{"id":1779,"date":"2026-10-18T22:06:43","date_gmt":"2026-10-18T22:06:43","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=1779"},"modified":"2026-10-18T22:06:43","modified_gmt":"2026-10-18T22:06:43","slug":"bosandigim-gun-babamin-uyarisi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/bosandigim-gun-babamin-uyarisi\/","title":{"rendered":"Bo\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131m G\u00fcn Babam\u0131n Uyar\u0131s\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-1779 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/bosandigim-gun-babamin-uyarisi\/vs-5\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/vs-3-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1780\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1780'>\n\t\t\t\tBabam dosyan\u0131n i\u00e7inden \u00fc\u00e7 banka dekontu \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p masan\u0131n \u00fczerine yan yana koydu. Sonra g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc takarak ilk belgenin \u00fczerindeki \u015firket ad\u0131n\u0131 parma\u011f\u0131yla g\u00f6sterdi.\n\n\u201cHande, bu firmay\u0131 daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 duydun mu?\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131m. Dosyada yazan \u015firket ad\u0131 bana tamamen yabanc\u0131yd\u0131. \u00dcstelik faaliyet alan\u0131 organizasyon dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.\n\n\u201cGe\u00e7en ay muhasebe program\u0131ndaki kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131klar\u0131 incelememi istemi\u015ftin, hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun?\u201d dedi babam. \u201c\u0130\u015fte o s\u0131rada bu firmaya yap\u0131lan \u00f6demeleri fark ettim.\u201d\n\nDekontlar\u0131 elime ald\u0131m. \u00dc\u00e7 ayr\u0131 tarihte g\u00f6nderilen paralar\u0131n toplam\u0131 248 bin lirayd\u0131.\n\n\u201cBu \u00f6demeleri kim onaylam\u0131\u015f?\u201d\n\n\u201cBelgelerde senin onay\u0131n varm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6sterilmi\u015f. Fakat as\u0131l mesele bu de\u011fil.\u201d\n\nBabam ba\u015fka bir sayfa \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Ticaret sicili kay\u0131tlar\u0131ndan al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f bilgiler vard\u0131. \u015eirket d\u00f6rt ay \u00f6nce kurulmu\u015ftu ve ortaklar\u0131ndan biri Tufan\u2019d\u0131.\n\nSanki biri g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00fczerine a\u011f\u0131r bir ta\u015f b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cTufan kendi \u015firketini mi kurmu\u015f?\u201d\n\n\u201cEvet. \u00dcstelik senin \u015firketinden para ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00f6nemde.\u201d\n\nBir s\u00fcre konu\u015famad\u0131m. On iki y\u0131l boyunca ayn\u0131 evde ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m adam\u0131n benden gizli bir \u015firket kurmas\u0131 zaten yeterince a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Ama benim eme\u011fimle kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m paralar\u0131n o \u015firkete aktar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131 bamba\u015fka bir \u015feydi.\n\n\u201cBelki ger\u00e7ekten hizmet alm\u0131\u015f\u0131zd\u0131r,\u201d dedim. Sesimdeki umutsuz savunmay\u0131 kendim bile fark ettim.\n\nBabam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunu ara\u015ft\u0131raca\u011f\u0131z. Ama faturalar\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131klamalar\u0131n\u0131 incele. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnde de benzer dan\u0131\u015fmanl\u0131k hizmetleri yaz\u0131yor. Hangi organizasyonda \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131, hangi i\u015fi teslim ettikleri belli de\u011fil.\u201d\n\nDosyan\u0131n \u00fczerindeki tarihlere bakt\u0131m. O g\u00fcnlerde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn organizasyonu ve iki kurumsal toplant\u0131 d\u00fczenlemi\u015ftik. B\u00fct\u00fcn tedarik\u00e7ilerimizi neredeyse ezbere biliyordum.\n\nBu \u015firket hi\u00e7birinde g\u00f6rev almam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cBaba, Tufan\u2019\u0131n b\u00f6yle bir \u00f6deme yapt\u0131rmaya yetkisi yoktu.\u201d\n\n\u201cBiliyorum. Ona yaln\u0131zca g\u00fcnl\u00fck organizasyon giderleri i\u00e7in s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 \u00f6deme imk\u00e2n\u0131 verdi\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftin. Bir de \u015fu belgeye bak.\u201d\n\n\u00d6n\u00fcme bankadan al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f teminat talimat\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6rne\u011fini koydu. Alt\u0131nda benim ad\u0131ma at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir imza vard\u0131.\n\n\u0130lk bak\u0131\u015fta ger\u00e7ekten benim imzamd\u0131.\n\nFakat k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 biraz e\u011fince tuhaf bir ayr\u0131nt\u0131 fark ettim. \u0130mza, aylar \u00f6nce imzalad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir s\u00f6zle\u015fmedeki imzama neredeyse tamamen benziyordu. Kalemin ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 noktas\u0131ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 bile ayn\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.\n\n\u201cBen bunu imzalamad\u0131m,\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m.\n\nBabam g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBen de \u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. Ama bunun nas\u0131l haz\u0131rland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ancak resm\u00ee inceleme g\u00f6sterebilir.\u201d\n\nTelefon h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00f6n\u00fcmde duruyordu. Bankan\u0131n aramas\u0131 kesilmi\u015fti ama g\u00f6revlinin s\u00f6yledikleri kulaklar\u0131mda \u00e7\u0131nl\u0131yordu.\n\nHemen geri arad\u0131m. Yetkiliye 3 milyon 200 bin liral\u0131k teminat talimat\u0131n\u0131n bana ait olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a s\u00f6yledim. \u0130\u015flemin durdurulmas\u0131n\u0131, itiraz\u0131m\u0131n kay\u0131t alt\u0131na al\u0131nmas\u0131n\u0131 ve belgelerin incelenmesini istedim.\n\nG\u00f6revli, talimat\u0131n hen\u00fcz sonu\u00e7land\u0131r\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, do\u011frulama s\u0131ras\u0131nda beklemeye al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Yaz\u0131l\u0131 itiraz\u0131m\u0131 da bankaya ula\u015ft\u0131rmam gerekiyordu.\n\nTelefonu kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ellerim titriyordu.\n\n\u201cYa aramasalard\u0131 baba?\u201d\n\nBabam derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cO zaman \u015firketini ciddi bir y\u00fck\u00fcml\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn alt\u0131na sokmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f olabilirdi. Neyse ki banka do\u011frulama istemi\u015f. \u015eimdi elimizdeki b\u00fct\u00fcn belgeleri koruyaca\u011f\u0131z.\u201d\n\nO gece sabaha kadar uyuyamad\u0131m.\n\nBir tarafta biten evlili\u011fim, di\u011fer tarafta tehlikeye giren \u015firketim vard\u0131. Ancak beni as\u0131l yaralayan paran\u0131n miktar\u0131 de\u011fildi. Tufan\u2019\u0131n benimle ayn\u0131 sofraya otururken, ayn\u0131 evin anahtar\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131rken, bunlar\u0131 planlam\u0131\u015f olma ihtimaliydi.\n\nSabaha kar\u015f\u0131 telefonum \u00e7ald\u0131.\n\nArayan Tufan\u2019d\u0131.\n\n\u201cSen ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131yorsun Hande?\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n\u201cNeden bahsediyorsun?\u201d\n\n\u201cKartlar\u0131m\u0131 kapatt\u0131rm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n! D\u00fcn otelde herkesin i\u00e7inde rezil oldum.\u201d\n\n\u201cBenim \u015firket kart\u0131mla 1 milyon 780 bin liral\u0131k m\u00fccevher almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n. As\u0131l sen ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131yorsun?\u201d\n\nBirka\u00e7 saniye sustu.\n\n\u201cOn iki y\u0131l evli kald\u0131k. Senin kazand\u0131klar\u0131nda benim de hakk\u0131m var.\u201d\n\n\u201cBo\u015fanmadan do\u011fabilecek haklar\u0131n ba\u015fka, \u015firket kart\u0131n\u0131 ki\u015fisel al\u0131\u015fveri\u015finde kullanman ba\u015fka.\u201d\n\n\u201cSen bunu Leman y\u00fcz\u00fcnden yap\u0131yorsun.\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r Tufan. Ben art\u0131k benim paramla ba\u015fkalar\u0131na hediyeler alman\u0131 istemiyorum.\u201d\n\nSesini al\u00e7altt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBu kadar b\u00fcy\u00fctmesen olmaz m\u0131? Nas\u0131l olsa \u00f6deyecektim.\u201d\n\n\u201cNeyle \u00f6deyecektin?\u201d\n\nCevap vermedi.\n\nArd\u0131ndan as\u0131l sormak istedi\u011fim soruyu sordum.\n\n\u201cBankaya benim imzam\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan 3 milyon 200 bin liral\u0131k teminat talimat\u0131n\u0131 neden g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcn?\u201d\n\nTelefonun di\u011fer ucunda uzun bir sessizlik oldu.\n\nSonunda, \u201cBunlar\u0131 telefonda konu\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131m,\u201d dedi.\n\n\u201c\u00d6yleyse avukat\u0131mla konu\u015fursun.\u201d\n\nTelefonu kapatt\u0131m.\n\nO an ilk kez korkumun yerini kararl\u0131l\u0131k ald\u0131.\n\nErtesi sabah babamla birlikte avukat\u0131ma gittim. Dosyay\u0131 masas\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda \u00f6nce b\u00fct\u00fcn belgeleri dikkatlice inceledi.\n\n\u201cHande Han\u0131m, elimizde ciddi \u015f\u00fcpheler var,\u201d dedi. \u201cFakat hangi belgenin kim taraf\u0131ndan haz\u0131rland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6demelerin nas\u0131l onayland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve paran\u0131n hangi ama\u00e7la kullan\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 netle\u015ftirmemiz gerekiyor.\u201d\n\n\u201cParam\u0131 geri alabilecek miyim?\u201d\n\n\u201cBu konuda hukuki yollar\u0131 de\u011ferlendirece\u011fiz. \u00d6nceli\u011fimiz yeni bir zarar olu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6nlemek ve mevcut kay\u0131tlar\u0131 g\u00fcvenceye almak.\u201d\n\nAyn\u0131 g\u00fcn mali m\u00fc\u015favirimizle toplant\u0131 yapt\u0131k. \u015eirket hesaplar\u0131n\u0131n ge\u00e7mi\u015fe d\u00f6n\u00fck incelenmesini ba\u015flatt\u0131k. Bankaya yaz\u0131l\u0131 itiraz\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ilettik. \u015e\u00fcpheli belgeler ve para transferleri hakk\u0131nda gerekli ba\u015fvurular\u0131n haz\u0131rlanmas\u0131na karar verdik.\n\nFakat birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra \u00f6\u011frendiklerim i\u00e7imi daha da ac\u0131tt\u0131.\n\nMuhasebe b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fczde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan gen\u00e7 bir g\u00f6revli, Tufan\u2019\u0131n baz\u0131 faturalar\u0131 kendisine getirdi\u011fini anlatt\u0131. Tufan, benim yo\u011fun oldu\u011fumu, \u00f6demelerden haberim bulundu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. G\u00f6revli de e-posta \u00fczerinden gelen onay g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerine g\u00fcvenerek i\u015flemleri haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cHande Han\u0131m, ger\u00e7ekten sizin bilginiz oldu\u011funu sand\u0131m,\u201d dedi g\u00f6zleri dolarak.\n\nOna k\u0131zmak istiyordum. Ama \u015firketimdeki kontrol eksikliklerinin sorumlulu\u011fundan ben de ka\u00e7amazd\u0131m.\n\n\u201c\u015eimdi \u00f6nemli olan her \u015feyi oldu\u011fu gibi anlatman,\u201d dedim. \u201cKim ne g\u00f6nderdiyse kay\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131 saklayal\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u0130ncelemelerde, benim ad\u0131ma g\u00f6nderilmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen baz\u0131 yaz\u0131\u015fmalar ortaya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Bunlar\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131 eski \u015firket belgelerimizden al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler i\u00e7eriyordu. Ancak belgelerin kim taraf\u0131ndan olu\u015fturuldu\u011funu belirlemek i\u00e7in daha ayr\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 inceleme gerekiyordu.\n\nTufan\u2019\u0131n bana ne kadar yak\u0131n oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.\n\nEvimizde bilgisayar\u0131m\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m say\u0131s\u0131z ak\u015fam\u0131 biliyordu. S\u00f6zle\u015fmelerimin nerede sakland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hangi d\u00f6nemlerde \u015fehir d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda oldu\u011fumu, b\u00fcy\u00fck organizasyonlarda ne kadar yoruldu\u011fumu biliyordu.\n\nBir zamanlar bu yak\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcven sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u015eimdi ise ayn\u0131 yak\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6t\u00fcye kullan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olabilece\u011fi ger\u00e7e\u011fiyle y\u00fczle\u015fiyordum.\n\n\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn bankadan yeni bir g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fme talebi geldi. Babam ve avukat\u0131mla birlikte \u015fubeye gittim.\n\nBankan\u0131n inceleme biriminden gelen g\u00f6revli, \u015f\u00fcpheli talimat\u0131n Tufan\u2019\u0131n kurdu\u011fu \u015firketin finansman ihtiyac\u0131yla ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011funu a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131. Benim \u015firketimin sa\u011flayaca\u011f\u0131 ileri s\u00fcr\u00fclen teminatla onun \u015firketinin kredi kullanmas\u0131 ama\u00e7lan\u0131yordu.\n\nDuyduklar\u0131ma inanamad\u0131m.\n\n\u201cYani kendi \u015firketinin borcu i\u00e7in benim \u015firketimi g\u00fcvence g\u00f6stermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f?\u201d\n\n\u201cBelgelerden anla\u015f\u0131lan talep bu y\u00f6nde,\u201d dedi g\u00f6revli. \u201cAncak do\u011frulama tamamlanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in i\u015flem ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirilmedi.\u201d\n\nBabam masan\u0131n alt\u0131nda elimi tuttu.\n\nO k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck hareket sayesinde a\u011flamadan oturabildim.\n\nBankadan \u00e7\u0131karken babama d\u00f6nd\u00fcm.\n\n\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 hafta boyunca bunlar\u0131 ara\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n. Bana neden daha \u00f6nce s\u00f6ylemedin?\u201d\n\n\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m, elime ge\u00e7en ilk belgelerde a\u00e7\u0131klanamayan i\u015flemler vard\u0131 ama kimsenin hakk\u0131nda kan\u0131ts\u0131z konu\u015fmak istemedim. Sonra ba\u015fka kay\u0131tlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Seni uyarmak i\u00e7in do\u011fru zaman\u0131 ar\u0131yordum.\u201d\n\n\u201cYa bug\u00fcn \u015fifreleri de\u011fi\u015ftirmeseydim?\u201d\n\nBabam durdu.\n\n\u201cBelki yine bankan\u0131n kontrol\u00fcne tak\u0131lacakt\u0131. Belki ba\u015fka bir i\u015flem deneyecekti. Bunu bilemeyiz. Ama g\u00fcvenlik i\u00e7in beklemek gereksiz bir riskti.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 babam\u0131n omzuna yaslad\u0131m.\n\nOn iki y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fimin ard\u0131ndan ilk kez birinin beni ger\u00e7ekten korumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissediyordum.\n\nBu s\u0131rada Tufan\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6steri\u015fli kutlamas\u0131n\u0131n da pek parlak bitmedi\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendim.\n\nM\u00fccevher ma\u011fazas\u0131ndan getirilen \u00fcr\u00fcnler \u00f6deme ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmeyince teslim edilmemi\u015fti. Leman\u2019\u0131n foto\u011frafta takt\u0131\u011f\u0131 safir kolye de sat\u0131n al\u0131nmadan \u00f6nce denedi\u011fi par\u00e7alardan biriydi.\n\nTufan, otelin yemek ve salon masraflar\u0131n\u0131 kendi imk\u00e2nlar\u0131yla kar\u015f\u0131lamak zorunda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nBirka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra Leman\u2019\u0131n sosyal medya hesab\u0131ndaki b\u00fct\u00fcn kutlama foto\u011fraflar\u0131 silindi.\n\n\u0130ki hafta ge\u00e7meden ayr\u0131ld\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 duydum.\n\nEskiden olsa bunu \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde i\u00e7imde bir zafer duygusu olu\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Fakat hissetti\u011fim tek \u015fey yorgunluktu.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc evlili\u011fimin sona ermesiyle birlikte sorumluluklar\u0131m bitmemi\u015fti.\n\nSekiz ya\u015f\u0131ndaki k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z h\u00e2l\u00e2 bana bak\u0131yordu.\n\nBir ak\u015fam odas\u0131na girdi\u011fimde yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde oturmu\u015f, eski aile foto\u011fraflar\u0131m\u0131za bak\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201cAnne,\u201d dedi usulca. \u201cBabam art\u0131k bizimle ya\u015famayacak m\u0131?\u201d\n\nYan\u0131na oturdum.\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r can\u0131m. Babanla ayr\u0131 evlerde ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131z.\u201d\n\n\u201cBen bir \u015fey mi yapt\u0131m?\u201d\n\nBo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r. Bunun seninle hi\u00e7bir ilgisi yok.\u201d\n\nK\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck parmaklar\u0131yla foto\u011fraf\u0131n kenar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczeltti.\n\n\u201cAma eskiden birlikte g\u00fcl\u00fcyorduk.\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlerimiz de oldu. Onlar ya\u015fanmad\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyece\u011fiz. Yaln\u0131zca bundan sonra baz\u0131 \u015feyler farkl\u0131 olacak.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dizime koydu.\n\nO gece ona Tufan\u2019\u0131n banka hesaplar\u0131n\u0131, Leman\u2019\u0131 ya da mahkemede konu\u015fulanlar\u0131 anlatmad\u0131m. Bunlar bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun ta\u015f\u0131mas\u0131 gereken y\u00fckler de\u011fildi.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n kendi su\u00e7u oldu\u011funu sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne, siz benim y\u00fcz\u00fcmden mi ayr\u0131ld\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d diye sordu.\n\nOnu kuca\u011f\u0131ma ald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r can\u0131m. B\u00fcy\u00fcklerin aras\u0131ndaki sorunlar \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n su\u00e7u de\u011fildir. Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum ve her zaman yan\u0131nda olaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d\n\nKollar\u0131n\u0131 boynuma dolad\u0131.\n\nO an \u015firketimin kaybedebilece\u011fi milyonlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Sonra kuca\u011f\u0131mdaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131.\n\nParay\u0131 yeniden kazanmak m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fc. Ama bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun k\u0131r\u0131lan g\u00fcvenini onarmak \u00e7ok daha fazla \u00f6zen gerektiriyordu.\n\nBu y\u00fczden bir \u00e7ocuk psikolo\u011fundan destek almaya karar verdim.\n\n\u0130lk g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmelerde k\u0131z\u0131m fazla konu\u015fmad\u0131. Sonra yava\u015f yava\u015f korkular\u0131n\u0131 anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Babas\u0131n\u0131n evden ayr\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 kendisiyle ili\u015fkilendirdi\u011fini, annesini de kaybetmekten endi\u015felendi\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendim.\n\nPsikolo\u011fun \u00f6nerileri do\u011frultusunda hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funca d\u00fczenli tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Okuluna devam etti, arkada\u015flar\u0131yla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, hafta sonlar\u0131 dedesiyle vakit ge\u00e7irdi.\n\nBabam da onun yan\u0131nda Tufan hakk\u0131nda k\u00f6t\u00fc konu\u015fmamaya \u00f6zen g\u00f6steriyordu.\n\nBir g\u00fcn babama neden bu kadar dikkatli davrand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sordum.\n\n\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m,\u201d dedi, \u201csen Tufan\u2019dan bo\u015fand\u0131n. Ama torunumun babas\u0131yla olan ba\u011f\u0131 onun kendi hayat\u0131n\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n kalbine bizim \u00f6fkemizi yerle\u015ftirmemeliyiz.\u201d\n\nBabam\u0131n hakl\u0131 oldu\u011funu biliyordum.\n\nYine de Tufan\u2019\u0131n kap\u0131m\u0131za geldi\u011fi ak\u015fam sakin kalmak kolay olmad\u0131.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m o s\u0131rada babam\u0131n evindeydi.\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Tufan\u2019\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki de\u011fi\u015fimi hemen fark ettim. G\u00f6zlerinin alt\u0131nda koyu halkalar vard\u0131. \u00dczerindeki g\u00f6mlek k\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131.\n\n\u201cHande, konu\u015fabilir miyiz?\u201d\n\n\u201cAvukat\u0131n arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla konu\u015fabilece\u011fimizi s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftim.\u201d\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/bosandigim-gun-babamin-uyarisi\/vv-4\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/vv-2-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-1781\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-1781'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201cL\u00fctfen. Be\u015f dakika.\u201d\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k b\u0131rakarak dinledim.\n\n\u201cLeman gitti,\u201d dedi.\n\nHi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedim.\n\n\u201c\u015eirketimde i\u015fler de k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fti. Bekledi\u011fim m\u00fc\u015fteriler gelmedi. Bor\u00e7lar birikti.\u201d\n\n\u201cBunu neden bana anlat\u0131yorsun?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seninle anla\u015fabiliriz. Ben yaln\u0131zca kendi i\u015fimi kurmak istedim.\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00d6yleyse neden benim \u015firketimin paras\u0131n\u0131 kulland\u0131n?\u201d\n\nBak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n\u201cO paray\u0131 geri koyacakt\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cNe zaman?\u201d\n\n\u201cSipari\u015flerden \u00f6deme gelince.\u201d\n\n\u201cOrtada benim bildi\u011fim bir anla\u015fma bile yoktu Tufan. \u015eirketimin paras\u0131n\u0131 neden kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bana s\u00f6ylemeden geri \u00f6deme yapmay\u0131 planlaman bunu do\u011fru h\u00e2le getirmiyor.\u201d\n\nBir s\u00fcre sustu.\n\nSonra cebinden katlanm\u0131\u015f bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.\n\n\u201cBak, bir \u00f6deme plan\u0131 haz\u0131rlad\u0131m. Taksitle kapat\u0131r\u0131m. Yeter ki \u015fik\u00e2yetlerini geri \u00e7ek.\u201d\n\nK\u00e2\u011f\u0131da uzanmad\u0131m.\n\n\u201cTeklifini avukat\u0131ma g\u00f6nder. Ama \u015f\u00fcpheli belgelerin incelenmesinden vazge\u00e7meyece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nY\u00fcz\u00fc gerildi.\n\n\u201cBir zamanlar beni seviyordun.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine bakt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cEvet, seviyordum. Ama sen bunu her \u015feyi yapabilece\u011fin anlam\u0131na getirdin.\u201d\n\nTam gidecekken durdu.\n\n\u201cK\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rmek istiyorum.\u201d\n\n\u0130\u00e7imdeki b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6fke bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na h\u00fczne d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\n\n\u201cOnu g\u00f6rebilmenle benim sana k\u0131zg\u0131n olmam ayn\u0131 mesele de\u011fil,\u201d dedim. \u201cMahkemenin belirledi\u011fi d\u00fczen ve k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131 do\u011frultusunda hareket edece\u011fiz. Ama ona s\u00f6ylediklerini de yok sayamay\u0131z.\u201d\n\nTufan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.\n\n\u201c\u00d6fkelenmi\u015ftim.\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00d6fke, bir \u00e7ocu\u011fu incitmenin mazereti de\u011fil.\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00d6z\u00fcr dilerim.\u201d\n\n\u201cBunu en \u00e7ok onun duymas\u0131 gerekiyor. \u00dcstelik yaln\u0131zca s\u00f6ylemen de\u011fil, davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131nla g\u00f6stermen gerekiyor.\u201d\n\nTufan sessizce merdivenlere y\u00f6neldi.\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda a\u011flad\u0131m.\n\nAma bu kez onu kaybetti\u011fim i\u00e7in de\u011fil, bir zamanlar kurdu\u011fumuz ailenin nas\u0131l bu noktaya geldi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm i\u00e7in a\u011fl\u0131yordum.\n\nSonraki aylar kolay ge\u00e7medi.\n\n\u015eirketimde b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6deme yetkilerini yeniden d\u00fczenledim. Belirli tutar\u0131n \u00fczerindeki transferler i\u00e7in iki ayr\u0131 yetkilinin onay\u0131n\u0131 zorunlu tuttum. Eski eri\u015fim izinlerini kald\u0131rd\u0131m, muhasebe kay\u0131tlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z bir denetimden ge\u00e7irdim.\n\n\u0130nceleme s\u0131ras\u0131nda \u00fc\u00e7 faturaya kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k d\u00fczenlenmi\u015f hizmetlerin ger\u00e7ekten sunuldu\u011funu g\u00f6steren yeterli kay\u0131t bulunamad\u0131. Baz\u0131 belgelerin as\u0131llar\u0131 da \u015firket ar\u015fivimizde yoktu.\n\nAvukat\u0131m bunlar\u0131 ilgili makamlara sundu. Bankan\u0131n elindeki belgelerin ve imzalar\u0131n incelenmesi s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Her sorunun hemen yan\u0131tlanamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kabullenmek zorundayd\u0131m.\n\nBir yandan da \u015firketin g\u00fcnl\u00fck i\u015flerini y\u00fcr\u00fctmem gerekiyordu.\n\nBir sabah \u00f6nemli m\u00fc\u015fterilerimizden biri yeni bir organizasyon i\u00e7in bizimle \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktan vazge\u00e7ebilece\u011fini s\u00f6yledi. Son aylardaki kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 hissetmi\u015fti.\n\nOnunla y\u00fcz y\u00fcze g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.\n\n\u201cYa\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z baz\u0131 i\u00e7 sorunlar nedeniyle zor bir d\u00f6nemden ge\u00e7tik,\u201d dedim. \u201cAma ekibimiz ve hizmet kalitemiz yerinde. Size verdi\u011fimiz b\u00fct\u00fcn taahh\u00fctleri yerine getirece\u011fiz.\u201d\n\nS\u00f6zle\u015fmemizi ve haz\u0131rl\u0131k plan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 birlikte inceledik.\n\nM\u00fc\u015fteri sonunda organizasyonu bize emanet etti.\n\nO g\u00fcn ofise d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlar\u0131m\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki rahatlamay\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\n\nOnlar\u0131n da aileleri, \u00f6demeleri ve gelecek planlar\u0131 vard\u0131. Tufan\u2019\u0131n yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n bedelini masum insanlar\u0131n \u00f6demesine izin vermemeliydim.\n\n\u0130lk b\u00fcy\u00fck organizasyonumuzu ba\u015far\u0131yla tamamlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ak\u015fam salondaki \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 kapatmadan \u00f6nce bir s\u00fcre bo\u015f masalara bakt\u0131m.\n\nY\u0131llard\u0131r bu i\u015fi severek yap\u0131yordum. Fakat evlili\u011fim boyunca ba\u015far\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsemi\u015f, Tufan\u2019\u0131n gururunu incitmemek i\u00e7in kendi eme\u011fimin de\u011ferini saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nArt\u0131k bunu yapmayacakt\u0131m.\n\nBu s\u0131rada k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n hayat\u0131nda da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ama \u00f6nemli geli\u015fmeler oluyordu.\n\nTufan\u2019la g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeleri mahkemenin belirledi\u011fi d\u00fczen \u00e7er\u00e7evesinde devam etti. \u0130lk zamanlarda k\u0131z\u0131m tedirgindi. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fme \u00f6ncesinde karn\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor, d\u00f6n\u00fcnce fazla konu\u015fmuyordu.\n\nBunu psikolo\u011fuyla payla\u015ft\u0131m. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmelerin onun \u00fczerinde nas\u0131l bir etki b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dikkatle takip ettik. Tufan\u2019la da \u00e7ocukla ilgili ileti\u015fimimizi tart\u0131\u015fmadan y\u00fcr\u00fctmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.\n\nBir g\u00fcn k\u0131z\u0131m eve geldi\u011finde yan\u0131ma oturdu.\n\n\u201cBabam benden \u00f6z\u00fcr diledi,\u201d dedi.\n\n\u201cNe s\u00f6yledi?\u201d\n\n\u201cBana k\u00f6t\u00fc konu\u015ftu\u011fu i\u00e7in \u00fczg\u00fcn oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. Bir daha \u00f6yle s\u00f6ylemeyece\u011fine s\u00f6z verdi.\u201d\n\n\u201cSen ne dedin?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00d6z\u00fcr dilemesinin g\u00fczel oldu\u011funu ama s\u00f6ylediklerini h\u00e2l\u00e2 hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yledim.\u201d\n\nSa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131m.\n\n\u201c\u00c7ok do\u011fru s\u00f6ylemi\u015fsin. Birini affetmek i\u00e7in acele etmek zorunda de\u011filsin.\u201d\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m o g\u00fcn ilk kez babas\u0131yla ilgili konu\u015furken a\u011flamad\u0131.\n\nBunun her \u015feyin d\u00fczeldi\u011fi anlam\u0131na gelmedi\u011fini biliyordum. Ama kendi duygular\u0131n\u0131 ifade edebilmesi \u00f6nemliydi.\n\nBe\u015finci ay\u0131n sonunda mali m\u00fc\u015favirimiz \u015firketin durumuyla ilgili haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 raporu masama koydu.\n\nGelirlerimiz yeniden y\u00fckselmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yeni m\u00fc\u015fteri s\u00f6zle\u015fmeleri sayesinde nakit ak\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131z biraz rahatlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yine de ge\u00e7mi\u015fteki \u015f\u00fcpheli \u00f6demelerin neden oldu\u011fu kayb\u0131n tamam\u0131n\u0131 telafi etmi\u015f de\u011fildik.\n\n\u201c\u0130\u015fleri toparl\u0131yoruz Hande Han\u0131m,\u201d dedi. \u201cAma tedbiri elden b\u0131rakmayal\u0131m.\u201d\n\nG\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\n\u201cArt\u0131k b\u0131rakmam.\u201d\n\nO ak\u015fam babama raporu g\u00f6sterdim.\n\nSayfalar\u0131 dikkatlice inceledi. Ard\u0131ndan g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p masaya b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cSeninle gurur duyuyorum k\u0131z\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cB\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 sen fark etmeseydin ne yapard\u0131m bilmiyorum.\u201d\n\n\u201cBelki daha ge\u00e7 fark ederdin. Ama yine m\u00fccadele ederdin.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m.\n\nBabam hakl\u0131yd\u0131. Y\u0131llard\u0131r kendi \u015firketimi y\u00f6netiyordum. Zor m\u00fc\u015fterilerle, ekonomik s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131larla ve say\u0131s\u0131z problemle u\u011fra\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nFakat Tufan kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda kendime duydu\u011fum g\u00fcveni kaybetmi\u015ftim.\n\nBunu yeniden kazanmak zaman alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nAlt\u0131nc\u0131 ay\u0131n ortas\u0131nda avukat\u0131m arad\u0131.\n\nTufan\u2019\u0131n taraf\u0131, tart\u0131\u015fmal\u0131 para transferlerinden belirli bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n iadesi i\u00e7in yaz\u0131l\u0131 bir teklif sunmu\u015ftu. \u0130lk \u00f6demenin pe\u015fin yap\u0131lmas\u0131, kalan tutar\u0131n ise belirlenmi\u015f tarihlerde \u00f6denmesi \u00f6neriliyordu.\n\n\u201cBu teklif b\u00fct\u00fcn zarar\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131yor,\u201d dedi avukat\u0131m. \u201cAma \u00f6deme g\u00fcc\u00fc, belgeler ve di\u011fer se\u00e7eneklerle birlikte de\u011ferlendirebiliriz. \u015e\u00fcpheli imzalar hakk\u0131ndaki inceleme ise ayr\u0131ca s\u00fcr\u00fcyor.\u201d\n\nTeklifi hemen kabul etmedim.\n\nBelgeleri mali m\u00fc\u015favirimizle birlikte de\u011ferlendirdik. Sonunda, belirli bir tutar\u0131n tahsilini g\u00fcvence alt\u0131na almaya y\u00f6nelik yaz\u0131l\u0131 ve hukuken uygulanabilir bir anla\u015fma haz\u0131rlanmas\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmelerin devam etmesine onay verdim.\n\nTufan\u2019\u0131n \u00f6deme vaadine yeniden k\u00f6r\u00fc k\u00f6r\u00fcne g\u00fcvenmeye niyetim yoktu.\n\nBirka\u00e7 hafta sonra ilk \u00f6deme \u015firket hesab\u0131na ge\u00e7ti.\n\nTelefonumdaki bildirime uzun s\u00fcre bakt\u0131m.\n\nParan\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131 geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Fakat as\u0131l hissetti\u011fim \u015fey zafer de\u011fildi.\n\nHayat\u0131mda ilk kez bir sorun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda kendimi \u00e7aresiz b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nHukuki incelemeler hen\u00fcz sonu\u00e7lanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Her kuru\u015fun geri d\u00f6nece\u011fine dair bir garanti yoktu. Buna ra\u011fmen gelece\u011fimi art\u0131k Tufan\u2019\u0131n verece\u011fi s\u00f6zlere ba\u011flam\u0131yordum.\n\nO ak\u015fam babam\u0131n evine gittik.\n\nMutfa\u011fa girdi\u011fimde babam \u00e7ay demliyordu. K\u0131z\u0131m salonda resim yap\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201cAvukat\u0131n arad\u0131 m\u0131?\u201d diye sordu.\n\n\u201cArad\u0131. \u0130lk \u00f6deme geldi.\u201d\n\nBabam g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.\n\n\u201cDemek g\u00fczel haberler de geliyor.\u201d\n\nKar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki sandalyeye oturdum.\n\n\u201cBaba, mahkeme \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bana \u015fifrelerimi de\u011fi\u015ftirmemi s\u00f6yledi\u011finde sana \u00e7ok k\u0131zm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cHat\u0131rl\u0131yorum.\u201d\n\n\u201cO g\u00fcn art\u0131k dayanacak g\u00fcc\u00fcm kalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131yordum.\u201d\n\nBabam \u00e7ay\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcme koydu.\n\n\u201c\u0130nsan bazen en g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fcz hissetti\u011fi g\u00fcn, kendisi i\u00e7in en \u00f6nemli karar\u0131 verir.\u201d\n\nElini tuttum.\n\n\u201c\u0130yi ki yan\u0131mdayd\u0131n.\u201d\n\nBabam hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden elimi s\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nBir s\u00fcre sonra k\u0131z\u0131m elinde bir resimle mutfa\u011fa geldi.\n\n\u201cAnne, bak ne \u00e7izdim!\u201d\n\nK\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 \u00e7evirdi.\n\nResimde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ev vard\u0131. \u00d6n\u00fcnde \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fi el ele tutu\u015fuyordu. Biri ben, biri k\u0131z\u0131m, di\u011feri dedesiydi. Bah\u00e7ede \u00e7i\u00e7ekler, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde kocaman bir g\u00fcne\u015f vard\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u00c7ok g\u00fczel olmu\u015f,\u201d dedim. \u201cPeki bu ev neresi?\u201d\n\n\u201cBizim evimiz.\u201d\n\n\u201cBah\u00e7edeki \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri kim dikti?\u201d\n\n\u201cBeraber diktik. Hem bak, kap\u0131n\u0131n anahtar\u0131 da sende.\u201d\n\nResmin kenar\u0131ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sar\u0131 \u015fekli g\u00f6sterdi.\n\nG\u00f6zlerim doldu.\n\n\u201c\u00d6yle mi?\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bizim evimizi sen koruyorsun.\u201d\n\nOnu kuca\u011f\u0131ma ald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBiz birbirimizi koruyoruz can\u0131m.\u201d\n\nSonra yar\u0131n parka gidip gidemeyece\u011fimizi sordu. S\u0131radan bir cumartesi ge\u00e7irmek, sal\u0131ncakta sallanmak ve dondurma yemek istiyordu.\n\nG\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\n\u201cElbette gideriz.\u201d\n\nErtesi g\u00fcn ger\u00e7ekten parka gittik. K\u0131z\u0131m sal\u0131ncakta kahkahalar atarken babam bankta oturmu\u015f gazeteye bak\u0131yordu. Ben de elimde iki karton bardak \u00e7ayla yanlar\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm.\n\nTelefonum sessizdeydi. \u015eirketten gelen mesajlar acil de\u011fildi. Tufan\u2019\u0131n nerede oldu\u011funu, Leman\u2019la yeniden g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmedi\u011fini, hangi arabay\u0131 kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 merak etmiyordum.\n\nO an fark ettim ki aylar \u00f6nce adliye koridorunda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m hayat\u0131m, asl\u0131nda yeni yeni \u015fekilleniyordu.\n\nEvlili\u011fim sona ermi\u015fti. Ama anneli\u011fim, eme\u011fim, hayallerim ve gelece\u011fim yerli yerindeydi.\n\nBabam\u0131n o g\u00fcn yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 uyar\u0131 yaln\u0131zca banka hesaplar\u0131m\u0131 korumam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bana uzun zamand\u0131r unuttu\u011fum bir \u015feyi hat\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131: Sevgi, g\u00fcveni hak etmeyen birine s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131z yetki vermek de\u011fildi.\n\nOn iki y\u0131l boyunca bir aileyi ayakta tutabilmek i\u00e7in kendimden pek \u00e7ok \u015fey vermi\u015ftim. \u015eimdi ise k\u0131z\u0131mla birlikte daha sade, daha g\u00fcvenli ve daha huzurlu bir hayat kuruyordum.\n\nK\u0131z\u0131m sal\u0131ncaktan inip ko\u015farak yan\u0131ma geldi.\n\n\u201cAnne, eve d\u00f6nerken \u00e7i\u00e7ek alal\u0131m m\u0131?\u201d\n\n\u201cNe \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi istiyorsun?\u201d\n\n\u201cPencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcne koyaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z sar\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7eklerden.\u201d\n\nElini tuttum.\n\n\u201cAlal\u0131m.\u201d\n\nO g\u00fcn eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcne k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir saks\u0131 yerle\u015ftirdik. K\u0131z\u0131m topra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sulad\u0131, ben de g\u00fcne\u015fi yeterince g\u00f6rmesi i\u00e7in yerini ayarlad\u0131m.\n\nBir s\u00fcre sonra k\u0131z\u0131ma bak\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\nEskiden b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc da\u011f\u0131lmakta olan bir evlili\u011fi kurtarmaya harcam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u015eimdi ise o g\u00fcc\u00fc, ger\u00e7ekten b\u00fcy\u00fcyebilecek \u015feylere verebiliyordum.\n\nVe sonunda \u015funu anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m: \u0130nsan bazen hayat\u0131n\u0131 yeniden kurmak i\u00e7in b\u00fcy\u00fck bir mucizeye ihtiya\u00e7 duymaz. Kendisine ait olan\u0131 korumaya karar vermesi, yard\u0131m istemekten \u00e7ekinmemesi ve att\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ad\u0131mlar\u0131n arkas\u0131nda durmas\u0131 yeterlidir.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o g\u00fcn adliyeden ayr\u0131l\u0131rken kaybetti\u011fimi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m en de\u011ferli \u015feyi asl\u0131nda yeniden bulmu\u015ftum.\n\nKendi hayat\u0131m\u0131n anahtar\u0131n\u0131.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1780,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1779","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1779","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1779"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1779\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1782,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1779\/revisions\/1782"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1780"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1779"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1779"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1779"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}