{"id":2014,"date":"2026-10-23T23:09:38","date_gmt":"2026-10-23T23:09:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=2014"},"modified":"2026-10-23T23:09:38","modified_gmt":"2026-10-23T23:09:38","slug":"seksen-bes-yasindaki-annemi-markette-hirsizlikla-sucladilar-cebinden-cikan-sey-herkesi-susturdu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/seksen-bes-yasindaki-annemi-markette-hirsizlikla-sucladilar-cebinden-cikan-sey-herkesi-susturdu\/","title":{"rendered":"Seksen Be\u015f Ya\u015f\u0131ndaki Annemi Markette H\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131kla Su\u00e7lad\u0131lar, Cebinden \u00c7\u0131kan \u015eey Herkesi Susturdu"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-2014 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/seksen-bes-yasindaki-annemi-markette-hirsizlikla-sucladilar-cebinden-cikan-sey-herkesi-susturdu\/kk-8\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/kk-3-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-2015\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-2015'>\n\t\t\t\tAnnemin avucunda sararm\u0131\u015f, y\u0131llar\u0131n kenarlar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131v\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir foto\u011fraf vard\u0131. Foto\u011fraf\u0131n arkas\u0131na eski usul mavi t\u00fckenmez kalemle yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f birka\u00e7 sat\u0131r g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. G\u00fcvenlik g\u00f6revlisi ona bakar bakmaz sanki nefesi kesildi.\n\nBen bir anneme, bir adama bak\u0131yordum.\n\n\u201cAnne, bu ne?\u201d diye sordum.\n\nAnnem g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fczeltti. Sesi h\u00e2l\u00e2 sakindi ama y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki incinmi\u015flik gizlenmiyordu.\n\n\u201c\u00d6nce kendini tan\u0131t delikanl\u0131,\u201d dedi. \u201cAd\u0131n Tufan m\u0131?\u201d\n\nAdam yutkundu. Yakas\u0131ndaki G\u00dcVENL\u0130K yaz\u0131l\u0131 siyah yele\u011fin \u00fcst\u00fcndeki kartta ger\u00e7ekten de Tufan yaz\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201cEvet,\u201d dedi k\u0131s\u0131k sesle. \u201cTufan.\u201d\n\nAnnem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e sallad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBen de \u00f6yle tahmin etmi\u015ftim.\u201d\n\nTam o s\u0131rada reyonun arkas\u0131ndan ma\u011faza m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc ko\u015farak geldi. Kalabal\u0131k b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, d\u00f6rt m\u00fc\u015fteri birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m \u00f6tede \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla olanlar\u0131 izliyordu. Orta ya\u015fl\u0131 kilolu bir kad\u0131n elini a\u011fz\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f, \u201cAy\u0131p ya,\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yordu. Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 da h\u00e2l\u00e2 telefonuyla kay\u0131t al\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201cBurada ne oluyor?\u201d diye sordu m\u00fcd\u00fcr.\n\nBen hemen at\u0131ld\u0131m. \u201cAnnemi herkesin ortas\u0131nda h\u0131rs\u0131z ilan etti. Bile\u011fini s\u0131kt\u0131, y\u00fcr\u00fctecini devirdi. \u015eimdi de bir a\u00e7\u0131klama bekliyoruz.\u201d\n\nTufan g\u00f6zlerini annemin elindeki foto\u011fraftan alam\u0131yordu.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/seksen-bes-yasindaki-annemi-markette-hirsizlikla-sucladilar-cebinden-cikan-sey-herkesi-susturdu\/tre\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/tre-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-2016\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-2016'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201cBen&#8230;\u201d dedi. \u201cBen kamerada cebine bir \u015fey koydu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\u201d\n\n\u201cNe koydu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u00fc?\u201d diye sordum sert\u00e7e.\n\nCevap veremedi.\n\nAnnem foto\u011fraf\u0131 ona do\u011fru biraz daha kald\u0131rd\u0131. \u201cBunu g\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u00fc peki?\u201d\n\nM\u00fcd\u00fcr foto\u011frafa bakmak istedi. Annem \u00f6nce bana uzatt\u0131. \u00d6n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde siyah beyaz bir s\u0131n\u0131f foto\u011fraf\u0131 vard\u0131. Arka s\u0131rada gen\u00e7 bir \u00f6\u011fretmen olarak annem, \u00f6n s\u0131ralarda ilkokul \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ndaki \u00e7ocuklar duruyordu. Arka y\u00fcz\u00fcnde ise \u015fu yaz\u0131yordu:\n\n\u201cG\u00fczin \u00d6\u011fretmenim, o g\u00fcn beni dinledi\u011finiz i\u00e7in te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim. Ben paray\u0131 \u00e7almam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Herkes bana h\u0131rs\u0131z demi\u015fti ama siz inanmad\u0131n\u0131z. Bunu \u00f6mr\u00fcmce unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m. \u00d6\u011frenciniz Tufan, 1987.\u201d\n\nBo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.\n\nAnnem bana d\u00f6n\u00fcp a\u00e7\u0131klamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. \u201cBu sabah evde eski kutular\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordum. Baban\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra bir s\u00fcr\u00fc evrakla \u00f6\u011frenci notu \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ma. Bu foto\u011frafla bu not da onlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndayd\u0131. Atmaya k\u0131yamad\u0131m. \u00c7antama koydum. Yolda sana g\u00f6steririm dedim.\u201d\n\nSonra Tufan&#8217;a bakt\u0131. \u201cMeyve reyonunda ismini kart\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ve y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc dikkatle inceleyince seni o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck o\u011flana benzettim. \u00c7antamdan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p cebime koydum ki Lale gelince ona da g\u00f6stereyim, sonra sana ger\u00e7ekten sen misin diye soray\u0131m. Seninse ilk yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015fey beni su\u00e7lamak oldu.\u201d\n\nTufan sanki ayakta zor duruyordu. \u201cBen&#8230; ben sizi tan\u0131yamad\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cBen de seni hemen tan\u0131mad\u0131m,\u201d dedi annem. \u201cAma ismini g\u00f6r\u00fcnce akl\u0131ma geldi. Bir zamanlar sana h\u0131rs\u0131z denmi\u015fti. Ben de s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde kimseyi dinlemeden karar vermenin ne kadar a\u011f\u0131r bir yara a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\u201d\n\nM\u00fcd\u00fcr araya girdi. \u201cHan\u0131mefendi, l\u00fctfen ofise ge\u00e7elim. Kameralar\u0131 birlikte inceleyelim.\u201d\n\nAnnem bir an teredd\u00fct etti. Bile\u011fini ovu\u015fturdu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u201c\u00d6nce k\u0131z\u0131m y\u00fcr\u00fctecimi kald\u0131rs\u0131n,\u201d dedi. \u201cVe hi\u00e7 kimse bana dokunmayacak.\u201d\n\nY\u00fcr\u00fcteci kald\u0131rd\u0131m, \u00e7i\u00e7ekli bez \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczelttim. Sonra annemin koluna ben girdim; Tufan yakla\u015fmaya cesaret edemedi.\n\nG\u00fcvenlik odas\u0131nda kamera kay\u0131tlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. M\u00fcd\u00fcr, meyve reyonundaki a\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131 tek tek g\u00f6sterdi. G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcde annem y\u00fcr\u00fctecin \u00fczerindeki \u00e7i\u00e7ekli bez \u00e7antan\u0131n fermuar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131yor, i\u00e7inden katlanm\u0131\u015f bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tla foto\u011fraf\u0131 al\u0131yor ve h\u0131rkas\u0131n\u0131n cebine koyuyordu. Sonra elma kasas\u0131na uzan\u0131yordu. Hi\u00e7bir \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn raftan al\u0131n\u0131p cebe sokuldu\u011fu g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fcyordu. \u00dcstelik tam o anda \u00fcst a\u00e7\u0131 reyon tabelas\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnden k\u0131smen kapan\u0131yordu.\n\nM\u00fcd\u00fcr videoyu durdurdu.\n\n\u201cBu g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc h\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131k kan\u0131t\u0131 de\u011fil,\u201d dedi. \u201cAksine han\u0131mefendinin kendi \u00e7antas\u0131ndan bir \u015fey ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6steriyor.\u201d\n\nBen Tufan&#8217;a d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. \u201cAz \u00f6nce \u2018her \u015feyi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm\u2019 dedin.\u201d\n\nTufan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi. \u201cG\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc sand\u0131m. Son g\u00fcnlerde reyonda birka\u00e7 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck h\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131k olay\u0131 ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ann&#8230;\u201d S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc kesti, sonra toparland\u0131. \u201cHan\u0131mefendinin cebine bir \u015fey koydu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce yanl\u0131\u015f sonuca atlad\u0131m.\u201d\n\nAnnemin sesi keskinle\u015fti. \u201cYanl\u0131\u015f sonuca atlamak ba\u015fka, bir insan\u0131n bile\u011fini s\u0131k\u0131p onu herkesin ortas\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmek ba\u015fka.\u201d\n\nTufan&#8217;\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fclmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. \u201cHakl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z \u00f6\u011fretmenim.\u201d\n\nAnnem hemen d\u00fczeltti. \u201c\u015eu anda ben senin \u00f6\u011fretmenin de\u011filim. \u015eu anda ben m\u00fc\u015fteriyim, sen de ma\u011faza \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan\u0131. \u00d6nce bunu anla.\u201d\n\nOdada birka\u00e7 saniye boyunca kimse konu\u015fmad\u0131. Tufan&#8217;\u0131n a\u011flamas\u0131, yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6stermi\u015fti ama annemin hakl\u0131 olarak belirtti\u011fi gibi olanlar\u0131 silmiyordu.\n\nM\u00fcd\u00fcr derin bir nefes ald\u0131. \u201cHan\u0131mefendi, size ma\u011faza ad\u0131na a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a \u00f6z\u00fcr diliyorum. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fan\u0131m\u0131z prosed\u00fcr\u00fc ihlal etmi\u015f. G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc do\u011frulanmadan su\u00e7lama yapm\u0131\u015f, fiziksel temasta bulunmu\u015f ve kamuya a\u00e7\u0131k alanda sizi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f. Bununla ilgili resmi tutanak tutulacak.\u201d\n\n\u201cYaln\u0131z tutanak yetmez,\u201d dedim. \u201cAnnemin bile\u011fi ac\u0131yor. Bir sa\u011fl\u0131k kontrol\u00fc istiyoruz. Ayr\u0131ca bu kayd\u0131n bir kopyas\u0131n\u0131n saklanmas\u0131n\u0131 ve merkeze \u015fik\u00e2yet iletilmesini de istiyoruz.\u201d\n\nM\u00fcd\u00fcr ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. \u201cElbette.\u201d\n\nAnnem bana bakt\u0131. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde gururla yorgunlu\u011fun kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ifade vard\u0131. \u201cLale, ben ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmak istemiyorum,\u201d dedi. \u201cAma bunun \u00fcst\u00fc kapat\u0131lmas\u0131n.\u201d\n\n\u201cKapatt\u0131rmayaca\u011f\u0131z anne,\u201d dedim.\n\nAyn\u0131 g\u00fcn ma\u011fazan\u0131n \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 sa\u011fl\u0131k g\u00f6revlisi annemin bile\u011fini kontrol etti. Ciddi bir durum yoktu ama yumu\u015fak doku ezilmesi ve a\u011fr\u0131 i\u00e7in rapor tutuldu. Annem eve gitmek istedi. Al\u0131\u015fveri\u015fi tamamlamadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k. Elmalar\u0131 bile alamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.\n\nEve d\u00f6nerken annem suskundu. Sonunda yava\u015f\u00e7a konu\u015ftu. \u201cTufan&#8217;\u0131n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 notu y\u0131llard\u0131r sakl\u0131yordum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o g\u00fcn s\u0131n\u0131fta herkes ona y\u00fcklenmi\u015fti. Bir arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n kaybolan s\u0131n\u0131f paras\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00e7ocuk g\u00fcnlerce a\u011flad\u0131. Sonra paran\u0131n ba\u015fka bir \u00f6\u011frencinin \u00e7antas\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Tufan, haks\u0131z yere su\u00e7lanman\u0131n utanc\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u201d\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcn ayn\u0131 \u015feyi bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na yapt\u0131,\u201d dedim.\n\n\u201cEvet,\u201d dedi annem. \u201c\u0130nsan bazen en \u00e7ok, kendisine yap\u0131lan k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc tekrarlarken kayboluyor.\u201d\n\nErtesi g\u00fcn ma\u011fazan\u0131n b\u00f6lge sorumlusu bizi arad\u0131. Yaz\u0131l\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcr g\u00f6ndereceklerini, olayla ilgili kurum i\u00e7i soru\u015fturma ba\u015flat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, Tufan&#8217;\u0131n m\u00fc\u015fteriyle do\u011frudan temas kurdu\u011fu g\u00f6revden ge\u00e7ici olarak al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Ayr\u0131ca t\u00fcm g\u00fcvenlik ve zemin personeline ya\u015f ayr\u0131mc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131, kriz y\u00f6netimi ve do\u011frulama olmadan su\u00e7lama yapmama konusunda e\u011fitim verilece\u011fini bildirdi.\n\nBen bunlar\u0131n s\u00f6zde kalmamas\u0131 i\u00e7in yaz\u0131l\u0131 belge istedim. G\u00f6nderdiler.\n\n\u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra Tufan da ayr\u0131 bir mesaj iletti. Bize do\u011frudan gelmek istemedi\u011fini, annem isterse \u00f6zr\u00fcn\u00fc yaz\u0131l\u0131 verece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Annem bir s\u00fcre d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek istedi.\n\n\u201cBeni rahatlatmak i\u00e7in de\u011fil, ger\u00e7ekten sorumluluk almak i\u00e7in yaz\u0131yorsa okusun,\u201d dedi.\n\nMektup iki g\u00fcn sonra ula\u015ft\u0131. Tufan, y\u0131llar \u00f6nce ilkokulda yoksul bir \u00e7ocuk oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in kolayca su\u00e7land\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, annemin o g\u00fcn onu herkesin \u00f6n\u00fcnde de\u011fil, sakince kenara \u00e7ekip dinledi\u011fini, ger\u00e7e\u011fi bulmadan h\u00fck\u00fcm vermedi\u011fini yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sonra da markette tam tersini yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kabul ediyordu. A\u011flamas\u0131n\u0131n utanc\u0131ndan kaynakland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bunun bir mazeret olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a belirtmi\u015fti. Ma\u011fazan\u0131n tuttu\u011fu raporda da olay\u0131n yanl\u0131\u015f de\u011ferlendirme ve prosed\u00fcr ihlali oldu\u011fu yaz\u0131yordu.\n\nAnnem mektubu iki kez okudu. Sonra katlay\u0131p masaya b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cAffetmek ba\u015fka, unutmak ba\u015fka,\u201d dedi. \u201cBen unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m. Ama bu \u00e7ocu\u011fun yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcp d\u00fczeltmesini de engellemek istemem.\u201d\n\nBundan bir hafta sonra ma\u011faza m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc ve b\u00f6lge sorumlusu, annemin onay\u0131yla evimize geldiler. Yanlar\u0131nda \u00e7i\u00e7ek ve hediye \u00e7eki getirmi\u015flerdi. Annem hediyeyi kabul etmedi.\n\n\u201cBen sat\u0131n al\u0131nmak istemiyorum,\u201d dedi. \u201cYaln\u0131zca bir daha hi\u00e7bir ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n, engelli m\u00fc\u015fterinin ya da herhangi bir insan\u0131n b\u00f6yle muamele g\u00f6rmemesini istiyorum.\u201d\n\nB\u00f6lge sorumlusu \u00f6zr\u00fcn\u00fc yineledi, e\u011fitim program\u0131n\u0131n tarihlerini ve yeni uygulamalar\u0131 anlatt\u0131. G\u00fcvenlik personelinin m\u00fc\u015fteriyle fiziksel temasa yaln\u0131zca a\u00e7\u0131k g\u00fcvenlik riski varsa ve \u00fcst amirin bilgisiyle ge\u00e7ece\u011fini, s\u0131rf \u015f\u00fcpheyle kimseyi te\u015fhir etmeyeceklerini s\u00f6yledi.\n\nAnnem onlar\u0131 dinledi, sonra sakin ama net bir sesle konu\u015ftu. \u201cBunlar g\u00fczel. Ama benim bir ricam daha var. O g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler kurum i\u00e7inde e\u011fitim ama\u00e7l\u0131 bile kullan\u0131lacaksa y\u00fcz\u00fcm izinsiz payla\u015f\u0131lmayacak. Benim hik\u00e2yem sizin malzemeniz de\u011fil.\u201d\n\n\u201cKesinlikle,\u201d dedi m\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u201c\u0130zniniz olmadan hi\u00e7bir kullan\u0131m olmayacak.\u201d\n\nAnnem s\u0131n\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 koymu\u015ftu. O an onunla gurur duydum.\n\nBir s\u00fcre sonra Tufan&#8217;la y\u00fcz y\u00fcze g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeyi kabul edip etmeyece\u011fini sordum. Omuz silkti. \u201cBir kez, k\u0131sa s\u00fcreli\u011fine olabilir. Ama onu teselli etmek i\u00e7in de\u011fil.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fme, ma\u011fazan\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ofisinde de\u011fil, belediyenin yan\u0131ndaki \u00e7ay bah\u00e7esinde yap\u0131ld\u0131. Annem kalabal\u0131k olmayan, a\u00e7\u0131k bir yer istemi\u015fti. Ben de yan\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Tufan sade bir k\u0131yafetle geldi; bu kez \u00fczerinde ne \u00fcniforma ne yetki kart\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\n\u201cSize bakacak y\u00fcz\u00fcm yok,\u201d diyerek ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nAnnem onu durdurdu. \u201cUzun konu\u015fma istemiyorum. \u015eunu bilmeni istiyorum: O g\u00fcn beni en \u00e7ok inciten \u015fey, kolumu s\u0131kman de\u011fildi. Bana bir e\u015fya gibi davranmand\u0131. Ya\u015fl\u0131y\u0131m diye, yava\u015f\u0131m diye, kendimi savunamam sand\u0131n.\u201d\n\nTufan g\u00f6zlerini indirdi. \u201cHakl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z.\u201d\n\n\u201cE\u011fer ger\u00e7ekten bir \u015fey \u00f6\u011frendiysen, bir dahaki sefer \u00f6nce durup soracaks\u0131n. Kimseyi kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne atmayacaks\u0131n.\u201d\n\n\u201cYapaca\u011f\u0131m,\u201d dedi. \u201cYani&#8230; yapmayaca\u011f\u0131m. Ayn\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131 tekrar etmeyece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nAnnem ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131. \u201cG\u00fczel. Ama bundan sonras\u0131 benim seni izlememle ilgili de\u011fil. Senin kendi vicdan\u0131nla ilgili.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fme on dakikadan k\u0131sa s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Kalkarken Tufan el uzatmad\u0131. Annem de uzatmad\u0131. Sadece k\u0131sa bir ba\u015f selam\u0131yla ayr\u0131ld\u0131lar. Bence olmas\u0131 gereken buydu.\n\nAradan yakla\u015f\u0131k bir ay ge\u00e7ti. Annem bir sabah bana, \u201cElma almaya gidelim mi?\u201d diye sordu. Sesi \u00e7ekingen de\u011fildi; kararl\u0131yd\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u0130stersen ba\u015fka markete gideriz,\u201d dedim.\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedi. \u201cKorkuyla evde kal\u0131rsam, as\u0131l o zaman benden bir \u015fey \u00e7alm\u0131\u015f olurlar.\u201d\n\nAyn\u0131 markete geri d\u00f6nd\u00fck. Bu kez i\u00e7eri girerken annem y\u00fcr\u00fctecinin saplar\u0131n\u0131 daha s\u0131k\u0131 tutuyordu ama ba\u015f\u0131 dikti. Ma\u011faza ayd\u0131nl\u0131k ve sakindi. Reyonlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde yine MANAV ve TEMEL GIDA yaz\u0131lar\u0131 vard\u0131. Elma kasalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi\u011fimizde annem bir k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 elmay\u0131 eline al\u0131p uzun uzun inceledi.\n\n\u201cBak,\u201d dedi g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek, \u201cben h\u00e2l\u00e2 kendi elmam\u0131 kendim se\u00e7ebiliyorum.\u201d\n\nBen de g\u00fcld\u00fcm. \u201cEvet anne, onu zaten ba\u015ftan beri biliyordum.\u201d\n\nO g\u00fcn al\u0131\u015fveri\u015fimizi sakin sakin tamamlad\u0131k. \u00c7\u0131k\u0131\u015fta Tufan uzaktan bizi g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Yakla\u015fmad\u0131. Sadece k\u0131sa bir sayg\u0131 selam\u0131 verdi. Annem de ister istemez de\u011fil, kendi se\u00e7imiyle hafif\u00e7e ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi. Sonra yolumuza devam ettik.\n\nArabaya bindi\u011fimizde annem \u00e7i\u00e7ekli bez \u00e7antas\u0131ndan o eski foto\u011fraf\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p bana uzatt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunu art\u0131k sen sakla,\u201d dedi.\n\n\u201cEmin misin?\u201d\n\n\u201cEvet. Bana \u015funu hat\u0131rlatt\u0131: \u0130nsan bazen ba\u015fkas\u0131na verdi\u011fi dersi y\u0131llar sonra kendine de hat\u0131rlatmak zorunda kal\u0131yor. Sessiz kalmamak da bir d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fck bi\u00e7imi.\u201d\n\nFoto\u011fraf\u0131 dikkatle c\u00fczdan\u0131ma yerle\u015ftirdim. O g\u00fcn markette sadece annemin de\u011fil, benim de bir \u015fey \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimi fark ettim. Bazen en b\u00fcy\u00fck onar\u0131m, ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmadan ama geri ad\u0131m atmadan, haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 koyabilmekti.\n\nAnnem o ak\u015fam ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 elmalardan turta yapt\u0131. Evin i\u00e7i tar\u00e7\u0131n ve tereya\u011f\u0131 kokarken masan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hafif\u00e7e kald\u0131r\u0131p bana bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cLale,\u201d dedi, \u201cbir insan\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131 ilerleyince sayg\u0131 dilenmek istemiyor. Sadece insan yerine konmak istiyor.\u201d\n\nElini tuttum. \u201cSen bunu fazlas\u0131yla hak ediyorsun anne.\u201d\n\nBu kez al\u0131\u015fveri\u015ften elimizde yaln\u0131zca elmalarla de\u011fil, s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 koruyabildi\u011fimizi bilmenin a\u011f\u0131r ama temiz huzuruyla d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2015,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2014","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2014","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2014"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2014\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2017,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2014\/revisions\/2017"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2015"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2014"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2014"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2014"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}