{"id":695,"date":"2026-09-21T19:25:29","date_gmt":"2026-09-21T19:25:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=695"},"modified":"2026-09-21T19:25:29","modified_gmt":"2026-09-21T19:25:29","slug":"olmek-uzere-olan-karim-son-istegi-olarak-ilk-askimi-bulmami-istedi-nedenini-ogrendigimde-dizlerimin-bagi-cozuldu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/olmek-uzere-olan-karim-son-istegi-olarak-ilk-askimi-bulmami-istedi-nedenini-ogrendigimde-dizlerimin-bagi-cozuldu\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00d6LMEK \u00dcZERE OLAN KARIM SON \u0130STE\u011e\u0130 OLARAK \u0130LK A\u015eKIMI BULMAMI \u0130STED\u0130 \u2014 NEDEN\u0130N\u0130 \u00d6\u011eREND\u0130\u011e\u0130MDE D\u0130ZLER\u0130M\u0130N BA\u011eI \u00c7\u00d6Z\u00dcLD\u00dc."},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-695 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/olmek-uzere-olan-karim-son-istegi-olarak-ilk-askimi-bulmami-istedi-nedenini-ogrendigimde-dizlerimin-bagi-cozuldu\/124126t-3\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/124126t-2-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-696\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-696'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201c\u0130\u00e7eri gel. Otursan iyi olur. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sana anlataca\u011f\u0131m \u015fey, yaln\u0131zca Jale hakk\u0131nda bildiklerini de\u011fil\u2026 kendi ge\u00e7mi\u015fin hakk\u0131nda bildi\u011fin her \u015feyi de\u011fi\u015ftirecek.\u201d\n\nNalan\u2019\u0131n bu s\u00f6zleriyle birlikte bo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.\n\nKap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde birka\u00e7 saniye \u00f6ylece kald\u0131m.\n\nSonra i\u00e7eri girdim.\n\nEv k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fc ama s\u0131cak g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Duvarlarda eski aile foto\u011fraflar\u0131, kitaplarla dolu raflar ve pencerenin yan\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e bir koltuk vard\u0131.\n\nNalan beni salona g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.\n\nEllerim titriyordu.\n\n\u201cJale seni tan\u0131yor muydu?\u201d diye sordum.\n\nNalan kar\u015f\u0131mdaki koltu\u011fa oturdu.\n\n\u201cSand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7ok daha iyi tan\u0131yordu.\u201d\n\nBu cevap i\u00e7imi daha da huzursuz etti.\n\n\u201cNe demek istiyorsun?\u201d\n\nNalan bir s\u00fcre konu\u015fmad\u0131.\n\nSonra g\u00f6zlerini pencereye \u00e7evirdi.\n\n\u201cSen \u015fehirden ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan yakla\u015f\u0131k iki ay sonra hamile oldu\u011fumu \u00f6\u011frendim.\u201d\n\nSanki biri g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm\u00fcn ortas\u0131na yumruk atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nNefesim kesildi.\n\n\u201cNe?\u201d\n\nNalan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f\u00e7a sallad\u0131.\n\n\u201cEvet. \u00c7ocuk sendendi.\u201d\n\nAya\u011fa kalkt\u0131m.\n\nOdan\u0131n i\u00e7inde birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m att\u0131m ama ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki zemin sanki hareket ediyordu.\n\n\u201cBu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil. Bana hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedin.\u201d\n\n\u201cS\u00f6ylemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\u201d\n\nD\u00f6nd\u00fcm.\n\nNalan\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zleri dolmu\u015ftu.\n\n\u201cSeni arad\u0131m. Eski adresine mektup g\u00f6nderdim. \u00dcniversitedeki arkada\u015flar\u0131na ula\u015ft\u0131m. Sonunda \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015firketi \u00f6\u011frendim. Bir g\u00fcn de kalk\u0131p seni bulmaya geldim.\u201d\n\nKalbim \u00f6yle h\u0131zl\u0131 at\u0131yordu ki sesini duyabiliyordum.\n\n\u201cPeki?\u201d\n\n\u201cJale\u2019yle orada kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131m.\u201d\n\nO an zihnim y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesine gitti.\n\nJale\u2019yle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk g\u00fcnlere.\n\nBen yeni i\u015fe ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\nYaln\u0131zd\u0131m.\n\nNalan\u2019\u0131n beni terk etti\u011fine inan\u0131yordum.\n\nJale ayn\u0131 \u015firkette \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.\n\nBana yakla\u015fan, zor zaman\u0131mda yan\u0131mda olan oydu.\n\nYakla\u015f\u0131k bir y\u0131l sonra evlenmi\u015ftik.\n\nNalan masan\u0131n \u00fczerindeki ellerine bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cO zamanlar Jale\u2019yi tan\u0131m\u0131yordum. Resepsiyonda seni sordum. O da yan\u0131m\u0131za geldi. Senin ni\u015fanl\u0131n oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\n\u201cBen o zaman ni\u015fanl\u0131 de\u011fildim.\u201d\n\n\u201cBiliyorum.\u201d\n\nSesimdeki \u00f6fke y\u00fckselmi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cNalan, ne olduysa a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a s\u00f6yle.\u201d\n\nDerin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cOna hamile oldu\u011fumu s\u00f6yledim. Seni g\u00f6rmem gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yledim. Jale beni binan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki kafeye g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.\u201d\n\nYutkundu.\n\n\u201cVe bana senin art\u0131k beni istemedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\n\u0130\u00e7im buz kesti.\n\n\u201cNe?\u201d\n\n\u201cSenin benimle ilgili konu\u015ftu\u011funu, ge\u00e7mi\u015fi kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve yeni bir hayata ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Hatta bebe\u011fin senden oldu\u011funa inanmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da s\u00f6yledi\u011fini anlatt\u0131.\u201d\n\n\u201cBen b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedim!\u201d\n\nSesim evin i\u00e7inde yank\u0131land\u0131.\n\nNalan g\u00f6zlerini kapatt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunu \u015fimdi biliyorum.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 iki elimin aras\u0131na ald\u0131m.\n\nK\u0131rk y\u0131l boyunca Nalan\u2019\u0131n beni reddetti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.\n\nO ise benim onu ve \u00e7ocu\u011fumuzu reddetti\u011fime inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cPeki neden gidip do\u011frudan beni bulmad\u0131n?\u201d\n\n\u201cDenedim.\u201d\n\nBu kez Nalan kalkt\u0131.\n\nBir \u00e7ekmeceyi a\u00e7\u0131p sararm\u0131\u015f bir zarf \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/olmek-uzere-olan-karim-son-istegi-olarak-ilk-askimi-bulmami-istedi-nedenini-ogrendigimde-dizlerimin-bagi-cozuldu\/834623r-2\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/834623r-1-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-697\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-697'>\n\t\t\t\tZarf\u0131n \u00fczerinde benim ismim yaz\u0131yordu.\n\nAlt\u0131nda y\u0131llar \u00f6nce \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015firketin adresi vard\u0131.\n\n\u201cBu mektubun bir kopyas\u0131.\u201d\n\nEllerim titreyerek zarf\u0131 ald\u0131m.\n\nNalan devam etti.\n\n\u201cAsl\u0131n\u0131 \u015firketine g\u00f6nderdim. \u0130\u00e7ine telefon numaram\u0131, kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m adresi ve hamile oldu\u011fumu yazd\u0131m.\u201d\n\n\u201cMektup bana hi\u00e7 ula\u015fmad\u0131.\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Jale alm\u0131\u015f.\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\nNalan\u2019\u0131n s\u00f6yledi\u011fi o tek c\u00fcmle, kar\u0131mla ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim otuz alt\u0131 y\u0131l\u0131n \u00fczerine karanl\u0131k bir g\u00f6lge d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cNereden biliyorsun?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc y\u0131llar sonra bana kendisi s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\nDonup kald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cJale seninle tekrar m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc?\u201d\n\nNalan ba\u015f\u0131yla onaylad\u0131.\n\n\u201cYakla\u015f\u0131k on be\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6nce.\u201d\n\n\u0130nanam\u0131yordum.\n\n\u201cBana neden s\u00f6ylemediniz?\u201d\n\nNalan aya\u011fa kalk\u0131p koridordaki dolaba y\u00f6neldi.\n\nBirka\u00e7 saniye sonra elinde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck metal bir kutuyla geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\nKutuyu masan\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\n\u0130\u00e7inden eski foto\u011fraflar ve bir mektup \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.\n\n\u201cJale bir g\u00fcn kap\u0131ma geldi. A\u011fl\u0131yordu. O mektubu y\u0131llar \u00f6nce \u015firketin posta b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 itiraf etti.\u201d\n\n\u201cNas\u0131l?\u201d\n\n\u201cOrada \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir arkada\u015f\u0131ndan rica etmi\u015f. Zarf\u0131n \u00fczerinde senin ad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce mektubu alm\u0131\u015f. Okumu\u015f. Sonra da yok etmi\u015f.\u201d\n\nSandalyeye \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fcm.\n\n\u00d6fkeliydim.\n\nAma ayn\u0131 zamanda inan\u0131lmaz bir ac\u0131 hissediyordum.\n\n\u201cBunu neden yapt\u0131?\u201d\n\nNalan bana uzun uzun bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sana \u00e2\u015f\u0131kt\u0131.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zlerimi kapatt\u0131m.\n\nBir insan\u0131n sevgisinin b\u00f6yle bir \u015feye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015febilece\u011fini kabullenmek istemiyordum.\n\n\u201cBeni kaybetmekten korkmu\u015f,\u201d dedi Nalan. \u201cBen seni bulursam onun hayat\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f.\u201d\n\n\u201cNalan\u2026 \u00e7ocuk?\u201d\n\nAs\u0131l soruyu nihayet sorabilmi\u015ftim.\n\nNalan\u2019\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc de\u011fi\u015fti.\n\nG\u00f6zleri kap\u0131ya kayd\u0131.\n\nTam o s\u0131rada d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bir araban\u0131n sesi geldi.\n\n\u201c\u00c7ocu\u011fumuz nerede?\u201d\n\nNalan cevap vermedi.\n\nKap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.\n\nKoridordan bir erkek sesi duyuldu.\n\n\u201cAnne, geldim.\u201d\n\nKalbim duracak gibi oldu.\n\nNalan\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar akmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBuraya gel, Caner.\u201d\n\nK\u0131rkl\u0131 ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir adam salona girdi.\n\nBeni g\u00f6r\u00fcnce durdu.\n\nUzun boyluydu.\n\nSa\u00e7lar\u0131na hafif k\u0131r d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\n\nAma ben y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m anda nefes alamad\u0131m.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kar\u015f\u0131mda yabanc\u0131 biri yoktu.\n\nGen\u00e7li\u011fimin aynas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyordum.\n\nKa\u015flar\u0131.\n\n\u00c7enesi.\n\nG\u00fclmedi\u011fi zaman dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 o sert \u015fekil.\n\nHatta sol yana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kenar\u0131ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ukur bile.\n\nBenimkiyle ayn\u0131yd\u0131.\n\nCaner bana, sonra annesine bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cNe oluyor?\u201d\n\nNalan aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.\n\n\u201cCaner\u2026 y\u0131llard\u0131r sana baban\u0131n seni istemedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledim.\u201d\n\nAdam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc gerildi.\n\n\u201cEvet.\u201d\n\nNalan a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBu do\u011fru de\u011fildi.\u201d\n\nCaner bana bakt\u0131.\n\nBen aya\u011fa kalkmak istedim ama dizlerim beni ta\u015f\u0131mad\u0131.\n\nGer\u00e7ekten de dizlerimin ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\n\nNalan titreyen bir sesle:\n\n\u201cBaban seni hi\u00e7 \u00f6\u011frenmedi,\u201d dedi.\n\nCaner\u2019in g\u00f6zleri b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.\n\nSonra bana bakt\u0131.\n\nUzun s\u00fcre ikimiz de konu\u015famad\u0131k.\n\nSonunda g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle:\n\n\u201cBen\u2026 senin baban\u0131m,\u201d dedim.\n\nCaner geri \u00e7ekildi.\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r.\u201d\n\n\u201cBiliyorum. Buna inanmak zorunda de\u011filsin.\u201d\n\n\u201cAnnemi hamileyken b\u0131rak\u0131p gitti\u011fini s\u00f6ylediler.\u201d\n\nNalan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.\n\n\u201cO da \u00f6yle san\u0131yordu.\u201d\n\nCaner \u00f6fkeyle annesine d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cKim s\u00f6ylediler?\u201d\n\n\u201cJale.\u201d\n\nOdan\u0131n i\u00e7ine a\u011f\u0131r bir sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.\n\nSonraki iki saat boyunca Nalan her \u015feyi anlatt\u0131.\n\nJale\u2019nin y\u0131llar sonra pi\u015fmanl\u0131k i\u00e7inde geli\u015fini.\n\nCaner\u2019i uzaktan birka\u00e7 kez g\u00f6rmek istedi\u011fini.\n\nAma Nalan\u2019\u0131n buna izin vermedi\u011fini.\n\nJale\u2019nin sonunda kendisine bir s\u00f6z verdi\u011fini.\n\n\u201cBir g\u00fcn ger\u00e7e\u011fi ona anlataca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d\n\nFakat y\u0131llar ge\u00e7mi\u015fti.\n\nJale cesaret edememi\u015fti.\n\nTa ki \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00f6\u015fe\u011fine yatana kadar.\n\nNalan bana son mektubu uzatt\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunu ge\u00e7en ay g\u00f6nderdi.\u201d\n\nZarf\u0131n \u00fczerinde Jale\u2019nin el yaz\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\nA\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\n\u0130\u00e7inde yaln\u0131zca birka\u00e7 sat\u0131r vard\u0131.\n\n\u201cBiliyorum, affedilmeyi hak etmiyorum. Onun hayat\u0131ndan bir evlat \u00e7ald\u0131m. Senin hayat\u0131ndan da bir baba. Bunu geri getiremem. Ama \u00f6lmeden \u00f6nce yapabilece\u011fim tek \u015fey, sizi birbirinize g\u00f6t\u00fcrmek. Ne olur ona ger\u00e7e\u011fi anlat.\u201d\n\nMektubu okurken g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 durduramad\u0131m.\n\nJale\u2019ye \u00f6fkeliydim.\n\nBelki hayat\u0131m boyunca da tamamen affedemeyecektim.\n\nAma onun son g\u00fcnlerinde neden y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 art\u0131k anl\u0131yordum.\n\nCaner h\u00e2l\u00e2 kar\u015f\u0131mda duruyordu.\n\nOna yakla\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u201cSenden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey istemiyorum,\u201d dedim. \u201cBeni baban olarak kabul etmek zorunda de\u011filsin. K\u0131rk y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 geri veremem. \u00c7ocuklu\u011funda yan\u0131nda olamad\u0131m. \u0130lk bisikletini s\u00fcrerken seni tutamad\u0131m. Mezuniyetlerinde orada de\u011fildim. Bunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7birini de\u011fi\u015ftiremem.\u201d\n\nSesim titredi.\n\n\u201cAma bundan sonra izin verirsen hayat\u0131nda olmak isterim.\u201d\n\nCaner\u2019in g\u00f6zleri doldu.\n\nUzun s\u00fcre y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131.\n\nSonra beklemedi\u011fim bir \u015fey yapt\u0131.\n\nCebinden telefonunu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir k\u0131z\u0131n foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6sterdi.\n\n\u201cBu benim k\u0131z\u0131m, Ada.\u201d\n\nFoto\u011frafa bakarken yeniden a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.\n\nTorunum vard\u0131.\n\nVe onun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bile habersizdim.\n\nCaner ac\u0131 bir tebess\u00fcmle:\n\n\u201cSan\u0131r\u0131m \u00f6nce kahve i\u00e7mekle ba\u015flayabiliriz,\u201d dedi.\n\nO g\u00fcn Nalan\u2019\u0131n evinden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda hayat\u0131m ayn\u0131 hayat de\u011fildi.\n\nJale\u2019nin yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 do\u011fru bulmad\u0131m.\n\nOnun y\u00fcz\u00fcnden kaybetti\u011fim y\u0131llar geri gelmeyecekti.\n\nAma zamanla \u015funu anlad\u0131m:\n\nAffetmek, yap\u0131lan \u015feyi unutmak ya da hakl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmak de\u011fildi.\n\nBazen affetmek, ge\u00e7mi\u015fin geri kalan hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 da \u00e7almas\u0131na izin vermemekti.\n\nAylar sonra Caner\u2019le ilk kez birlikte Jale\u2019nin mezar\u0131na gittik.\n\nMezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde uzun s\u00fcre sessizce durdum.\n\nSonra cebimden onun son mektubunu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m.\n\n\u201cYapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftiremiyorum, Jale,\u201d dedim. \u201cAma art\u0131k ger\u00e7e\u011fi biliyorum.\u201d\n\nCaner birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m geride bekliyordu.\n\nArkam\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp ona bakt\u0131m.\n\nSonra mezara son kez g\u00f6z gezdirdim.\n\n\u201cBenden k\u0131rk y\u0131l\u0131 ald\u0131n. Ama son anda bile olsa, kalan y\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131 bana geri verdin.\u201d\n\nO g\u00fcn mezarl\u0131ktan yaln\u0131z \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131m.\n\nYan\u0131mda ge\u00e7mi\u015fte kaybetti\u011fim o\u011flum vard\u0131.\n\nAk\u015fam ise bizi evde, hayat\u0131m boyunca varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan habersiz oldu\u011fum k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck torunum bekliyordu.\n\nGe\u00e7mi\u015fi de\u011fi\u015ftiremezdim.\n\nAma ilk kez \u015funu \u00e7ok net anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m:\n\n\u0130nsan\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131 belirleyen yaln\u0131zca elinden al\u0131nan y\u0131llar de\u011fil, ger\u00e7e\u011fi \u00f6\u011frendikten sonra kalan y\u0131llarla ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131.\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":696,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-695","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/695","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=695"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/695\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":698,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/695\/revisions\/698"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/696"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=695"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=695"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=695"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}