011fimiz Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n g\u00fcvenli\u011fi,\u201d dedi. \u201cKoruma tedbirleri i\u00e7in ba\u015fvuraca\u011f\u0131z. Bo\u015fanma s\u00fcrecini de ba\u015flataca\u011f\u0131z. Ceza soru\u015fturmas\u0131 ayr\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fclecek.\u201d\n\nTaylan&#8217;\u0131n avukatlar\u0131 ise hemen harekete ge\u00e7mi\u015fti.\n\n\u0130lk iddialar\u0131, Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n merdivenden d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcyd\u00fc.\n\nAncak Taylan&#8217;\u0131n g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi mesajlar bu savunmayla \u00e7eli\u015fiyordu.\n\n\u00dcstelik ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 sitenin g\u00fcvenlik kameralar\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\nMeltem Han\u0131m, ilgili g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerin kaybolmadan korunmas\u0131 i\u00e7in gerekli ba\u015fvurular\u0131 yapt\u0131.\n\nG\u00fcnler sonra soru\u015fturma dosyas\u0131na giren kay\u0131tlar, o gece ya\u015fananlar\u0131n \u00f6nemli bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6sterdi.\n\nCeyda, evin \u00f6n\u00fcne sendeleyerek \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Taylan arkas\u0131ndan gelmi\u015f, \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 bah\u00e7eye f\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015f ve kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nG\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler evin i\u00e7inde ya\u015fananlar\u0131 g\u00f6stermiyordu ama Taylan&#8217;\u0131n anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi sakin bir ayr\u0131l\u0131k da ya\u015fanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nDaha \u00f6nemlisi, biti\u015fik villada ya\u015fayan emekli \u00f6\u011fretmen Ferit Bey tan\u0131k olarak ifade verdi.\n\nO gece tart\u0131\u015fma seslerini duydu\u011funu, ard\u0131ndan Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n yard\u0131m istedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi.\n\nFerit Bey daha \u00f6nce de benzer ba\u011fr\u0131\u015fmalar duydu\u011funu, ancak aile i\u00e7i bir tart\u0131\u015fmaya kar\u0131\u015fmaktan \u00e7ekindi\u011fini anlatt\u0131.\n\nBu s\u00f6zleri duydu\u011fumda i\u00e7im burkuldu.\n\nBazen insanlar\u0131n sessizli\u011fi, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn en b\u00fcy\u00fck yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 olabiliyordu.\n\nTaylan hakk\u0131nda uzakla\u015ft\u0131rma ve ileti\u015fim yasa\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7eren tedbir karar\u0131 verildi.\n\nFakat o, karar\u0131n her \u015feyi bitirmesine raz\u0131 olmad\u0131.\n\nBir hafta sonra tamirhaneme pahal\u0131 bir otomobil yana\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u0130\u00e7inden Taylan&#8217;\u0131n babas\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nTak\u0131m elbisesi, g\u00f6steri\u015fli saati ve kendinden emin tav\u0131rlar\u0131yla do\u011frudan odama girdi.\n\n\u201cOrhan Bey, bu meseleyi aile aras\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6zebiliriz,\u201d dedi.\n\nMasam\u0131n \u00fczerine kal\u0131n bir zarf b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cCeyda&#8217;n\u0131n gelece\u011fini g\u00fcvence alt\u0131na alacak kadar para var. \u015eik\u00e2yetini geri \u00e7ekmesi yeterli.\u201d\n\nZarfa bakmad\u0131m bile.\n\n\u201cParan\u0131z\u0131 al\u0131n.\u201d\n\n\u201cYanl\u0131\u015f anlamay\u0131n. Hepimiz zarar g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz.\u201d\n\n\u201cBenim k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n iki kaburgas\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131. Siz h\u00e2l\u00e2 ailenizin itibar\u0131ndan s\u00f6z ediyorsunuz.\u201d\n\nAdam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc sertle\u015fti.\n\n\u201cO\u011flumun kariyerini mahvetmeye hakk\u0131n\u0131z yok.\u201d\n\n\u201cBen kimsenin kariyerini mahvetmiyorum. O\u011flunuzun davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n sonu\u00e7lar\u0131yla y\u00fczle\u015fmesini istiyorum.\u201d\n\nZarf\u0131 kendisine uzatt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBir daha k\u0131z\u0131mla ileti\u015fim kurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmay\u0131n. S\u00f6yleyece\u011finiz bir \u015fey varsa avukat\u0131na iletin.\u201d\n\nAdam \u00e7\u0131karken kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdu.\n\n\u201cBu i\u015f burada bitmez.\u201d\n\n\u201cBiliyorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cMahkemede devam edecek.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmenin ard\u0131ndan Meltem Han\u0131m&#8217;\u0131 aray\u0131p ya\u015fananlar\u0131 anlatt\u0131m. Zarfla yap\u0131lan teklifi, konu\u015fman\u0131n tarihini ve saatini not ettik.\n\nAradan iki ay ge\u00e7ti.\n\nCeyda&#8217;n\u0131n fiziksel yaralar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde iyile\u015fmi\u015fti. Ancak geceleri h\u00e2l\u00e2 s\u0131\u00e7rayarak uyan\u0131yordu. Telefon \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda irkiliyor, kap\u0131 sesinden korkuyordu.\n\nBir uzmandan psikolojik destek almaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nBir ak\u015fam mutfakta otururken bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cBaba, art\u0131k burada saklanmak istemiyorum.\u201d\n\n\u015ea\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\n\u201cNe yapmak istiyorsun?\u201d\n\n\u201cKendime k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ev tutaca\u011f\u0131m. \u0130\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmesine girdim. Kabul edilirsem yeniden \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cBenim yan\u0131mda kalabilirsin.\u201d\n\n\u201cBiliyorum. Ama kendi hayat\u0131m\u0131 yeniden kurmam gerekiyor.\u201d\n\nOna bakt\u0131m.\n\nKar\u015f\u0131mda, hastane yata\u011f\u0131nda korkudan titreyen kad\u0131n yoktu art\u0131k.\n\nH\u00e2l\u00e2 yaral\u0131yd\u0131 ama kararlar\u0131n\u0131 kendisi verebiliyordu.\n\nG\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\n\u201c\u00d6yleyse ilk ta\u015f\u0131nma kutusunu ben ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d\n\nAylar sonra Taylan&#8217;\u0131n yarg\u0131land\u0131\u011f\u0131 duru\u015fma g\u00fcn\u00fc geldi.\n\nMahkeme salonunda onu yeniden g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde pahal\u0131 tak\u0131m elbisesini giymi\u015fti. Ancak eskisi kadar kendinden emin g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu.\n\nAvukat\u0131, olaylar\u0131n abart\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve evlilik i\u00e7indeki tart\u0131\u015fman\u0131n yanl\u0131\u015f yorumland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ileri s\u00fcrd\u00fc.\n\nArd\u0131ndan Ceyda ifade vermek \u00fczere \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131ld\u0131.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. Ellerinin titredi\u011fini g\u00f6rebiliyordum.\n\nH\u00e2kim ona konu\u015fabilece\u011fini s\u00f6yledi\u011finde \u00f6nce derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cBen uzun s\u00fcre bunun normal bir evlilik tart\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm,\u201d dedi. \u201cE\u015fimin \u00f6fkesini kendimden bildim. S\u00fcrekli daha dikkatli olursam her \u015feyin d\u00fczelece\u011fine inand\u0131m.\u201d\n\nBir an durdu.\n\n\u201cSonra ne yaparsam yapay\u0131m bunun de\u011fi\u015fmeyece\u011fini anlad\u0131m.\u201d\n\nTaylan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p ona bakt\u0131.\n\nCeyda g\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rmad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBen ayr\u0131lmak istedim. Bunun kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda cezaland\u0131r\u0131lmay\u0131 hak etmiyordum.\u201d\n\nSalonda derin bir sessizlik olu\u015ftu.\n\nSerra&#8217;n\u0131n tan\u0131k olarak anlatt\u0131klar\u0131 da dosyaya girdi. Onun deneyimi tek ba\u015f\u0131na Ceyda&#8217;ya yap\u0131lanlar\u0131 kan\u0131tlam\u0131yordu, ancak Taylan&#8217;\u0131n ili\u015fkilerinde sergiledi\u011fi davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n de\u011ferlendirilmesine katk\u0131 sa\u011flad\u0131.\n\nMahkeme esas olarak Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n ifadesini, t\u0131bbi bulgular\u0131, mesajlar\u0131, g\u00fcvenlik g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerini ve tan\u0131k anlat\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 de\u011ferlendirdi.\n\nBen de Taylan&#8217;\u0131n evine gitti\u011fimi saklamad\u0131m. Yan\u0131mda sopa bulundu\u011funu, i\u00e7eri girip kap\u0131y\u0131 kilitledi\u011fimi a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a anlatt\u0131m.\n\nMeltem Han\u0131m daha sonra bana, b\u00f6yle bir davran\u0131\u015f\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n davas\u0131n\u0131 da zorla\u015ft\u0131rabilecek ciddi bir hata oldu\u011funu tekrar hat\u0131rlatt\u0131.\n\nHakl\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nO gece Taylan&#8217;a zarar verseydim, belki de bug\u00fcn Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 yerine benim yapt\u0131klar\u0131m konu\u015fulacakt\u0131.\n\nYarg\u0131lama boyunca Taylan su\u00e7lamalar\u0131 reddetti.\n\nAncak deliller de\u011ferlendirildikten sonra mahkeme, Ceyda&#8217;ya y\u00f6nelik yaralama ve tehdit su\u00e7lar\u0131ndan mahk\u00fbmiyet karar\u0131 verdi.\n\nTaylan&#8217;\u0131n avukatlar\u0131 karara itiraz etti. Hukuki s\u00fcre\u00e7 bir s\u00fcre daha devam etti.\n\nBu s\u0131rada Ceyda&#8217;n\u0131n bo\u015fanma davas\u0131 da sonu\u00e7land\u0131.\n\nB\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar ya\u015fan\u0131rken Taylan&#8217;\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015firket, hakk\u0131ndaki yarg\u0131 s\u00fcreci nedeniyle y\u00f6neticilik g\u00f6revine son verdi.\n\nBir zamanlar kendisini dokunulmaz sanan adam, art\u0131k ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde kurdu\u011fu korkuyla hayat\u0131n\u0131 y\u00f6netemiyordu.\n\nKarar\u0131n kesinle\u015fti\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimiz g\u00fcn Ceyda&#8217;yla sahilde y\u00fcr\u00fcyorduk.\n\nTelefonu kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bana bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBitti mi, baba?\u201d\n\n\u201cEvet. Ceza davas\u0131ndaki karar kesinle\u015fti.\u201d\n\nBir s\u00fcre denizi izledi.\n\nSonra beklemedi\u011fim bir \u015fey s\u00f6yledi.\n\n\u201cBen kazand\u0131m diye sevinmiyorum.\u201d\n\n\u201cNeden?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ke\u015fke bunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7biri ya\u015fanmasayd\u0131. Ke\u015fke evlendi\u011fim adam ger\u00e7ekten tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m ki\u015fi olsayd\u0131.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m.\n\n\u201cB\u00f6yle hissetmen normal.\u201d\n\n\u201cAma art\u0131k korkmuyorum,\u201d diye ekledi. \u201cEn \u00f6nemlisi bu.\u201d\n\nO g\u00fcn eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde bodruma indim.\n\nEski beyzbol sopas\u0131, Taylan&#8217;\u0131n evinden getirdi\u011fim g\u00fcnden beri bir k\u00f6\u015fede duruyordu.\n\nOn be\u015f y\u0131l boyunca onu ge\u00e7mi\u015fimin bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olarak saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Sanki zor zamanlar geldi\u011finde ba\u015fvurabilece\u011fim son \u00e7areymi\u015f gibi.\n\nAma art\u0131k bunun do\u011fru olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordum.\n\nSopay\u0131 al\u0131p tamirhanenin arkas\u0131ndaki at\u0131k ah\u015faplar\u0131n aras\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131m.\n\nCeyda kap\u0131da belirdi.\n\n\u201cNe yap\u0131yorsun, baba?\u201d\n\n\u201cEski bir y\u00fckten kurtuluyorum.\u201d\n\nYan\u0131ma geldi.\n\n\u201cBana neden \u0130nfazc\u0131 dediklerini ger\u00e7ekten \u015fimdi anl\u0131yorum,\u201d dedi.\n\nG\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\n\u201cNedenmi\u015f?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc senin as\u0131l g\u00fcc\u00fcn insanlar\u0131 korkutmak de\u011filmi\u015f. Yapt\u0131klar\u0131 k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fcklerin \u00fczerini kapatmalar\u0131na izin vermemekmi\u015f.\u201d\n\nOna sar\u0131ld\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBen de bunu yeniden \u00f6\u011frenmek zorunda kald\u0131m.\u201d\n\nAlt\u0131 ay sonra Ceyda kendi evine ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, g\u00fcne\u015f alan, balkonunda sardunyalar bulunan bir daireydi. Yeni i\u015finde mutluydu. Yeniden arkada\u015flar\u0131yla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor, hafta sonlar\u0131 sevdi\u011fi yerlere gidiyordu.\n\nBazen h\u00e2l\u00e2 zor g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7iriyordu. Ama art\u0131k korktu\u011funda susmuyor, yard\u0131m istemekten \u00e7ekinmiyordu.\n\nBir pazar sabah\u0131 beni kahvalt\u0131ya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.\n\nMasada \u00e7ay, simit ve kendi haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 menemen vard\u0131.\n\nBana bir anahtar uzatt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBu ne?\u201d diye sordum.\n\n\u201cEvimin yedek anahtar\u0131. Sende kals\u0131n istiyorum.\u201d\n\nAnahtar\u0131 avucuma ald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBir g\u00fcn ihtiyac\u0131n olursa gelirim.\u201d\n\nCeyda g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.\n\n\u201cBiliyorum baba. Ama bu kez sana korktu\u011fum i\u00e7in de\u011fil, hayat\u0131mda olman\u0131 istedi\u011fim i\u00e7in anahtar veriyorum.\u201d\n\nO an g\u00f6zlerim doldu.\n\nY\u0131llarca k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 koruman\u0131n, kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kan b\u00fct\u00fcn tehlikeleri ortadan kald\u0131rmak oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.\n\nOysa bir baban\u0131n yapabilece\u011fi en de\u011ferli \u015fey, \u00e7ocu\u011funun kendisini g\u00fcvende hissederek kendi ayaklar\u0131 \u00fczerinde durmas\u0131na yard\u0131mc\u0131 olmakt\u0131.\n\nCeyda balkona \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p sardunyalar\u0131n\u0131 sularken arkas\u0131ndan bakt\u0131m.\n\nBir zamanlar kap\u0131mda \u00e7aresizce yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan k\u0131z\u0131m, \u015fimdi kendi evinin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcvenle a\u00e7\u0131p kapatabiliyordu.\n\nVe ben sonunda anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nGe\u00e7mi\u015fte bana verilen \u0130nfazc\u0131 lakab\u0131 ne kadar korkutucu olursa olsun, hayat\u0131m boyunca ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m en de\u011ferli unvan yaln\u0131zca bir taneydi.\n\nCeyda&#8217;n\u0131n babas\u0131 olmak.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1752,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1751","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1751","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1751"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1751\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1754,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1751\/revisions\/1754"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1752"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1751"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1751"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1751"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}