{"id":2039,"date":"2026-10-24T20:27:01","date_gmt":"2026-10-24T20:27:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=2039"},"modified":"2026-10-24T20:27:01","modified_gmt":"2026-10-24T20:27:01","slug":"79-yasindaki-komsumun-elektrik-borcunu-odedim-ertesi-sabah-kapima-gelen-dev-kutuyu-acinca-dizlerim-cozuldu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/79-yasindaki-komsumun-elektrik-borcunu-odedim-ertesi-sabah-kapima-gelen-dev-kutuyu-acinca-dizlerim-cozuldu\/","title":{"rendered":"79 Ya\u015f\u0131ndaki Kom\u015fumun Elektrik Borcunu \u00d6dedim, Ertesi Sabah Kap\u0131ma Gelen Dev Kutuyu A\u00e7\u0131nca Dizlerim \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc"},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-2039 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/79-yasindaki-komsumun-elektrik-borcunu-odedim-ertesi-sabah-kapima-gelen-dev-kutuyu-acinca-dizlerim-cozuldu\/bff-13\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/bff-9-150x150.webp\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-2040\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-2040'>\n\t\t\t\tKutunun i\u00e7indeki \u015fey, y\u0131llard\u0131r g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim ama her ayr\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ezbere bildi\u011fim ah\u015fap bir bebek be\u015fi\u011fiydi.\n\nElimi a\u011fz\u0131ma g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Koyu ceviz rengindeki ah\u015fab\u0131n \u00fczerinde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck y\u0131ld\u0131z oymalar\u0131 vard\u0131. Ba\u015fucundaki k\u00f6\u015fede ise k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir \u00e7izik duruyordu. E\u015fim Kerem, be\u015fi\u011fi haz\u0131rlarken tornaviday\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla oraya \u00e7arpm\u0131\u015f, sonra da g\u00fclerek o izi kapatmamam\u0131z\u0131 istemi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cB\u00f6ylece bunu kendi ellerimizle yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z belli olur,\u201d demi\u015fti.\n\nDuru do\u011fmadan \u00f6nce bu be\u015fi\u011fi birlikte haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Kerem ah\u015fap i\u015flerinden anlard\u0131. Ak\u015famlar\u0131 i\u015ften d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde garaja girer, saatlerce tahtalar\u0131 z\u0131mparalar, \u00f6l\u00e7er, birle\u015ftirirdi. Ben de yan\u0131nda oturup do\u011facak bebe\u011fimiz i\u00e7in hayaller kurard\u0131m.\n\nBe\u015fi\u011fi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce verandan\u0131n basama\u011f\u0131na oturmak zorunda kald\u0131m.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Kerem \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra bu be\u015fi\u011fin kayboldu\u011funu san\u0131yordum.\n\nGe\u00e7irdi\u011fi ani trafik kazas\u0131ndan sonra hayat\u0131m\u0131z birka\u00e7 hafta i\u00e7inde alt\u00fcst olmu\u015ftu. Hastane, cenaze ve biriken faturalar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z b\u00fcy\u00fck evden ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Kerem&#8217;in at\u00f6lyesindeki e\u015fyalar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funu depolamaya g\u00fcc\u00fcm yetmedi\u011finden satmak zorunda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Be\u015fi\u011fi ise ta\u015f\u0131nma s\u0131ras\u0131nda ortadan kaybolmu\u015ftu.\n\nOnu bir daha g\u00f6remeyece\u011fimi kabullenmi\u015ftim.\n\nAma \u015fimdi kar\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131.\n\n\u00dcstelik be\u015fi\u011fin i\u00e7inde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kutu daha vard\u0131.\n\nDuru mutfaktan ko\u015farak geldi.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/79-yasindaki-komsumun-elektrik-borcunu-odedim-ertesi-sabah-kapima-gelen-dev-kutuyu-acinca-dizlerim-cozuldu\/ffff\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/ffff-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-2041\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-2041'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201cAnne, neden a\u011fl\u0131yorsun?\u201d diye sordu.\n\nTitreyen parmaklar\u0131mla ah\u015fap be\u015fi\u011fin kenar\u0131na dokundum.\n\n\u201cBunu baban yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, g\u00fczel k\u0131z\u0131m.\u201d\n\nDuru&#8217;nun g\u00f6zleri b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cBen bebekken bunun i\u00e7inde mi uyuyordum?\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ellerini be\u015fi\u011fin kenar\u0131na koydu. Sonra y\u00fcz\u00fcme bak\u0131p f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131:\n\n\u201cDemek karde\u015fim de babam\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde uyuyacak.\u201d\n\nO c\u00fcmle kalbimi parampar\u00e7a etti.\n\nBe\u015fi\u011fin i\u00e7indeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kutuyu ald\u0131m. \u00dczerinde yaln\u0131zca ad\u0131m yaz\u0131yordu. A\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda i\u00e7inden katlanm\u0131\u015f bir mektup, eski bir foto\u011fraf ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir zarf \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nFoto\u011frafta Kerem vard\u0131. Garaj\u0131m\u0131zda g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek duruyor, hen\u00fcz tamamlanmam\u0131\u015f be\u015fi\u011fin kenar\u0131n\u0131 tutuyordu. Foto\u011fraf\u0131 daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim.\n\nMektubu a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\n\u201cSevgili R\u00fcveyda, bu be\u015fi\u011fin senin i\u00e7in ne kadar \u00f6nemli oldu\u011funu biliyorum. D\u00fcn gece yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n iyili\u011fin kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6demek i\u00e7in g\u00f6ndermiyorum. Yaln\u0131zca zaten sana ait olan bir \u015feyi olmas\u0131 gereken yere geri getiriyorum. Nas\u0131l oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenmek istersen kap\u0131m sana a\u00e7\u0131k. Vedia.\u201d\n\nBir s\u00fcre k\u00e2\u011f\u0131da bakakald\u0131m.\n\nVedia Han\u0131m&#8217;\u0131n Kerem&#8217;le ne ilgisi olabilirdi?\n\n\u0130\u00e7imdeki \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k yerini cevaplanmas\u0131 gereken sorulara b\u0131rakt\u0131. Kom\u015fum birka\u00e7 hafta \u00f6nce mahalleye ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. E\u015fim ise \u00fc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Birbirlerini tan\u0131malar\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu.\n\nTam o s\u0131rada k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck zarf\u0131 fark ettim. \u0130\u00e7inde bir depo teslim belgesi vard\u0131. Belgenin \u00fczerinde Kerem&#8217;in ad\u0131 ve be\u015fi\u011fin foto\u011fraf\u0131 bulunuyordu.\n\nArkadaki tarih, Kerem&#8217;in \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden iki hafta \u00f6ncesine aitti.\n\nNefesim kesildi.\n\nDuru&#8217;yu yan\u0131ma al\u0131p Vedia Han\u0131m&#8217;\u0131n evine y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm. Kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. G\u00f6zleri hemen elimdeki foto\u011frafa kayd\u0131.\n\n\u201cDemek geldi,\u201d dedi usulca.\n\n\u201cVedia Han\u0131m, l\u00fctfen bana anlat\u0131n. Bu be\u015fik sizde nas\u0131l olabilir?\u201d\n\nKad\u0131n kap\u0131y\u0131 ard\u0131na kadar a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\n\u201cGel k\u0131z\u0131m. Sana anlatmam gereken \u015feyler var.\u201d\n\nSalona ge\u00e7ti\u011fimizde d\u00fcn ak\u015famki karanl\u0131ktan eser yoktu. Lambalar yan\u0131yordu. K\u00f6\u015fedeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck elektrikli \u0131s\u0131t\u0131c\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, kedisi pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde uyuyordu.\n\nVedia Han\u0131m bir s\u00fcre sustuktan sonra konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBen y\u0131llarca e\u015fimle birlikte k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir mobilya at\u00f6lyesi i\u015flettim. E\u015fim \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra at\u00f6lyeyi kapatt\u0131k. O\u011flum depo i\u015fini s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Senin Kerem&#8217;in de zaman zaman onunla \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.\u201d\n\n\u015ea\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\nKerem&#8217;in marangozlukla ilgilenen arkada\u015flar\u0131 oldu\u011funu biliyordum ama Vedia Han\u0131m&#8217;\u0131n o\u011flundan hi\u00e7 s\u00f6z etti\u011fini hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordum.\n\n\u201cKerem, ikinci bebe\u011finiz i\u00e7in eski be\u015fi\u011fi yenilemek istemi\u015f,\u201d diye devam etti. \u201cBir ba\u011flant\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7lendirecek, boyas\u0131n\u0131 tazeleyecekmi\u015f. O\u011flumun deposuna b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f. Sonra da o korkun\u00e7 kaza olmu\u015f.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zlerim doldu.\n\n\u201cPeki neden bana haber vermediniz?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc biz de \u00e7ok sonra \u00f6\u011frendik. O\u011flum be\u015fi\u011fi depodaki di\u011fer e\u015fyalardan ay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ama sana ula\u015famam\u0131\u015f. Eski adresinizde kimse yokmu\u015f. Sonra benim bu soka\u011fa ta\u015f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenince, senin de burada ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmi\u015f. Ad\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi\u011finde \u00f6nce tesad\u00fcf sand\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cBeni tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 neden s\u00f6ylemediniz?\u201d\n\nVedia Han\u0131m mahcup bir ifadeyle ellerini birle\u015ftirdi.\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn en a\u011f\u0131r g\u00fcnlerinde g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Her kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131zda y\u00fcz\u00fcnde yorgunluk vard\u0131. Bir anda ge\u00e7mi\u015fi \u00f6n\u00fcne koymak istemedim. O\u011flum be\u015fi\u011fi ge\u00e7en hafta onar\u0131p haz\u0131rlad\u0131. Sana nas\u0131l verece\u011fimizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorduk.\u201d\n\nS\u00f6zleri zihnimde yava\u015f yava\u015f yerini buluyordu.\n\n\u201cYani d\u00fcn elektrik faturan\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6dedi\u011fim i\u00e7in g\u00f6ndermediniz mi?\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r yavrum. Be\u015fik zaten senindi. O\u011flum nakliyeciyle birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce konu\u015fmu\u015ftu. Teslimat\u0131n bu sabaha denk gelmesi tesad\u00fcf. D\u00fcn yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n iyilikse benim i\u00e7in bamba\u015fka bir \u015fey.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zlerini sildi.\n\n\u201cSen bana yaln\u0131zca elektrik sa\u011flamad\u0131n. Birinin h\u00e2l\u00e2 beni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hissettirdin.\u201d\n\nO an neden bu kadar duyguland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131m. Vedia Han\u0131m da y\u0131llard\u0131r yaln\u0131z ya\u015f\u0131yordu. O\u011flu ba\u015fka \u015fehirde \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, ancak f\u0131rsat bulduk\u00e7a yan\u0131na gelebiliyordu. Buraya ta\u015f\u0131nmas\u0131n\u0131n nedeni eski evinin merdivenlerini \u00e7\u0131kmakta zorlanmas\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nEmekli gelirinin \u00f6nemli bir k\u0131sm\u0131 ev masraflar\u0131na gidiyordu. Son haftalarda ila\u00e7lar\u0131 i\u00e7in beklemedi\u011fi harcamalar yapm\u0131\u015f, o\u011fluna y\u00fck olmamak i\u00e7in durumu gizlemi\u015fti. Elektrik faturas\u0131 gecikince de borcu \u00f6deyememi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cYard\u0131m isteyebilirdiniz,\u201d dedim.\n\n\u201c\u0130nsan bazen muhta\u00e7 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemekten korkuyor k\u0131z\u0131m. Hele \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015fkalar\u0131na yard\u0131m ederek ge\u00e7irmi\u015fse&#8230;\u201d\n\nElini tuttum.\n\n\u201cBen de korkuyorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cHer g\u00fcn. Bebe\u011fimi nas\u0131l b\u00fcy\u00fctece\u011fimi, Duru&#8217;ya nas\u0131l yetece\u011fimi, tek ba\u015f\u0131ma nas\u0131l ayakta kalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.\u201d\n\nVedia Han\u0131m avucumu iki eliyle kavrad\u0131.\n\n\u201cTek ba\u015f\u0131na olmak zorunda de\u011filsin.\u201d\n\nO s\u00f6zleri duyunca kendimi tutamad\u0131m. Kerem&#8217;in \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden beri ilk kez birinin yan\u0131nda b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc b\u0131rak\u0131p a\u011flad\u0131m.\n\nDuru gelip dizime yasland\u0131. Vedia Han\u0131m onu da kollar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na ald\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz bir s\u00fcre \u00f6ylece oturduk.\n\nEve d\u00f6nerken k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck zarf\u0131n i\u00e7indeki ikinci k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 fark ettim. Kerem&#8217;in el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u0131sa bir nottu. Depoya b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 e\u015fyan\u0131n \u00fczerine ili\u015ftirmi\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131.\n\n\u201cBe\u015fi\u011fi R\u00fcveyda g\u00f6rmeden eve getirmeyin. Bu kez s\u00fcrpriz olsun. O\u011flumuz ya da k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z do\u011fmadan her \u015fey haz\u0131r olacak.\u201d\n\nK\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme bast\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\nKerem bebe\u011fimizin do\u011fumunu g\u00f6remeyecekti. Bunu de\u011fi\u015ftirecek hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu. Ama onun son g\u00fcnlerinde bile gelece\u011fimiz i\u00e7in u\u011fra\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmek, kayb\u0131m\u0131n ortas\u0131nda beklemedi\u011fim bir s\u0131cakl\u0131k b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\nO g\u00fcn be\u015fi\u011fi eve ta\u015f\u0131mak i\u00e7in mahalleden iki kom\u015fu yard\u0131m etti. Vedia Han\u0131m&#8217;\u0131n o\u011flu Cemal de telefonla aray\u0131p nas\u0131l bulundu\u011funu anlatt\u0131. Kerem&#8217;le birlikte \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131 g\u00fcnlerden s\u00f6z etti. Depodaki be\u015fi\u011fin \u00fczerinde Kerem&#8217;in b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 not bulundu\u011funda, onun mutlaka ailesine ula\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledi.\n\n\u201cBabam \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde annem aylarca onun koltu\u011funu yerinden oynatamad\u0131,\u201d dedi. \u201cBir e\u015fyan\u0131n bazen hat\u0131radan \u00e7ok daha fazlas\u0131 oldu\u011funu biliyorum.\u201d\n\nTe\u015fekk\u00fcr ettim. Cemal, be\u015fi\u011fin ba\u011flant\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 kontrol ettirdi\u011fini, ancak bebe\u011fin kullan\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7in uygunlu\u011funu ayr\u0131ca de\u011ferlendirmem gerekti\u011fini belirtti. Ben de do\u011fumdan \u00f6nce gerekli g\u00fcvenlik kontrollerini yapt\u0131rmaya karar verdim.\n\nSonraki g\u00fcnlerde hayat bir anda kolayla\u015fmad\u0131. Banka hesab\u0131m h\u00e2l\u00e2 s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131yd\u0131. Kerem&#8217;in yoklu\u011fu evin her k\u00f6\u015fesinde hissediliyordu. Geceleri bazen gelece\u011fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek uyan\u0131yor, sonra onun foto\u011fraf\u0131na bak\u0131p yeniden uyumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.\n\nAma art\u0131k kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7alabilece\u011fim biri vard\u0131.\n\nVedia Han\u0131m haftada birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn bize gelmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Duru onunla kurabiye yap\u0131yor, ben de bebe\u011fin e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczenliyordum. Ya\u015fl\u0131 kom\u015fumun sa\u011fl\u0131k harcamalar\u0131n\u0131 daha rahat kar\u015f\u0131layabilmesi i\u00e7in o\u011fluyla a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 te\u015fvik ettim. Cemal de annesinin durumunu \u00f6\u011frendi\u011finde d\u00fczenli olarak yard\u0131mc\u0131 olmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nBir ak\u015fam Vedia Han\u0131m elinde eski bir diki\u015f kutusuyla geldi.\n\n\u201cBebe\u011fe k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir battaniye yapmak istiyorum,\u201d dedi.\n\n\u201c\u00c7ok yorulursunuz.\u201d\n\nG\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.\n\n\u201c\u0130nsan\u0131 bazen i\u015f de\u011fil, i\u015fe yaramad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek yoruyor.\u201d\n\nBirlikte kuma\u015flar\u0131 se\u00e7tik. Duru her renkten bir par\u00e7a eklemek isteyince battaniye reng\u00e2renk oldu. Vedia Han\u0131m g\u00fclerek bunun hayat\u0131nda dikti\u011fi en tuhaf ama en g\u00fczel battaniye olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi.\n\nAradan haftalar ge\u00e7ti. Do\u011fum zaman\u0131 yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda hastane \u00e7antam haz\u0131rd\u0131. Vedia Han\u0131m, Duru&#8217;ya bakabilece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Cemal de annesine destek olmak i\u00e7in birka\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne gelecekti.\n\nDo\u011fum ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk insan Vedia Han\u0131m oldu.\n\nBeni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce hi\u00e7bir \u015fey sormadan telefonuna uzand\u0131. Duru&#8217;yu sakinle\u015ftirdi, hastaneye ula\u015fmam i\u00e7in gerekli yard\u0131m\u0131 ayarlad\u0131.\n\nO\u011flum sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 bir \u015fekilde d\u00fcnyaya geldi\u011finde a\u011flamaktan g\u00f6zlerim \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fti.\n\nAd\u0131n\u0131 Arda koydum. Kerem&#8217;le birlikte se\u00e7ti\u011fimiz isim buydu.\n\nBirka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde Vedia Han\u0131m verandada bekliyordu. Yan\u0131nda Duru vard\u0131. \u0130kisinin elinde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek demeti bulunuyordu.\n\nBeni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce Vedia Han\u0131m&#8217;\u0131n g\u00f6zleri doldu.\n\n\u201cHo\u015f geldin Arda,\u201d dedi.\n\n\u0130\u00e7eri girdi\u011fimizde haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z be\u015fik odan\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fesinde duruyordu. Uzman kontrol\u00fcnde bebe\u011fin kullan\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7in gerekli g\u00fcvenlik ko\u015fullar\u0131n\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 anla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu y\u00fczden onu uyku yata\u011f\u0131 olarak de\u011fil, Kerem&#8217;den kalan bir hat\u0131ra olarak saklam\u0131\u015f, Arda i\u00e7in uygun yeni bir bebek yata\u011f\u0131 haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Duru ise babas\u0131n\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 be\u015fi\u011fin \u00fczerine kendi elleriyle \u00e7izdi\u011fi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir resim b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nResimde d\u00f6rt ki\u015fi vard\u0131. Ben, Duru, Arda ve babalar\u0131.\n\nEn \u00fcstte de kocaman bir g\u00fcne\u015f \u00e7izmi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cBabam bizi g\u00f6rebilsin diye,\u201d dedi.\n\nVedia Han\u0131m arkamda sessizce a\u011fl\u0131yordu.\n\nO ak\u015fam hep birlikte sofraya oturduk. Duru karde\u015finin minicik parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 sayarken Vedia Han\u0131m bize g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek bak\u0131yordu.\n\nBir ara elini tuttum.\n\n\u201cSize verdi\u011fim 218 dolar\u0131n hayat\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirece\u011fini hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmezdim,\u201d dedim.\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131.\n\n\u201cParan\u0131n de\u011fil k\u0131z\u0131m, a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131n kap\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011fi bir hayat bu.\u201d\n\nSonra bana y\u0131llar \u00f6nce e\u015fini kaybetti\u011finde ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlatt\u0131. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre yan\u0131nda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ard\u0131ndan herkesin kendi hayat\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yledi. En zor g\u00fcnlerinde birinin gelip yaln\u0131zca \u00e7ay i\u00e7mesini bile ne kadar \u00e7ok istedi\u011fini hat\u0131rl\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201cBazen insan\u0131n ihtiyac\u0131 olan \u015fey b\u00fcy\u00fck bir yard\u0131m de\u011fil,\u201d dedi. \u201cBirinin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7almas\u0131.\u201d\n\nO gece Duru uyuduktan sonra Arda&#8217;y\u0131 kuca\u011f\u0131ma ald\u0131m. Pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcne oturup kar\u015f\u0131daki eve bakt\u0131m. Vedia Han\u0131m&#8217;\u0131n salonunda \u0131\u015f\u0131k yan\u0131yordu. Perdenin arkas\u0131nda kedisinin g\u00f6lgesi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.\n\n\u00dc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce Kerem&#8217;i topra\u011fa verdi\u011fimde hayat\u0131m\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Oysa karanl\u0131k bazen her \u015feyin bitti\u011fi anlam\u0131na gelmiyordu. Bazen yaln\u0131zca birinin gelip kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7almas\u0131n\u0131 bekliyordu.\n\nErtesi sabah Duru pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcne gelip kar\u015f\u0131 eve bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnne, Vedia teyzenin \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 yan\u0131yor!\u201d diye sevin\u00e7le seslendi.\n\nYan\u0131na gidip omzuna sar\u0131ld\u0131m.\n\n\u201cEvet can\u0131m,\u201d dedim. \u201cArt\u0131k yan\u0131yor.\u201d\n\nSonra i\u00e7eride uyuyan o\u011fluma, duvar\u0131n yan\u0131nda duran Kerem&#8217;in yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 be\u015fi\u011fe ve kar\u015f\u0131 evin \u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 penceresine bakt\u0131m. Kaybettiklerimi geri getiremezdim. Ama hayat\u0131mda kalan sevgiyi b\u00fcy\u00fctebilirdim. O sabah anlad\u0131m ki aile bazen ayn\u0131 soyad\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan insanlardan de\u011fil, en karanl\u0131k gecende birbirinin \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrmemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan kalplerden olu\u015fuyordu.\n\n\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2040,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2039","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2039","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2039"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2039\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2042,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2039\/revisions\/2042"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2040"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2039"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2039"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2039"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}