{"id":803,"date":"2026-09-23T20:23:15","date_gmt":"2026-09-23T20:23:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=803"},"modified":"2026-09-23T20:23:15","modified_gmt":"2026-09-23T20:23:15","slug":"kocamin-arkadasinin-benden-her-gun-istedigi-sey","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kocamin-arkadasinin-benden-her-gun-istedigi-sey\/","title":{"rendered":"Kocam\u0131n Arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n Benden Her G\u00fcn \u0130stedi\u011fi \u015eey.."},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-803 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kocamin-arkadasinin-benden-her-gun-istedigi-sey\/9999999-4\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/9999999-3-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-804\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-804'>\n\t\t\t\tKocam Serhat\u2019\u0131n en yak\u0131n arkada\u015f\u0131 Levent, neredeyse on be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r hayat\u0131m\u0131zdayd\u0131.\n\nSerhat\u2019la \u00fcniversiteden beri arkada\u015flard\u0131. Birlikte i\u015f kurmu\u015flar, birlikte batm\u0131\u015flar, sonra yeniden aya\u011fa kalkm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde Serhat\u2019\u0131n \u015fahidi Levent\u2019ti. O\u011flumuz do\u011fdu\u011funda hastanenin kap\u0131s\u0131nda sabaha kadar bekleyen de oydu.\n\nBu y\u00fczden \u00fc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce Serhat\u2019\u0131 ani bir kalp kriziyle kaybetti\u011fimde, Levent\u2019in cenazeden sonra bana s\u00f6yledi\u011fi s\u00f6zleri garipsemedim.\n\n\u201cNe zaman bir \u015feye ihtiyac\u0131n olursa beni ara, Aylin. Serhat bana seni ve Arda\u2019y\u0131 yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmamam\u0131 s\u00f6ylerdi.\u201d\n\nO g\u00fcn bunu dost\u00e7a verilmi\u015f bir s\u00f6z sand\u0131m.\n\nAma birka\u00e7 hafta sonra Levent benden her g\u00fcn ayn\u0131 \u015feyi istemeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nSaat tam 18.00\u2019de telefonum \u00e7al\u0131yordu.\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcn de yapar m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d\n\n\u0130lk kez sordu\u011funda ne demek istedi\u011fini anlayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u201cNeyi?\u201d\n\n\u201cSerhat\u2019\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma odas\u0131na gir. Masas\u0131n\u0131n sa\u011f \u00e7ekmecesini a\u00e7. \u0130\u00e7erideki siyah defteri \u00e7\u0131kar ve bana sadece bug\u00fcn\u00fcn tarihinin yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 sayfay\u0131 oku.\u201d\n\nSessiz kald\u0131m.\n\nSerhat\u2019\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma odas\u0131na neredeyse hi\u00e7 girmemi\u015ftim. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7maya bile dayanam\u0131yordum. Masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde h\u00e2l\u00e2 kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131 kalem, kahve fincan\u0131n\u0131n b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 soluk iz ve g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc duruyordu.\n\n\u201cLevent, neden?\u201d\n\nTelefondaki sesi ciddile\u015fti.\n\n\u201c\u015eimdilik sorma. L\u00fctfen bana g\u00fcven.\u201d\n\nDefteri buldum.\n\nKal\u0131n, siyah kapakl\u0131 eski bir ajandayd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde her g\u00fcne ait birka\u00e7 sat\u0131r yaz\u0131 vard\u0131.\n\n\u0130lk okudu\u011fum sayfada sadece \u015funlar yaz\u0131yordu:\n\n\u201c18 Mart. Arda\u2019n\u0131n okul taksidini yat\u0131rmay\u0131 unutma. Aylin yine kahvesini so\u011futtu. Ak\u015fam erken eve d\u00f6n.\u201d\n\nBo\u011faz\u0131m d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.\n\nLevent hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden dinledi.\n\nErtesi g\u00fcn yine arad\u0131.\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcnk\u00fc sayfay\u0131 da okur musun?\u201d\n\nBu kez Serhat \u015f\u00f6yle yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131:\n\n\u201c19 Mart. Aylin annesini \u00f6zl\u00fcyor ama belli etmiyor. Hafta sonu onu annesine g\u00f6t\u00fcr.\u201d\n\nSonraki g\u00fcn:\n\n\u201c20 Mart. Arda bisiklet istiyor. Aylin pahal\u0131 diye kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131r. Birlikte al\u0131rsak k\u0131zamaz.\u201d\n\nG\u00fcnler b\u00f6yle ge\u00e7ti.\n\nHer ak\u015fam Serhat\u2019\u0131n ge\u00e7mi\u015fte o tarihte yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck notlar\u0131 Levent\u2019e okuyordum.\n\nBa\u015fta bunun yas\u0131n\u0131 atlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir arkada\u015f\u0131n tuhaf davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.\n\nAncak bir s\u00fcre sonra baz\u0131 \u015feyler beni rahats\u0131z etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Levent, notlar\u0131 yaln\u0131zca dinlemiyordu.\n\nBazen ben daha okumadan i\u00e7inde ne yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyor gibiydi\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/kocamin-arkadasinin-benden-her-gun-istedigi-sey\/imgonlin1\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonlin1-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-805\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonlin1-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonlin1-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonlin1-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonlin1.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 150px) 100vw, 150px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-805'>\n\t\t\t\tBir ak\u015fam sayfay\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Serhat\u2019\u0131n \u015fu c\u00fcmlesini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm:\n\n\u201c27 Mart. Levent\u2019e verdi\u011fim zarf h\u00e2l\u00e2 onda.\u201d\n\nC\u00fcmleyi okudu\u011fum anda telefonun di\u011fer ucunda uzun bir sessizlik oldu.\n\n\u201cNe zarf\u0131?\u201d diye sordum.\n\nLevent hemen konuyu kapatt\u0131.\n\n\u201cYar\u0131n konu\u015furuz.\u201d\n\nAma ertesi g\u00fcn arad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey a\u00e7\u0131klamad\u0131.\n\nSadece yine ayn\u0131 \u015feyi s\u00f6yledi:\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcnk\u00fc sayfay\u0131 oku.\u201d\n\nArt\u0131k i\u00e7imde ku\u015fku b\u00fcy\u00fcyordu.\n\nSerhat benden ne saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131?\n\nLevent ne biliyordu?\n\nVe neden kocam \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra her g\u00fcn o defteri okumam\u0131 istiyordu?\n\nBir gece dayanamay\u0131p defterin ileri sayfalar\u0131n\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.\n\nAylar sonras\u0131na ait sayfalar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011fu bo\u015ftu.\n\nAma sonlara do\u011fru birka\u00e7 sayfan\u0131n aras\u0131na k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir anahtar bantlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nAlt\u0131nda Serhat\u2019\u0131n el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla tek c\u00fcmle vard\u0131:\n\n\u201cLevent s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tutarsa Aylin bunu 40. g\u00fcn bulacak.\u201d\n\nEllerim titremeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nTakvime bakt\u0131m.\n\nSerhat\u2019\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fczerinden tam otuz dokuz g\u00fcn ge\u00e7mi\u015fti.\n\nErtesi ak\u015fam Levent arad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda telefonu a\u00e7ar a\u00e7maz sordum:\n\n\u201cSerhat sana ne yapt\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor?\u201d\n\nSessizlik oldu.\n\n\u201cDemek anahtar\u0131 buldun.\u201d\n\n\u201cBana her \u015feyi anlat.\u201d\n\nLevent derin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cYar\u0131n sabah gelece\u011fim.\u201d\n\nO gece hi\u00e7 uyuyamad\u0131m.\n\nSabah dokuzda kap\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131.\n\nLevent\u2019in elinde eski, metal bir kutu vard\u0131.\n\nKutuyu mutfak masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u0131rakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cSerhat bunu yakla\u015f\u0131k bir y\u0131l \u00f6nce bana verdi.\u201d\n\n\u201cBir y\u0131l \u00f6nce mi?\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\n\u201cKalp rahats\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu.\u201d\n\nOldu\u011fum yerde donakald\u0131m.\n\n\u201cNe?\u201d\n\n\u201cDoktorlar ciddi oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemi\u015f. Ama seni korkutmak istememi\u015f. Tedavi g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. Bana da bir g\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131na bir \u015fey gelirse bu kutuyu k\u0131rk\u0131nc\u0131 g\u00fcn sana getirmemi s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\n\u00d6fkeyle aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cBana neden s\u00f6ylemedi?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc son aylar\u0131n\u0131 hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek ge\u00e7irmeni istemedi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zlerim doldu.\n\nLevent siyah defteri i\u015faret etti.\n\n\u201cHer g\u00fcn sana o sayfalar\u0131 okutma fikri de onundu.\u201d\n\n\u201cNeden?\u201d\n\nLevent\u2019in g\u00f6zleri k\u0131zard\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni tan\u0131yordu.\u201d\n\nAnlamad\u0131m.\n\n\u201cNe demek istiyorsun?\u201d\n\n\u201cSerhat, \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma odas\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kapataca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu. E\u015fyalar\u0131na dokunmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hatta o odadan ka\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. \u2018Aylin ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7ine g\u00f6mer,\u2019 dedi. \u2018Ona beni hat\u0131rlamak i\u00e7in bir sebep ver. Her g\u00fcn birka\u00e7 dakika bile olsa sesimi zihninde duysun.\u2019\u201d\n\nG\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 tutamad\u0131m.\n\nMasadaki metal kutuya bakt\u0131m.\n\nAnahtar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m.\n\nKilit a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.\n\n\u0130\u00e7inden banka evraklar\u0131, Arda i\u00e7in haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f bir e\u011fitim hesab\u0131 ve birka\u00e7 dosya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nAma en altta beyaz bir zarf vard\u0131.\n\n\u00dczerinde yaln\u0131zca:\n\n\u201cAylin\u2019e.\u201d\n\nyaz\u0131yordu.\n\nZarf\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\nSerhat\u2019\u0131n el yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez ellerim titredi.\n\n\u201cMadem bunu okuyorsun, Levent s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tuttu.\n\nMuhtemelen bana \u00e7ok k\u0131zg\u0131ns\u0131n.\n\nHakl\u0131s\u0131n.\n\nSana hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6ylemeliydim.\n\nAma kalan zaman\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hastane koridorlar\u0131ndan, korkudan ve geri say\u0131mdan ibaret olmas\u0131n\u0131 istemedim.\n\nSenden bir \u015fey rica edece\u011fim.\n\nBen \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm g\u00fcn senin hayat\u0131n da bitmesin.\n\n\u00c7al\u0131\u015fma odam\u0131 m\u00fcze yapma.\n\nK\u0131yafetlerimi y\u0131llarca dolapta saklamak zorunda hissetme.\n\nArda g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde su\u00e7luluk duyma.\n\nBir g\u00fcn yeniden mutlu olursan beni unutmu\u015f olmayacaks\u0131n.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevgi, birinin ard\u0131ndan hayat\u0131 durdurmak de\u011fildir.\n\nOnun sana b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fczel \u015feylerle ya\u015famaya devam etmektir.\n\nBir de Levent\u2019e k\u0131zma.\n\nOna verdi\u011fim en zor g\u00f6rev buydu.\n\nSeni k\u0131rk g\u00fcn boyunca her ak\u015fam bana geri getirmek.\u201d\n\nMektubu g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme bast\u0131rd\u0131m.\n\nUzun s\u00fcre a\u011flad\u0131m.\n\nSonra ilk kez Serhat\u2019\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden beri \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma odas\u0131n\u0131n perdesini a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\nG\u00fcne\u015f i\u00e7eri doldu.\n\nMasas\u0131n\u0131 toplamad\u0131m.\n\nE\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 da hemen kald\u0131rmad\u0131m.\n\nSadece pencereyi a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\nAk\u015fam oldu\u011funda Levent telefon etmedi.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00f6revi bitmi\u015fti.\n\nAma ben saat 18.00\u2019de siyah defteri kendim a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\nO g\u00fcn\u00fcn sayfas\u0131nda Serhat\u2019\u0131n y\u0131llar \u00f6nce yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 tek bir c\u00fcmle vard\u0131:\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcn Aylin \u00e7ok g\u00fcld\u00fc. Umar\u0131m y\u0131llar sonra da b\u00f6yle g\u00fcler.\u201d\n\nDefteri kapatt\u0131m.\n\nO\u011flum Arda salondan bana seslendi.\n\n\u201cAnne, d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p biraz y\u00fcr\u00fcyelim mi?\u201d\n\nAyakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 giydim.\n\nKap\u0131y\u0131 kapat\u0131rken ilk kez arkam\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp eve bakmad\u0131m.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o anda anlad\u0131m:\n\nSerhat bana k\u0131rk g\u00fcn boyunca ge\u00e7mi\u015fimizi hat\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nAma b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 son mesaj ge\u00e7mi\u015fte ya\u015famam i\u00e7in de\u011fildi.\n\nBensiz de olsa ya\u015famaya devam et, diyebilmek i\u00e7indi.\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":804,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-803","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/803","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=803"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/803\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":806,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/803\/revisions\/806"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/804"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=803"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=803"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=803"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}