{"id":2296,"date":"2026-10-30T21:55:03","date_gmt":"2026-10-30T21:55:03","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=2296"},"modified":"2026-10-30T21:55:03","modified_gmt":"2026-10-30T21:55:03","slug":"kocam-telefonu-kapattigini-sanarak-konusmaya-devam-etti-benim-hakkimda-gercekten-ne-dusundugunu-duydugum-anda-ona-hayati-boyunca-unutamayacagi-kucuk-bir-surpriz-hazirlamaya-karar-verdim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kocam-telefonu-kapattigini-sanarak-konusmaya-devam-etti-benim-hakkimda-gercekten-ne-dusundugunu-duydugum-anda-ona-hayati-boyunca-unutamayacagi-kucuk-bir-surpriz-hazirlamaya-karar-verdim\/","title":{"rendered":"KOCAM TELEFONU KAPATTI\u011eINI SANARAK KONU\u015eMAYA DEVAM ETT\u0130 \u2014 BEN\u0130M HAKKIMDA GER\u00c7EKTEN NE D\u00dc\u015e\u00dcND\u00dc\u011e\u00dcN\u00dc DUYDU\u011eUM ANDA, ONA HAYATI BOYUNCA UNUTAMAYACA\u011eI K\u00dc\u00c7\u00dcK B\u0130R S\u00dcRPR\u0130Z HAZIRLAMAYA KARAR VERD\u0130M."},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-2296 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kocam-telefonu-kapattigini-sanarak-konusmaya-devam-etti-benim-hakkimda-gercekten-ne-dusundugunu-duydugum-anda-ona-hayati-boyunca-unutamayacagi-kucuk-bir-surpriz-hazirlamaya-karar-verdim\/836434t-4\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/836434t-3-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-2297\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-2297'>\n\t\t\t\t\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc paketin \u00fczerinde yaln\u0131zca \u00fc\u00e7 kelime yaz\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201cSevgili kocam Onur\u2026\u201d\n\nBir an durup masadaki herkese bakt\u0131m.\n\nSonra \u00e7antamdan haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck paketi \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p onun \u00f6n\u00fcne b\u0131rakt\u0131m.\n\nOnur pakete bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn rengi de\u011fi\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc paketin \u00fczerine kendi el yaz\u0131mla yaln\u0131zca \u00fc\u00e7 kelime yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m:\n\n\u201cGe\u00e7 saatteki toplant\u0131lar\u0131n.\u201d\n\nMasadaki konu\u015fmalar bir anda kesildi.\n\nOnur \u00f6nce pakete, sonra bana bakt\u0131.\n\nKa\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131ld\u0131.\n\n\u201cBu ne demek?\u201d diye sordu.\n\nSesindeki gerginli\u011fi yaln\u0131zca ben de\u011fil, masadaki herkes fark etmi\u015fti.\n\nBen sandalyeme oturmad\u0131m.\n\nAyakta kalmaya devam ettim.\n\n\u201cBence a\u00e7,\u201d dedim.\n\nOnur\u2019un annesi merakla o\u011fluna bakt\u0131.\n\nBabas\u0131 \u00e7atal\u0131n\u0131 taba\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\nBenim annem ise y\u00fcz\u00fcmdeki ifadeden bunun s\u0131radan bir y\u0131l d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc hediyesi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oktan anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nOnur a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r paketin ipini \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fc.\n\n\u0130\u00e7inden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ses kay\u0131t cihaz\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nCihaz\u0131n yan\u0131nda da birka\u00e7 foto\u011fraf vard\u0131.\n\nOnur foto\u011fraflar\u0131 eline ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda nefesi kesilir gibi oldu.\n\nBunlar onun ofisinin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki kafede ba\u015fka bir kad\u0131nla otururken \u00e7ekilmi\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerdi.\n\nBir foto\u011frafta kad\u0131n\u0131n elini tutuyordu.\n\nDi\u011ferinde ona sar\u0131l\u0131yordu.\n\nSon foto\u011frafta ise ikisi, Onur\u2019un arabas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda birbirlerine fazlas\u0131yla yak\u0131n duruyordu.\n\nOnur birden aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunlar\u0131 nereden buldun?\u201d\n\nG\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.\n\n\u201cDemek ilk sorun bu oldu?\u201d\n\n\u201cBeni mi takip ettirdin?\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d\n\nBir ad\u0131m ona yakla\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u201cSen zaten kendini ele verdin.\u201d\n\nOnur hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi.\n\nMasadakilerin bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 art\u0131k tamamen \u00fczerimizdeydi.\n\nBen ses kay\u0131t cihaz\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cAlt\u0131 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce beni arad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda telefonu kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n.\u201d\n\nOnur\u2019un y\u00fcz\u00fcnden b\u00fct\u00fcn kan \u00e7ekildi.\n\nO an, neyi duydu\u011fumu anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordum.\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e iki yana sallad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBak, bunu burada konu\u015fmayal\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cTam tersine,\u201d dedim. \u201cBence tam da burada konu\u015fmal\u0131y\u0131z. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc iki y\u0131ld\u0131r evlili\u011fimizi sadece bana kar\u015f\u0131 de\u011fil, ailelerimize kar\u015f\u0131 da kusursuzmu\u015f gibi g\u00f6sterdin.\u201d\n\nOnur\u2019un annesi endi\u015feyle sordu:\n\n\u201cNe olmu\u015f?\u201d\n\nCevap vermeden \u00f6nce cihaz\u0131n d\u00fc\u011fmesine bast\u0131m.\n\n\u00d6nce k\u0131sa bir sessizlik oldu.\n\nSonra Onur\u2019un sesi odan\u0131n i\u00e7inde yank\u0131land\u0131.\n\n\u201cBeni \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rt\u0131yor. S\u00fcrekli bebe\u011fin foto\u011fraflar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6nderiyor, ne zaman eve gelece\u011fimi soruyor\u2026\u201d\n\nOnur aniden cihaz\u0131 elimden almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nGeri \u00e7ekildim.\n\nBabas\u0131 aya\u011fa kalk\u0131p onun kolundan tuttu.\n\n\u201cYerinde dur.\u201d\n\nKay\u0131t devam etti.\n\n\u201cTabii ki ondan b\u0131kt\u0131m. Art\u0131k yan\u0131na bile yakla\u015fmak istemiyorum. Biraz daha sabret. Ondan bo\u015fanaca\u011f\u0131m, sonra da seninle evlenece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nArd\u0131ndan kad\u0131n sesi ve belli belirsiz bir \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fme sesi duyuldu.\n\nOda buz gibi sessizli\u011fe g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc.\n\nOnur\u2019un annesi ellerini a\u011fz\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.\n\nBenim babam g\u00f6zlerini kapat\u0131p derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\nOnur ise birka\u00e7 saniye boyunca kimseye bakamad\u0131.\n\nSonra \u00f6fkeyle bana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cBunu kaydetmen yasal m\u0131, de\u011fil mi bilmiyorum ama\u2014\u201d\n\n\u201cKaydetmedim.\u201d\n\nS\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc kestim.\n\n\u201cTelefonda duydum. Sonras\u0131nda da ger\u00e7ekleri \u00f6\u011frenmek i\u00e7in bakt\u0131m. Foto\u011fraflar\u0131 da o y\u00fczden \u00e7ektirdim.\u201d\n\nOnur bir an durdu.\n\n\u201cKim?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00d6nemli de\u011fil.\u201d\n\nAsl\u0131nda \u00f6nemliydi.\n\nFoto\u011fraflar\u0131 \u00e7eken ki\u015fi, ablam\u0131n arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6zel ara\u015ft\u0131rma i\u015fi yapan e\u015fiydi.\n\nOnur\u2019un hayat\u0131n\u0131 aylarca kurcalamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nSadece \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn boyunca s\u00f6ylediklerinin do\u011fru olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamak istemi\u015ftim.\n\nVe ne yaz\u0131k ki s\u00f6yledi\u011fi her \u015fey do\u011fru \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nKad\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131 Melisti.\n\nOnur\u2019un \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015firkette sat\u0131\u015f departman\u0131ndayd\u0131.\n\n\u0130li\u015fkileri d\u00f6rt ayd\u0131r s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu.\n\n\u00dcstelik mesele yaln\u0131zca sadakatsizlik de\u011fildi.\n\nOnur, Melis\u2019e benimle bo\u015fanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti.\n\nHatta ortak hesab\u0131m\u0131zdaki paran\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 gizlice ba\u015fka bir hesaba aktarmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nAs\u0131l s\u00fcrprizim de buydu.\n\nMasadan bir dosya ald\u0131m ve Onur\u2019un \u00f6n\u00fcne b\u0131rakt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBu da ikinci hediyen.\u201d\n\nOnur dosyay\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\n\u0130lk sayfay\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce bana bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBo\u015fanma dilek\u00e7esi mi?\u201d\n\n\u201cEvet.\u201d\n\nAnnesi sessizce a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nOnur\u2019un sesi y\u00fckseldi.\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon portrait'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kocam-telefonu-kapattigini-sanarak-konusmaya-devam-etti-benim-hakkimda-gercekten-ne-dusundugunu-duydugum-anda-ona-hayati-boyunca-unutamayacagi-kucuk-bir-surpriz-hazirlamaya-karar-verdim\/imgonlin2\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/imgonlin2-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-2298\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-2298'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201cSen kafay\u0131 m\u0131 yedin? Bir konu\u015fmay\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015f anlay\u0131p yuva m\u0131 y\u0131kacaks\u0131n?\u201d\n\nBu c\u00fcmleyi duyar duymaz i\u00e7imdeki son teredd\u00fct de kayboldu.\n\n\u201cYanl\u0131\u015f m\u0131 anlad\u0131m?\u201d\n\n\u201cBen sinirliydim.\u201d\n\n\u201cBa\u015fka bir kad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6perken mi sinirliydin?\u201d\n\nOnur sustu.\n\n\u201cOnunla evlenece\u011fini s\u00f6ylerken de mi sinirliydin?\u201d\n\nYine cevap vermedi.\n\n\u201cOrtak hesab\u0131m\u0131zdan para aktar\u0131rken?\u201d\n\nBu kez babas\u0131 o\u011fluna d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cNe paras\u0131?\u201d\n\nOnur\u2019un y\u00fcz\u00fc de\u011fi\u015fti.\n\n\u0130\u015fte bunu ailesinin bilmesini istemiyordu.\n\nDosyadan banka hareketlerinin \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m.\n\n\u201cSon iki ayda toplam y\u00fcz seksen bin liray\u0131 ba\u015fka bir hesaba aktarm\u0131\u015f.\u201d\n\nOnur\u2019un babas\u0131 k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 elimden ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cBu do\u011fru mu?\u201d\n\n\u201cBenim paramd\u0131.\u201d\n\n\u201cOrtak hesapt\u0131,\u201d dedim.\n\n\u201cParan\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funu ben kazand\u0131m.\u201d\n\nOnur bunu s\u00f6yler s\u00f6ylemez annesi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.\n\n\u201cPeki \u00e7ocu\u011funa kim bak\u0131yor?\u201d\n\nOnur cevap vermedi.\n\nKad\u0131n devam etti:\n\n\u201cKar\u0131n do\u011fumdan yeni \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f. Bebe\u011finiz geceleri uyumuyor. Sen d\u0131\u015far\u0131da ba\u015fka bir kad\u0131nla geziyorsun, sonra da para benim diyorsun.\u201d\n\n\u0130lk kez biri benim s\u00f6ylemek zorunda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feyleri onun y\u00fcz\u00fcne s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu.\n\nGarip bir rahatlama hissettim.\n\nOnur bana do\u011fru yakla\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunu d\u00fczeltiriz.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m.\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d\n\n\u201c\u0130ki y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fi b\u00f6yle \u00e7\u00f6pe atamazs\u0131n.\u201d\n\n\u201cBen atmad\u0131m.\u201d\n\nSesim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden \u00e7ok daha sakindi.\n\n\u201cSen aylar \u00f6nce atm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n. Ben sadece \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fcn h\u00e2l\u00e2 evin ortas\u0131nda durmas\u0131na izin vermiyorum.\u201d\n\nMasadakilerden kimse konu\u015fmad\u0131.\n\nOnur\u2019un bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 sertle\u015fti.\n\n\u201c\u0130dil\u2019i benden alamazs\u0131n.\u201d\n\nBu c\u00fcmleyi bekliyordum.\n\n\u201cBen senden \u0130dil\u2019i alm\u0131yorum.\u201d\n\n\u201cBo\u015fan\u0131rsan g\u00f6receksin.\u201d\n\n\u201cG\u00f6rece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nO an ilk defa ger\u00e7ekten sinirlendi.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc korkmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 fark etmi\u015fti.\n\nBen g\u00fcnlerdir avukatla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, ortak hesaptaki hareketleri belgelemi\u015f, do\u011fum iznim boyunca yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn harcamalar\u0131 kaydetmi\u015f ve velayet konusunda neler yapmam gerekti\u011fini \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftim.\n\nOnur benim a\u011flayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ba\u011f\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ona yalvaraca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\n\nBen ise haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBu gece annemde kalaca\u011f\u0131m,\u201d dedim. \u201c\u0130dil de benimle gelecek. Avukatlar\u0131m\u0131z bundan sonras\u0131n\u0131 konu\u015fur.\u201d\n\nOnur\u2019un y\u00fcz\u00fcnde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmseyen bir ifade belirdi.\n\n\u201cMelis\u2019le aramda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn gibi ciddi bir \u015fey yok.\u201d\n\nBir an ona bakt\u0131m.\n\nSonra istemeden g\u00fcld\u00fcm.\n\n\u201cBe\u015f dakika \u00f6nce onunla evlenece\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordun.\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00d6yle demek zorundayd\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cNeden?\u201d\n\nCevap veremedi.\n\n\u0130\u015fte o anda kap\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131.\n\nHerkes birbirine bakt\u0131.\n\nOnur ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131.\n\n\u201cKim geldi?\u201d\n\n\u201cSon misafirim.\u201d\n\nKap\u0131ya y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm.\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda d\u0131\u015far\u0131da Melis duruyordu.\n\nOnur\u2019un g\u00f6zleri neredeyse yuvalar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131.\n\nMelis i\u00e7eri girmedi.\n\nElinde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir zarf vard\u0131.\n\nBana uzatt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBen bunu verip gidece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nOnur h\u0131zla kap\u0131ya y\u00f6neldi.\n\n\u201cSenin burada ne i\u015fin var?\u201d\n\nMelis ona bakmad\u0131 bile.\n\nBana d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cBana seninle bo\u015fanma s\u00fcrecinde oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. Ayr\u0131 odalarda yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131, sadece bebe\u011finiz y\u00fcz\u00fcnden ayn\u0131 evde kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 anlatt\u0131.\u201d\n\nOnur araya girmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cMelis, sa\u00e7malama.\u201d\n\nKad\u0131n ilk kez ona bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBana da yalan s\u00f6yledin.\u201d\n\nSonra zarf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\n\u0130\u00e7inden birka\u00e7 mesaj \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.\n\nOnur\u2019un ona g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi mesajlard\u0131.\n\nBaz\u0131lar\u0131nda beni \u201cyak\u0131nda eski kar\u0131m olacak\u201d diye anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nBaz\u0131lar\u0131nda ise bo\u015fand\u0131ktan sonra birlikte ev tutacaklar\u0131n\u0131 yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nAma beni as\u0131l \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtan son mesajd\u0131.\n\nMelis\u2019e \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce \u015f\u00f6yle yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131:\n\n\u201cBiraz daha sabret. Y\u0131l d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcnde ona bo\u015fanmak istedi\u011fimi s\u00f6yleyece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nK\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 uzun s\u00fcre elimde tuttum.\n\nSonra Onur\u2019a bakt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cDemek senin de bana s\u00fcrprizin varm\u0131\u015f.\u201d\n\nKimse g\u00fclmedi.\n\nOnur\u2019un omuzlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\n\n\u0130lk kez b\u00fct\u00fcn o kendinden emin tavr\u0131 yok olmu\u015ftu.\n\nMelis sessizce \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nOnur arkas\u0131ndan gitmedi.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k ka\u00e7acak hi\u00e7bir yeri kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nBen odadan \u0130dil\u2019in \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131m.\n\nAnnem montumu uzatt\u0131.\n\nKap\u0131ya geldi\u011fimde Onur arkamdan seslendi.\n\n\u201cGer\u00e7ekten gidiyor musun?\u201d\n\nD\u00f6nd\u00fcm.\n\nY\u00fcz\u00fcnde ilk kez korku vard\u0131.\n\nBelki ailesini kaybetmekten korkuyordu.\n\nBelki d\u00fczenini.\n\nBelki de kontrol\u00fc.\n\nAma art\u0131k bunun cevab\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmeye ihtiyac\u0131m yoktu.\n\n\u201cAlt\u0131 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce telefonda bir \u015fey s\u00f6yledin,\u201d dedim.\n\n\u201cNe?\u201d\n\n\u201cBeni rahat b\u0131rakmam\u0131 istedi\u011fini.\u201d\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\n\u201cArt\u0131k b\u0131rak\u0131yorum.\u201d\n\nO gece annemin evinde \u0130dil\u2019i kuca\u011f\u0131ma al\u0131p saatlerce uyumas\u0131n\u0131 izledim.\n\nA\u011flad\u0131m m\u0131?\n\nEvet.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc iki y\u0131ll\u0131k evlili\u011fim bitmi\u015fti.\n\nSevdi\u011fimi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m adam\u0131n asl\u0131nda kim oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftim.\n\nAma garip bir \u015fekilde i\u00e7imde yaln\u0131zca ac\u0131 yoktu.\n\nBir rahatlama da vard\u0131.\n\nAylar boyunca Onur\u2019un eve neden ge\u00e7 geldi\u011fini, neden benden uzakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, neden kendimi s\u00fcrekli yetersiz hissetti\u011fimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.\n\nO gece ilk kez cevab\u0131n ben olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131m.\n\n\u00dc\u00e7 ay sonra bo\u015fanma s\u00fcrecimiz ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nOnur birka\u00e7 kez bar\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 denedi.\n\n\u00c7i\u00e7ekler g\u00f6nderdi.\n\nUzun mesajlar yazd\u0131.\n\n\u201cHata yapt\u0131m,\u201d dedi.\n\n\u201cAilemi kaybetti\u011fim i\u00e7in pi\u015fman\u0131m,\u201d dedi.\n\nAma hi\u00e7bir mesaj\u0131nda beni k\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in \u00fczg\u00fcn oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemedi.\n\nSadece kaybettikleri i\u00e7in \u00fczg\u00fcnd\u00fc.\n\n\u0130\u015fte karar\u0131m\u0131 kesinle\u015ftiren de bu oldu.\n\nBir y\u0131l sonra \u0130dil\u2019in ilk do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kutlama yapt\u0131k.\n\nPastan\u0131n mumunu onun minicik eliyle birlikte \u00fcflerken telefonum \u00e7ald\u0131.\n\nEkranda Onur\u2019un ad\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\nA\u00e7mad\u0131m.\n\nTelefonu sessize al\u0131p k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131m.\n\n\u0130dil kahkahalar atarak pastan\u0131n kremas\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcne bula\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131.\n\nBen de uzun zaman sonra ger\u00e7ekten i\u00e7ten bir \u015fekilde g\u00fcld\u00fcm.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bazen bir telefonun yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla a\u00e7\u0131k kalmas\u0131 hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 mahvetmez.\n\nTam tersine, zaten \u00e7oktan par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f olan bir hayat\u0131n ger\u00e7e\u011fini size g\u00f6sterir.\n\nVe bazen insan\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 en g\u00fczel y\u0131l d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc hediyesi, kendisine kimin ihanet etti\u011fini \u00f6\u011frenmek de\u011fil\u2026\n\nBir daha kimsenin sevgisi u\u011fruna kendi de\u011ferinden vazge\u00e7meyece\u011fini anlamakt\u0131r.\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' 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