{"id":852,"date":"2026-09-24T20:54:33","date_gmt":"2026-09-24T20:54:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/?p=852"},"modified":"2026-09-24T20:54:33","modified_gmt":"2026-09-24T20:54:33","slug":"annem-30-yil-boyunca-her-pazar-ayni-tren-istasyonuna-gitti-cenazesinden-sonra-cantasinda-buldugum-bilet-kimi-bekledigini-ortaya-cikardi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/annem-30-yil-boyunca-her-pazar-ayni-tren-istasyonuna-gitti-cenazesinden-sonra-cantasinda-buldugum-bilet-kimi-bekledigini-ortaya-cikardi\/","title":{"rendered":"ANNEM 30 YIL BOYUNCA HER PAZAR AYNI TREN \u0130STASYONUNA G\u0130TT\u0130 \u2014 CENAZES\u0130NDEN SONRA \u00c7ANTASINDA BULDU\u011eUM B\u0130LET, K\u0130M\u0130 BEKLED\u0130\u011e\u0130N\u0130 ORTAYA \u00c7IKARDI."},"content":{"rendered":"\n\t\t<style>\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 {\n\t\t\t\tmargin: auto;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-item {\n\t\t\t\tfloat: left;\n\t\t\t\tmargin-top: 10px;\n\t\t\t\ttext-align: center;\n\t\t\t\twidth: 33%;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 img {\n\t\t\t\tborder: 2px solid #cfcfcf;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t#gallery-1 .gallery-caption {\n\t\t\t\tmargin-left: 0;\n\t\t\t}\n\t\t\t\/* see gallery_shortcode() in wp-includes\/media.php *\/\n\t\t<\/style>\n\t\t<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-852 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/annem-30-yil-boyunca-her-pazar-ayni-tren-istasyonuna-gitti-cenazesinden-sonra-cantasinda-buldugum-bilet-kimi-bekledigini-ortaya-cikardi\/656565-5\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/656565-4-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-853\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-853'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201cBen Yusuf\u2019um,\u201d dedi.\n\n\u201cAnnem beni otuz y\u0131l bekledi, de\u011fil mi?\u201d\n\nO an ne s\u00f6yleyece\u011fimi bilemedim.\n\nKar\u015f\u0131mda duran adam altm\u0131\u015f ya\u015flar\u0131ndayd\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u0131sm\u0131 beyazlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Uzun boyluydu ama omuzlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Elindeki sararm\u0131\u015f bileti \u00f6yle s\u0131k\u0131 tutuyordu ki parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n eklemleri bembeyaz olmu\u015ftu.\n\nY\u0131llard\u0131r annemin pazar g\u00fcnleri oturdu\u011fu o eski bank\u0131n yan\u0131nda, birbirimize bakan iki yabanc\u0131yd\u0131k.\n\nAma ikimiz de ayn\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011fuyduk.\n\n\u201cEvet,\u201d dedim sonunda. \u201cHer pazar geldi.\u201d\n\nYusuf\u2019un g\u00f6zleri doldu.\n\n\u201cHer pazar m\u0131?\u201d\n\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sallad\u0131m.\n\n\u201cYa\u011fmurda da. Karda da. Hastayken bile.\u201d\n\nYusuf g\u00f6zlerini istasyon saatine \u00e7evirdi. Saat 10.21\u2019i g\u00f6steriyordu.\n\nDudaklar\u0131 titredi.\n\n\u201cAlt\u0131 dakika ge\u00e7 kald\u0131m,\u201d dedi.\n\nBu c\u00fcmlede \u00f6yle a\u011f\u0131r bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131k vard\u0131 ki cevap veremedim.\n\nYan yana oturduk.\n\nBir s\u00fcre trenlerin raylarda \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 metalik sesten ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015fey duyulmad\u0131.\n\nSonra Yusuf \u00e7antas\u0131ndan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f bir zarf \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunu babam \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde buldum,\u201d dedi.\n\nZarf\u0131n \u00fczerinde annemin ad\u0131 yaz\u0131yordu.\n\nNevin.\n\n\u201cBabam Kemal, iki ay \u00f6nce \u00f6ld\u00fc. E\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 toplarken bu mektubu buldum. Mektupta annemin h\u00e2l\u00e2 her pazar ayn\u0131 istasyonda beni bekliyor olabilece\u011fini yazm\u0131\u015f.\u201d\n\n\u0130\u00e7imde bir \u00f6fke y\u00fckseldi.\n\n\u201cBiliyormu\u015f yani?\u201d\n\nYusuf ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.\n\n\u201cEvet.\u201d\n\n\u201cOtuz y\u0131l boyunca annemin bekledi\u011fini biliyormu\u015f ve sana s\u00f6ylememi\u015f mi?\u201d\n\nYusuf\u2019un y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ac\u0131 daha da b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.\n\n\u201cBabam bana annemin bizi terk etti\u011fini s\u00f6yledi.\u201d\n\nOldu\u011fum yerde donup kald\u0131m.\n\nYusuf anlatmaya devam etti.\n\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fu boyunca annesinin onu istemedi\u011fine inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kemal ona, Nevin\u2019in ba\u015fka bir hayat se\u00e7ti\u011fini, o\u011flunu geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti.\n\n\u201cOn ya\u015f\u0131ndayken annemi g\u00f6rmek istedi\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim,\u201d dedi Yusuf. \u201cBabam \u00e7ok sinirlendi. Bana, \u2018O seni g\u00f6rmek isteseydi \u015fimdiye kadar gelirdi,\u2019 dedi.\u201d\n\nOysa annem gelmi\u015fti.\n\nHem de y\u00fczlerce kez.\n\nHer pazar.\n\nAyn\u0131 saatte.\n\nAyn\u0131 peronda.\n\nBirden \u00e7ocukken anneme s\u00f6yledi\u011fim bir c\u00fcmleyi hat\u0131rlad\u0131m.\n\n\u201cAnne, pazar g\u00fcnleri neden hep gidiyorsun?\u201d\n\nO zaman g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cBazen bir insan\u0131n gelmesi i\u00e7in de\u011fil, geldi\u011finde seni orada bulabilmesi i\u00e7in beklersin.\u201d\n\nY\u0131llarca bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn ne anlama geldi\u011fini anlayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u015eimdi anl\u0131yordum.\n\nYusuf mektubu bana uzatt\u0131.\n\nKemal\u2019in el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nMektupta her \u015fey vard\u0131.\n\nY\u0131llar \u00f6nce aileler aras\u0131ndaki b\u00fcy\u00fck tart\u0131\u015fmadan sonra Kemal o\u011flunu al\u0131p gitmi\u015fti. Nevin\u2019in onlar\u0131 bulmas\u0131n\u0131 engellemi\u015f, adreslerini de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015fti.\n\nYusuf b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e annesini daha \u00e7ok sormaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca ise ger\u00e7ekleri anlatmak yerine yalan s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti.\n\nAma Kemal ya\u015flan\u0131p hastaland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda vicdan\u0131yla ba\u015f ba\u015fa kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nMektubun son sat\u0131rlar\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6yle yaz\u0131yordu:\n\n\u201cNevin bana, \u2018Yusuf bir g\u00fcn beni ararsa pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc saat 10.15\u2019te istasyonda olaca\u011f\u0131m,\u2019 demi\u015fti. Onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tutaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorum. Ben ise verdi\u011fim hi\u00e7bir s\u00f6z\u00fc tutmad\u0131m.\u201d\n\nYusuf elleriyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kapatt\u0131\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl><dl class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<dt class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/annem-30-yil-boyunca-her-pazar-ayni-tren-istasyonuna-gitti-cenazesinden-sonra-cantasinda-buldugum-bilet-kimi-bekledigini-ortaya-cikardi\/imgonli11-2\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" src=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-150x150.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" aria-describedby=\"gallery-1-854\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/imgonli11-1.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 150px) 100vw, 150px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/dt>\n\t\t\t\t<dd class='wp-caption-text gallery-caption' id='gallery-1-854'>\n\t\t\t\t\u201c\u0130ki ay \u00f6nce bu mektubu buldum ama hemen gelemedim.\u201d\n\n\u201cNeden?\u201d\n\nDerin bir nefes ald\u0131.\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc korktum.\u201d\n\n\u201cAnnenden mi?\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r. Onun y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmaktan.\u201d\n\nY\u0131llarca kendisini terk eden bir anneye \u00f6fke duymu\u015ftu. Hatta gen\u00e7li\u011finde annesine hitaben mektuplar yazm\u0131\u015f, sonra hepsini y\u0131rtm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u015eimdi b\u00fct\u00fcn o \u00f6fkenin yanl\u0131\u015f bir hik\u00e2yeye dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyordu.\n\n\u201cYa beni affetmezse diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm,\u201d dedi.\n\nSesim istemeden sertle\u015fti.\n\n\u201cAnnem seni otuz y\u0131l bekledi. Sence seni affetmez miydi?\u201d\n\nYusuf ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.\n\nG\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar ak\u0131yordu.\n\nTam o s\u0131rada akl\u0131ma annemin cenazesinden \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z son gece geldi.\n\nAnnem hastayd\u0131. Yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturuyordum.\n\nBir ara g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7\u0131p bana:\n\n\u201cBu pazar istasyona gidemeyebilirim,\u201d demi\u015fti.\n\nBen de elini tutup, \u201cArt\u0131k gitme anne. Yeterince bekledin,\u201d demi\u015ftim.\n\nBana uzun uzun bakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nSonra \u00e7ok sessiz bir sesle:\n\n\u201c\u0130nsan sevdi\u011fi birini beklemekten yorulmaz. Sadece zaman\u0131n kendisinden \u00f6nce yorulmas\u0131ndan korkar,\u201d demi\u015fti.\n\nO an s\u00f6zlerini anlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u015eimdi g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm\u00fcn ortas\u0131na bir ta\u015f oturmu\u015f gibiydi.\n\nYusuf\u2019a bakt\u0131m.\n\n\u201cGel.\u201d\n\n\u201cNereye?\u201d\n\n\u201cAnnemin evine.\u201d\n\nO \u00f6\u011fleden sonra birlikte eve gittik.\n\nYusuf kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girerken durdu.\n\nSanki annem birazdan mutfaktan \u00e7\u0131kacakm\u0131\u015f gibi etrafa bakt\u0131.\n\nDuvarlardaki foto\u011fraflar\u0131 inceledi.\n\nBenim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum.\n\nD\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcm.\n\n\u00c7ocuklar\u0131m.\n\nAnnemin do\u011fum g\u00fcnleri.\n\nSonra salonun k\u00f6\u015fesindeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck vitrinde bir foto\u011fraf g\u00f6rd\u00fc.\n\nDondu.\n\nFoto\u011fraf, benim daha \u00f6nce fark etmedi\u011fim kadar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ve eskiydi.\n\n\u00dczerinde \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fi vard\u0131.\n\nAnnem.\n\nKemal.\n\nVe k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Yusuf.\n\nYusuf foto\u011fraf\u0131 eline ald\u0131.\n\n\u201cBunu neden saklam\u0131\u015f?\u201d\n\n\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni hi\u00e7 unutmam\u0131\u015f.\u201d\n\nAnnemin yatak odas\u0131na ge\u00e7tik.\n\nDaha \u00f6nce \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 buldu\u011fum dolab\u0131 yeniden a\u00e7t\u0131m.\n\nBu kez Yusuf, alt raftaki eski bir kutuyu fark etti.\n\nKutunun \u00fczerinde yaln\u0131zca tek kelime vard\u0131:\n\nYUSUF.\n\nBirbirimize bakt\u0131k.\n\nKutuyu a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda i\u00e7inden onlarca zarf \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\n\nHer birinin \u00fczerinde tarih vard\u0131.\n\nAnnem her y\u0131l Yusuf\u2019a mektup yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nAma hi\u00e7birini g\u00f6ndermemi\u015fti.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc adresini bilmiyordu.\n\nYusuf ilk mektubu a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\nAnnem \u015f\u00f6yle yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131:\n\n\u201cCan\u0131m o\u011flum, bug\u00fcn yine gelmedin. Sana k\u0131zg\u0131n de\u011filim. Belki h\u00e2l\u00e2 haz\u0131r de\u011filsindir. Ben sen haz\u0131r olana kadar ayn\u0131 yerde olaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d\n\nYusuf mektubu okuyamad\u0131.\n\nSandalye \u00e7ekip oturdu ve \u00e7ocuk gibi a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\n\nSaatler boyunca kutudaki mektuplar\u0131 okuduk.\n\nAnnem Yusuf\u2019un do\u011fum g\u00fcnlerini hi\u00e7 unutmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nHer y\u0131l ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131na bast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hesaplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcn 40 oldun.\u201d\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcn 50 ya\u015f\u0131ndas\u0131n.\u201d\n\n\u201cBug\u00fcn sa\u00e7lar\u0131n beyazlamaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r belki.\u201d\n\nSon mektup yaln\u0131zca \u00fc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\nYusuf titreyen elleriyle a\u00e7t\u0131.\n\n\u201cSevgili o\u011flum, art\u0131k \u00e7ok ya\u015fland\u0131m. Bir pazar geldi\u011finde beni g\u00f6remezsen, sak\u0131n seni beklemekten vazge\u00e7ti\u011fimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme. Belki ben gidemem ama sana verdi\u011fim s\u00f6z orada kal\u0131r. E\u011fer bir g\u00fcn gelirsen, karde\u015fini bul. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc senin kaybetti\u011fin y\u0131llar\u0131 geri veremem ama yaln\u0131z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeni sa\u011flayabilirim.\u201d\n\nYusuf uzun s\u00fcre konu\u015fmad\u0131.\n\nSonra bana bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cKarde\u015fim\u2026\u201d\n\nBu kelimeyi ilk kez s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu.\n\nGaripti.\n\nAma yabanc\u0131 gelmedi.\n\nSonraki pazar tekrar istasyona gittik.\n\nBu kez yan\u0131mda Yusuf vard\u0131.\n\nAnnemin her zaman oturdu\u011fu banka k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir metal plaka yapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\n\n\u00dczerinde yaln\u0131zca bir c\u00fcmle yaz\u0131yordu:\n\n\u201cBaz\u0131 insanlar gelmese bile verilen s\u00f6zler burada beklemeye devam eder.\u201d\n\nSaat 10.15 oldu\u011funda tren geldi.\n\nYusuf aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.\n\nBir an raylara, sonra bana bakt\u0131.\n\n\u201cAnnem beni g\u00f6remedi.\u201d\n\n\u201cHay\u0131r,\u201d dedim. \u201cAma seni eve getirdi.\u201d\n\nYusuf g\u00f6zlerini kapat\u0131p ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.\n\nSonra ilk kez g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.\n\nO g\u00fcn istasyondan birlikte ayr\u0131ld\u0131k.\n\nOtuz y\u0131l boyunca annem her pazar oraya yaln\u0131z gelmi\u015fti.\n\nAma onun son yolculu\u011fundan sonra, o perondan ilk kez iki karde\u015f yan yana y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k.\n\nVe sonunda \u015funu anlad\u0131m:\n\nAnnem otuz y\u0131l boyunca yaln\u0131zca o\u011flunu beklememi\u015fti.\n\nBir g\u00fcn ger\u00e7e\u011fin b\u00fct\u00fcn yalanlardan daha uzun ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131na inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\n\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 kavu\u015fmalar zaman\u0131nda ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmez.\n\nAma ger\u00e7ek sevgi, insanlar\u0131 ge\u00e7 de olsa birbirlerinin yoluna yeniden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r.\n\nAnnem o trenden inecek ki\u015fiyi g\u00f6remedi.\n\nAma b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir bilet, bir kutu dolusu mektup ve tutulmu\u015f bir s\u00f6z sayesinde, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra bile ailesini yeniden bir araya getirmeyi ba\u015fard\u0131.\n\nVe o g\u00fcnden sonra ne zaman bir tren sesi duysam, annemin otuz y\u0131l boyunca neden ayn\u0131 bankta oturdu\u011funu hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum.\n\nO asl\u0131nda bir insan\u0131 de\u011fil, umudun eve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc bekliyordu.\n\t\t\t\t<\/dd><\/dl>\n\t\t\t<br style='clear: both' \/>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":853,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-852","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-foto-galeri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/852","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=852"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/852\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":855,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/852\/revisions\/855"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/853"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=852"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=852"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.denizcakmak.com\/hbr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=852"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}